TTC after MC - July 2020 (Thread 6)

[VP91x]

Hi lovelies,

Gorgeous to see some more BFPs!!

BFP list❤️

@Hayleylou89
@1990EM
@Tink20058
@mumoftwobeauts
@DontStandSoClose
@peonyrose87
@MichT4
@Ejb86
@Girlmum83
@Dipsy77
@DBTJ
@SmileyT
@Chickoletta

---

@Jazper
@Sunflower1988 - 8th July
@ManchNic - 11th July
@elliew818 - 11th July
@AC2020 - 11th July
@Eli2020 - 11th July
@littletandme - 13th July
@mrsssk - 14th July
@Rebecca1992 - 14th July
@fafi - 17th July
@chloedancer897 - 17th July
@Lollol86 - 17th July
@2020wish - 17th July
@fafi - 18th July
@HE88 - 19th July
@Rainbowhope11 - 20th July
@Bellabubble - 20th July
@GraceG26 - 20th July
@HopeForRainbowbaby - 21st July
@Renna - 22nd July (?)
@Diorissimo1985 - 26th July
@VP91x - 26th July
@Rb486 - 30th July
@Wishingfornumber2 - August?
@Northernsoul90 - not testing
@Sophj19 - not testing

@Banbi
@busby85
@calimommy
@Quail15
@Re6ecc4

Update on me CD12 - in FW waiting on ovulation. On Soy Iso this month and doing a (reduced) SMEP approach. 🥰

Anyone else would like to join please do xx

@littletandme I'm so sorry to read this. I hope you're ok ❤️

@2020wish I have a friend that gave birth 5 days ago. Feel the same as you, happy for her but also sad it’s not me. I know she has had a MC in the past so I am extra happy for her but it’s so hard as she had her MC after me and I still haven’t got pg again.

8dpo is early to test so you are not out yet, fingers crossed for you! X

@chloedancer897 how are u? Any sign of AF?

Just had a reassuring phone call with my manager. I’ve been so worried going to back to work this week after being off from March (shielding for pregancy) then 2 months sick due to two more losses. And now I’m due back this week just when I’m finding out if I’m pregnant again or not. I’m a nurse in an icu covid ward.

But manager was so understanding and said that because I’m actively trying she doesn’t want any more stress on me esp when I’m trying so she’s allocating me away from the red zones and to tell her if I am as soon as I know and she will make sure I’m protected further. She’s also referring me to staff support for counselling to help me. Feeling a lot better returning to work now whether or not I get my BFP

@2020wish I'm 17/18 dpo now. I got a positive opk in the evening the a peak on CB digital the next morning, so counting ovulation assay after that, but guess it could be one day earlier/later. My app said I was due Monday and I tested Tues but I was fairly sure by then because I always spot from a few days before and I hadn't had any. I'm sorry about your bfn but I definitely think it could be too early to tell, so I wouldn't count yourself out yet!

@MichT4 I'm so sorry you've had to go through this again, it's awful. The only thing I would say about getting a negative test so early is that you can try again as soon as you're ready, which is a positive. After my erpc it took 10 weeks to get a negative test and nearly sent me over the edge, but after the miscarriage I got a negative really quickly and honestly it was relief and my body got back to it's normal cycle so much quicker. It's good you doctor has taken you seriously and ordered tests etc. It's so so worrying I know, there are no platitudes really and the only thing that can make it better is a healthy baby.

In terms of symptoms, I had kindof aches and twinges from about 5dpo, which made me cry to my husband that we were out again, as really thought it must be AF. The only thing was that I don't normally feel it so early, and after a week I started to think maybe...
Also had the odd bit of nausea and slightly aches boobs, but that's fairly typical before AF anyway. I've thought I had symptoms so many times and not been pregnant I didn't want to get my hopes up, but it was the lack of spotting that really made me think maybe I was pregnant.

@HopeForRainbowbaby I took the test on Tues, 15 dpo. I have only ever tested early once as I find a bfn harder as it just makes the wait for the next fertile window seem even longer.

