Disclaimer: Psycho B*tches - Sep Bus 16

[Juno231]

June BFPs - 24
July BFPs - 10
August BFPs - 18

September testing dates:
@mrsbear1122 - August 31st
@Juno231 - September 4th
@LV1987- September 4th
@franklydear September 4th
@frolicmum - September 4th
@florence13 - September 6th
@2020mission - September 8th
@mrsi2020 - September 12th
@vil10 - September 13th
@notyetamumbuttrying - September 14th
@Katao - September 19th
@Laceymermaid - September 29th
@minster2012 - October 9th

@2alreadywantanother you can keep going and it's not wrong to think about TTC for another. I was like that, and tbh I had to be to keep sane as I was like you, our "not knowing if it was growing or not" took 2 weeks but as soon as we knew for sure I was like "ok so this one hasn't worked & it wasn't meant to be so I just want to get it over with & be done with it". It may be harsh but that's me. That was how I coped, a bit of disconnect. You will cry. A lot. Its awful. It's good you and DH are on the same page. We are all here for you gorgeous xxx

@Juno231 I think we all think that!! Fertile 🦄I am most definitely not, I keep finding out more how broken I am 🙈but we will all get there ladies somehow! Stick together in 🐧huddle @lucyrp @Missgoldilocks @Vil10 @notyetamumbuttrying @Katao @2020mission @Franklydear we will get there!

@Juno231 no that was all it seemed. She did ask if I wanted a reply to my formal complaint on email or if i was satisfied with their reponse over the phone and i didn't think I'd achieve much by having an email sent to me reiterating what she'd already said 😂 I hope it doesn't get to that but at least its there if I need it!

@Juno231 no worries. He was a bit shit and didn't really know. He said to have 3 months in mind so who knows. When I call for blood results I'll ask to speak to a gp and see what mine says. I guess it depends on which clinic, as we'll get a bit choice being SE London...I think?! Thanks, hope you don't need it and Dh has top notch swimmers!!
@Minster2012 thank you. I'm feeling particularly shit today and can't even blame hormones as I'm only cd8! I should be feeling great and fertile but I just feel extremely fed up and can't even be bothered with FW! It's always me initiating and I just can't be arsed, even more now that I know our chances are so slim 😔 don't mind me and my tiny violin, I know you're going through so much worse! I'm sorry to moan like that. X

@notyetamumbuttrying, I might be barking at the wrong tree, but ds is learning canon in d to play in his violin, teacher chose it for me, cos it’s beautiful, look it up on YouTube and have a good cry.💐
@Juno231 Sunday 27th will be d day, make or break.
@Minster2012, November will make a year for me too, I don’t know how to feel.

@notyetamumbuttrying EVERYONE is entitled to feel shit. We are all in the same boat no one worse off lovely. We all get like that don't worry babe xxxx

Anyone got any good film recommendations from Netflix ladies that would appeal to us both?

Yes I know it @Franklydear it's a lovely piece! Don't think I have the energy to cry, I'll just feel shitter but I'll see what the evening brings.
Thanks @Minster2012 you're very sweet!
What sorts genre you after?

That was meant to be the colloquial "sorta" but it autocorrected @Minster2012

Heyyy everyone!

Sorry to hear some of us are going through a tough patch :(
Good to hear your GP took your complaint seriously @lucyrp let's hope they get themselves more organised! And I'm glad to hear your sex life is spicy again 😉

@2alreadywantanother I'm so sorry to hear what your going through hun! Thats so heartbreaking! Sending you lots of hugs 🤗

Its been a while since I've caught up so apologies if I've missed any big updates. I hope everyone else is okay?? And enjoying their weekend.
Last time I was on i had a cp and kinda lost track on CD etc... so I went back to using my cbd to track my FW. And it came on Sept 10th (day before my birthday haha) so I'm now 10 dpo. No real symptoms, occasional twinge type cramp and when dd climbs over me my lower abdomen feels tight and tender if that's the right word. I haven't tested yet and am trying to hold out lol! But my bbt chart is looking relatively ok I think? @Juno231 :)
Originally thought I'd O today but it seems my body just does what the hell she wants 🤣

It's very true though @notyetamumbuttrying often we ALL feel meh, like they don't care and don't get it & it's all we can think off, obsess over. It's true. I think sometimes that where we need to say, don't worry about this week, today or whatever. Or make more effort to make it happen yet not feel forced which is a very hard balance.

Film wise honestly no idea, we watch sport ones & have done some of those recently, last night we watched an older one with Richard gere & Edward Norton - Primal fear. He's not massively into rom coms but loves Italian mafia type films other than that no idea!

@lucyrp for you! Cracked me up 🤣

@Juno231 that's literally my life 🤣 I'm supposed to be ovulating tomorrow but these are my opks 😭

@notyetamumbuttrying girl listen. You moan away and day what you gotta say! Every cycle I'm like what's the god damn point because in my head if it hasn't worked yet well why the fuck would it (so negative but hey ho Ttc for over a year will have that affect!) you're entitled to any feeling that you are feeling! My OH is soooo dense and doesn't get it I mean yesterday I was like ah what's the point in this I don't think I can mentally take anymore and he was like, well, I've told you we can pay privately fro treatment in January it's very black and white I don't see what you don't understand! 😑 Well I just about hit the roof cussin, about!! Just because YOU forget every month what we are trying to do I NEVER forget kmtttttt 😐😬 it's so LONELY and SHIT and fuck it all its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel!!
We are all here for you!! Sorry if I'm not around much and this is to all the girls but I find if I'm on mums net too much it makes it harder so I pop in and pop out a lot but I'm most certainly very much here with you all going through this!!

@Minster2012 also agree with everything this lovely lady said, @notyetamumbuttrying!

