TTC Baby no1. The crazy lot. Thread 2!!

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New thread!!

Please tag anyone else I've missed as I have a terrible memory

@stabal
@mia1985x
@lt103
@lma27
@pippy20
@leobaby
@faith82
@butterfly5291
@stepmumsw5
@lozz22
@beckyBP
@crayon7
@jadeb1995
@nellyk84

I'm lying here awake unable to sleep because my boss has her son and pregnant daughter in law staying with her for a week and I'm in work tomorrow (it's a B&B) so I have to see the woman that is due her baby when I was.. I feel sick at the thought of seeing her bump. I feel sick at the thought of seeing her touch that bump with pride. I don't know if I can ask how she's doing while holding it together. I don't want to be this jealous person. Ugh.

@Pippy20 so sorry to hear, keep us posted and come here to vent if you need x

@Stabal I have also become a jealous monster. My cousin already has a daughter and is now pregnant again. Also I had to cancel my big wedding due to covid when everyone else had their big day. What a fucked up year!

To top it off my DH asked me to test today as I'm 4 days late. Still as negative as can be.

Aw @Pippy20 so sorry to hear that. Did you call EPU last night? Sounds like a good idea to go but cant begin to imagine how you are feeling. Thinking about you and really praying it was just a bit of spotting and everything is ok.

@Stabal what a horrible situation for you and totally normal to feel like that. Hope you managed to get some sleep and hope work goes ok today. Hopefully you don't see her too much.

@Faith82 ooh I hadnt heard that about a bath but I will need to give it a google. I'm actually surprised I hadnt thought of checking that as I get so paranoid about what I'm doing around the TWW. I exercise quite alot and have started reading things that you shouldn't be doing too much in this time. Dont know how much evidence or science there is in it but we all drive ourselves crazy trying to ensure we are doing the right thing and giving ourselves the best chance. Such an overwhelming process at times isnt it.

Morning all, thanks for thinking of me 😔. No I haven’t rang EPU yet based on what the midwife said. She’s basically said rest for the week and take another test in a week unless I get heavy painful bleeding . I just want it all to be over, this horrible state of limbo is the worst part. I just want it all to be over so I can move on and not think about it. Haven’t had any more spotting but something is definitely going on, and I now basically have no symptoms. I had really sensitive sore boobs and that’s vanished as of this morning. I can’t even put into words how I feel and I have no idea whether to just wait it out at home or try EPU and see if I can get in for medical management. My local one isn’t self referral so I would have to go via my doctors tomorrow. I’ve got a really really busy week at work next week and have a very demanding stressful job it’s just going to be impossible if I’m there and impossible if I’m not. I just can’t believe how unlucky I am, it’s such a sad and lonely time x

@Pippy20 if I were you I would try the doctor tomorrow as otherwise this worry will keep you from going on about your life this week (at least that's how I function). It's better to maybe lose half a day of work and get answers than to suffer all week.

@Pippy20 I think you seem the sort of person that would rather know so you can deal with it rather than waiting so I would call EPU
The advice from the midwife doesn't seem particularly helpful, especially if you have a super busy week in work. Do work know about the first MC? So sorry you're going through this xxx

@Pippy20 I would absolutely ring your doctors to get them to get you into EPU. I don't think there will be an issue considering you've been here before, they will more than likely see you. Please don't allow yourself to be tortured any longer than needs be 💕

@stepmumSW5 sorry it's still a BFN. How frustrating for you! Sometimes I think this limbo is worse than the whole TWW.

Heading to work now, first time on public transport since February. A whole other level of anxiety I hadn't thought about until I got to the bus stop lol 😣

@Stabal the upside is not having my heavy and painful copper coil period

Thinking of you both today @Stabal & @Pippy20 xx

@Stabal hold your head up high and remember your time will come.

I'm super confused by OPKs guys 😂 looks like they're going up again?

@stepmumSW5 that's always a bonus I guess!

@Jadeb1995 it could be you got an early surge but didn't actually ovulate. Keep testing to be sure!

@Stabal got whiteish discharge today 🤷🏻‍♀️

@stepmumSW5 is it watery or thick and sticky?

@Stabal watery

@stepmumSW5 that's called leukorrhea and unfortunately is another symptom that both pregnancy and pre period share! Very frustrating! I had it for the first 3 weeks of my pregnancy

@Stabal 🤷🏻‍♀️ seems everything is against us. I have to build patience to wait now

Hope everyone is ok!!

AF arrived with a bang for me this morning and brought along the most horrendous cramps so completely ruined my Sunday 😂

I'm surprisingly ok about it. I want to get some ovulation strips to be more prepared for next time! Any recommendations? Xx

@beckyBP pesky visitor! New cycle 🤞🤞 any cheapies are basically the same. The femometer app allows you to take a photo and it interprets the strength of the lines which is handy. They also do their own brand of OPKs which are relatively cheap on Amazon! I recommend temping though as it's the only way to confirm ovulation

Exactly @Stabal ah that's so helpful! Thank you so much!! Xx

@beckyBP just seen your post about supplements too. Start slow for now as you're just getting started, you'll soon learn your body and what you might need. So standard folic acid and vitamin d is normally the go to x

@beckyBP if you download the Premom app, you get a link to 50% of the strips. Then it's about a fiver for 50!
I only noticed once I had ordered some, typical!

Ooo thanks so much @Jadeb1995 I'll do that now xx

Morning ladies, looks like I’m back to square one :-(. Although it feels like square zero! Had heavy bleeding all day yesterday so it’s definitely all over. Told I could stay at home so long as pain wasn’t too bad so I didn’t go to EPU. Hopefully it all completes naturally and I can move on without the need for scans etc. I’m absolutely devastated and can’t quite believe I’m going back to TTC again. Have stupidly been reading about recurrent miscarriages and convinced myself there must be something wrong with me. I’m tempted to look into private tests to see whether there’s anything obvious going on with either of us which we can work on before trying again. I can’t imagine going through this again, physically or mentally. I just can’t get my head around the fact I should have been having a baby in August, was then lucky enough to get pregnant again before that date and now that one is lost too. Even though I had mentally prepared myself that this might happen I still can’t believe it actually has. Trying to think positively through all the fog but it’s really hard x

Oh @Pippy20 I'm so sorry, I can't even imagine how you are feeling. Take some time for you. Have a pamper and treat yourself. You quite clearly deserve it!

@Pippy20 I am so so sorry. Honestly my heart is breaking for you. If you have the means to do private tests I would absolutely do it. The first thing a recurrent miscarriage nurse will suggest is supplements and you've already been doing that so it's a long long process via the NHS. Perhaps it's a progesterone issue? I know suppositories are only available through prescription but you can get progesterone cream. It's not as strong but maybe enough to help. I've been considering it myself since I've been spotting this cycle. Please take care of yourself xx

Hey everyone. Just caught up after spending some time off here this weekend due to family coming to stay.

@Pippy20 I am so so sad to read this and i don't have the words to make you feel better but I am just sending you lots of virtual hugs. I hope you have someone you can talk to and get the help and support you need (other than us on here of course).