Thank you all for the congratulations and positive thoughts. I'm well aware that at the moment it's just a positive test and there's so so far to go, but it's a start, and I'll take it x

@Wishingfornumber2 aww :( that must be so hard for you. Fingers crossed for both of us for our rainbow baby x

@2020wish no, due tomorrow. CM quite watery again today but I had one tiny little spot of pink yesterday evening that then went away. I thought that was it starting. I'm sure she'll be here tomorrow no doubt bang on time as usual. Sounds great that your work has been so supportive. That's amazing x

@MichT4 all good over here apart from being sick when I got to work 🤢 yes keep your PMA even though I know it's hard x

@ManchNic ahh I'm so happy for you, after all you've been through over the last 2 years, you really do deserve this (along with all of you ladies of course) ❤️ rest up and look after yourself and hoping this is a super sticky bean for you x

@VP91x haha love that, no sulking from him this month, maybe having a couple weeks off in between is the key✌🏾

@2020wish i'm good thanks, time dragging but not complaining, think we all appreciate how you feel... in all the months I was trying one of my best friends bump was getting bigger and bigger and I was so bitterly jealous, not because she didn't deserve it but because I wanted to join her so bad. I hope having a hold of the little baby puts a smile on your face. And definitely too early at 8dpo to count yourself out, that sounds like a very good conversation with manager and think it will be nice to get back to work and normality a bit x

Hi ladies just catching up after a few days, recently just started back at work

@MichT4 so sorry to hear your outcome and get how you are feeling its horrible when this keeps happening sending u all my love 💓

@ManchNic
Didn't really know ur story thanks so much for sharing... so sorry u have been through so much 😔 ❤ but congratulations wishing u a healthy 9 months

@chloedancer897 I also tested yesterday af due around tomorrow and Saturday big fat NADA!!! Oh also caught me in the act crying on the loo and suggested we take a break from ttc which only made me more upset 🤦‍♀️🙄

Quick update for me tested yesterday 12dpo negative whitest test I have ever seen had a cry 🙄 don't know why I done it as had my appointment today at epu for testing for lupus and antibodies. Managed to pull myself together today only to be sobbing in the epu surrounded by pregnant woman 🤦‍♀️ that place just gets me everytime its like torture to keep bring me back there ..anyway the nurse was lovely and explained they are testing for it due to the 4 miscarriages and went into a bit of detail explaing what it was and how it caused miscarriages.

hope everyone is keeping well ❤xx

@SmileyT did anything cause you to be sick? I know sickness is hard but it’s a very positive sign too. Both my miscarriages I had no sickness at all and both my healthy pregnancy’s I had bad sickness. I know everyone is different but I always pray for the sickness to start

@ManchNic thank you. I am pleased it was negative quickly. They wanted me to check on 3 august and go back if it was positive, so not having to wait until then is a relief.

I think the symptom thing is interesting. I easily get hung up every time on what I do or don’t feel. If I’m lucky to catch again I’m going to try and be blissfully ignorant to it all and just think that I don’t know what it’ll feel like so anything is ok. That’s the plan anyway

I’m so happy for you. You so deserve this.

@SmileyT oh no, that’s a bummer. Nice little reminder though, just to keep positive spins going.

I did an OPK, it’s pretty dark. I was only going to do one a day until I felt the need to do more but now I’m unsure. I’m almost certain I won’t be ovulating yet, but didn’t think it would be this dark.
I know they can be darker with hcg but that was BFN this morning so I’m not sure 🤔

Here they are in different lights xx

@Stayinghopeful92x fx you get some answers today. I'm sorry it was so triggering in there. I've also cried in the waiting area of EPU with people staring at me like I'm insane. We've all been there.

My test was whiter than white. Not even a hint of a line. It was a FRER so I know I'm out. They're usually pretty good at picking it up. No sign of AF but it usually just appears, I don't get much warning. So I'm sure it'll be here tomorrow like clockwork just to rub it in my face that my cycles are normal.

I cried all day yesterday. After I took the test I cried for 3 straight hours. But my OH is really keen to keep trying with SMEP which shocked me because I thought he hated it. But I think he likes feeling like we are actively doing something and taking control. So I've ordered more vitamins and now Calc Fluor which I've never tried and will try the fertilily this month too. If that doesn't work, I'm really to start temping. Do you need a specific thermometer? Is the Ava worth the money?

Thank you @stayinghopeful92x

Oh girls @chloedancer897 @Stayinghopeful92x, it's so tough isn't it.

I had a blub about an hour ago. OH was a dream, he came and cuddled me, held mu hand and said all the right things. He's so positive, even though he told me he felt all the things I did, it's just he is looking at the positives and that it will happen. I felt bad as I kept almost arguing with him, that no it might not happen blah blah - it got him down I think. I had to have a word with myself and change my attitude to match his, as I'm not doing either of us any favours.

Helps to cry, but OH made me realise he is still there, supportive and positive as ever. I need to take note.