Movies hmmm train to busan is actually really good its Korean like a zombie movie but honestly top notch. Also another Korean horror which is excellent is "rigor Mortis" might sound weird but so good. Obviously there's the older movies like "heat" with Robert deniro and Al pacino or "the scent of a woman" with Al pacino. Most of the mafia type movies I'm guessing your partner has already seen (godfather is my absolute favourite of all time) Road to perdition etc. There aren't really any new type mafia movies really. What other genres would you be into??
I love anime and there's some great anime movies going!
If you can stomach a bit of anime there's an amazing anime series called Hellsing on Netflix, there's like 11 episodes but they're 45 mins long or something like that, really really top anime 😁

Hey! Home now after a long day travelling 💤

@Vil10 we've been to Kalkan in Turkey with my family, it was gorgeous! Just what we needed 🥰 how are you?? X

@Minster2012 ah thank you! I've missed you guys!! I must admit I've missed not having people to run my overthinking past this TWW 😂 my chilling out on TTC is hard work. How are you? How's the IVF? Did I see youd had an unexpected AF? X

@lucyrp how are your cycles now? Have they returned to some sort of normality? Aw the bath time with your OH sounds lush, love stuff like that. X

So AF isn't due until Thursday but I've had spotting since Thursday just gone 😑 not enough to justify tampons etc., and only when wiping. The optimistic part of me has obvs been googling implantation bleeding but the realist knows that it's probably the travelling that's thrown it out of whack 🙄 month one back TTC and here I am overanalysing 😂 x

@KateColx I had a 72 day one, my last one was 48 days and I'm currently on CD15 of this one so god knows how long this one will be. Should be ovulating today or tomorrow but doesn't look like much is happening on my opks and no idea what my bbt is doing. It was lush. Hope your holiday has been great x

@lucyrp ah bless you!! Fingers crossed it's coming down to normal length ☺️ ah it was lovely thank you, after both of us working right through lockdown it was just what we needed x

We all hope @lucyrp's cycle is coming back to a normal length @KateColx 🤣😂

So pleased you had a great time away! Yes we are too enjoying a lovely weekend away DS free which has come at a needed time as yes, I had a period arrive right at the wrong time IVF wise, CD14, when my body was soaking up estrogen to build a juicy womb lining for transfer next week but a scan showed it as low & guess what thats cos it was about to shed the day after! FFS. Thought IVF was gonna be cancelled but they said keep going on meds & do bloods & another scan next week on weds & just see. But meh I know I'm broken we'll see 😬

Hopefully it's not all over for you too hun 🤞🏻🤞🏻fuck boy bodies eh?! You gotta rolllll with it xxxx

@Katao Thankyou he's so much better now!

@lucyrp yesss when it's unexpected it's the best!

@notyetamumbuttrying yeah I can just cough my germs all back into my face😂

@Minster2012 yes it it!! Been having hot water lemon and honey all day and had those lemsip day and night tablets and currently got a thick layer of vapour rub all over my chest throat and feet!!

@KateColx it looks lovely!! Glad you had a nice time!! I'm okay thankyou, currently CD3 on cycle no.5, we go away on Tuesday and catch 3 days in FW whilst we're away so looking forward to this cycle, I won't be using opks and it'll be so more chilled!x

@Minster2012 yeah, it's shit basically lol!
Netflix isn't that great for films come to think of it, more for series. The fall is good if you didn't watch that first time round? Hope the scan goes well on weds! X
Thanks @Missgoldilocks you speak a lot of truth! I should prob come off here more. I'm now on the infertility threads as that's my future if Dh's SA doesn't improve 😩 we really struggle doing it in the week as well as we're both quite stressed with work. Think I'll just try it when I get my surge and be done with. I'm still poas like a loon so I may as well try and time it! 🙄
@Vil10 haha 🤣 I'm dreading ever sneezing into a mask, that won't be fun lol!

@Minster2012 😂😂 we're all so invested for you @lucyrp 🥰 oh no!! So sorry to hear that 😭 good news that it isn't all over just yet for you, fingers crossed your body has got rid of what it doesn't need and building fresh new lining ☺️ x

@Vil10 ooh where are you off to? Great timing with FW! I mean I know I'm screwing over the TWW now but I actually really enjoyed not doing OPKs etc for a while, i felt less stressed about having to have sex on certain days. Hope you have a lovely time away 😍 x

Erm so guys I've just done a FRER and I'm pretttyyyyy sure there's a faint second line 😭😭 trying not to get my hopes up as I know they can be bad for it but it's the closest I've ever had to a BFP xx

@KateColx @Minster2012 thanks girls means a lot! 🥰 we've missed you @KateColx! I've got everything crossed for your little line! 🥰

So I just temped for this morning and I've had another drop and today is meant to be Ov day 🤷🏼‍♀️

@lucyrp thanks lovely 🥰 I don't know too much on temping, is they a sign that it isn't OV? Are you just temping now or doing OPKs too? X

@KateColx I think you should have a temp dip on day of ov then a rise after so hopefully il have a rise tomorrow. Although I was hoping I'd have a rise today after my dip yesterday morning. I am doing OPKs yes but they don't seem to be showing much. Last cycle I tried using them and had like over 10 days of high on my CB OPKs. I've had one low this cycle and 5 days of high so far and I've been doing it in the evening too incase I missed it but have had nothing. Got my CD21 bloods a week today anyway so if I don't get a peak that will show some insight hopefully. X

@lucyrp ah with you!! I guess the highs are a good sign but how annoying with no peak. Did you not have your 21 day bloods done before or was that something else? X

@KateColx yes I did have them done but they didn't do the progesterone which was the main point of the test. You missed out on my doctors surgery complaint saga! I had to make a formal complaint because they weren't taking me seriously and did the blood test wrong twice x