@Stayinghopeful92x I hope you get some answers soon. Did they say how long it might take? xx

@2020wish how amazing that he's being such a positive presence, you really need that and I'm glad he's looking out for you. I think we all need to be kinder to ourselves and know that the stress of it all doesn't help. I definitely need to start enjoying my life a bit more and enjoying time with my DH and actually enjoy TTC rather than making it so regimented.

I'm so sorry for all the tough times people are going through, it's so hard to stay positive but stressing is going to do more damage - easier said than done though I know.

@MichT4 It's possible your body is gearing up to ovulate again by the look of that OPK, especially given you had a negative hpt. I'd just keep testing and see if it gets darker, perhaps also check the CM situation and see what's going on. Hopefully your body is doing a quick reset.

I know exactly how you feel about bringing your OH down, I went through this last night. My DH is always so positive and lifts me up from my lowest points but I'm starting to worry that he's getting worried about my mental health. He's suggesting I see someone for counselling which isn't the worst idea - I'm just not sure how to move forwards when my body seems stuck after mc.

I'm really hoping we have some brighter days ahead xxx

@MichT4 sounds like we’re at a similar stage in this. I’m waiting on negative too so I can start testing ovulation. I’ve just had to let the Emma’s diary app know about mc cause they are sending me emails telling me I’d be 9 weeks today 😔

@ManchNic hello, just wanted to say congratulations on your test, take it easy and rest if you can xxx

@Stayinghopeful92x I totally relate to your epu experience as the morning of my miscarriage I was sat on a ward type waiting area crying with preg women around me, so cruel and teasing I think. Should be a separate area for us really

Thank you @MrsK21, I'll be keeping an eye on them loosely for now. I can't start the dehydration already 😂

I feel terrible when I do it, because he is always glass half full, and that's how he copes. I feel like I crap all over it and bring him down, and I feel guilty aftewards. Today I made such an effort before he went to work to tell him how much I appreciate it and that he is right. He told me that a day ago I was so positive and I need to hold onto that. Again, he is right.

I think counselling is a good idea if you are struggling. It's traumatic, and can easily be shut away inside niggling away. I think being able to really grieve is important, and to do that I think we have to open up and let out all the feelings. You can do that here too, but maybe a councillor will know how to eek it all out.

Brighter days will come for sure, it's definitely linked with mindset for me. I get myself in such a state that it won't happen. It's a bit like the pregnancy after loss mantra - until someone tells me otherwise, I can and will carry a baby to term. That's how we all need to think 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Pugprincess sorry you got those emails. I didn't sign up to anything this time so I didn't have to do that. I had put in my BFP into the apps but have now put in MC, or the BFN, so that they don't keep asking if I want to change to pregnancy mode.
I really hope you get your negative soon. I was sad but relieved to see mine this morning x

@MichT4 thanks I will test again later to see how it’s looking today. Think my bloated belly is going down. That’s the last symptom I have left 😔

I'm sorry that so many seem to be struggling with things atm... it really is such a rollercoaster of emotions ttc after miscarriage. I totally relate to that feeling when those close are getting pregnant and having babies... it really is painful but happy at the same time. I'm just hoping and praying that we all get bfps soon and am glad we have this space to support one another in the mean time.

I'm trying to stay positive but I am feeling a bit low too and just frustrated really. I did a test this morning and could still see a very faint line on a 10miu test. I've done 2 opks and one came up as 30% and the other 32% on femometer app. Today I've got some pinching/twingy pains so I'm not sure what's going on really. I just want af to come now or at least get a negative test/peak on opk.

@ManchNic congratulations! You deserve this. Praying for a perfect 9 months.x

@MichT4 isn't it so sad to see the stark white of a negative after a MC.. but as everyone is saying it's good to have a clean slate too. That opk looks just like mine did after my negative. It got even darker the day after! Hoping you get the same results and that we can all celebrate with you in a few weeks time. Xx

So sorry for all those going through so much just now. It has just been a rubbish year in general hasn't it 🙈 you all deserve so much and I just pray that this time next year we will all be holding our wee rainbow babies.

@1990EM it was sad to see it. It's unbelievable how quick you go from being elated to back to where you started. But as you all say, it's an important step to know the reset button has been pressed.
Did you just do one a day at first? Thank you - I hope so too 🤞🏻🤞🏻 xx

@MichT4 I meant my last message for you. So glad you have a supportive OH. And I wish we could all be a bit more like him! Let's start spreading some positivity xox