@HopeForRainbowbaby Hey lovely, course I can tell you ny journey.
So ill explain from very beginning, hope i dnt upset ppl 😓
So last year in Jan i come off all contraception to get it out of my system as i had been on depo injection and pill since i was about 17 (now 30) ..we were actually getting married in June abroad, so i was using the natural cycles app to AVOID pregnancy until we wanted to try which was after the honeymoon early Sept, obv by then natural cycles was well used to my cycles so when we go bk off our honeymoon, I switched the app to trying for a baby and was the luckiest because by the end of sept i had my positive test, we literally dtd a few 2 times around ov and that was it, I had an IB a few days later and knew then that i was pregnant as id never had a weird mid-cycle pinky wet cm ever.
Apart from pains at the start, which turned out to be bowl related, I was sooo relaxed never thought about MC or anything tbh i was naive to it...went a whole 22 weeks like a breeze when one day in work i felt desp for the loo in work like a uti type feeling, so i went the loo and on wiping i had like that pinky tinge again that was similar to IB but vvvvv slight, like hardly anything there but id never had it before so went over the maternity assessment for check up on my own as i didnt think it would be anything to worry my hubby about about l, i just rang him and said i maybe have a uti, ill let him know as he was in work too and then when i got there they checked my my water sample and the babys heartbeat and it was all ok...but then said we will do an internal just to reasuure u....think they were as shocked as me, they literally gave me the shock of my life and said my waters had gone and i was 1cm!! I was admitted immediately and called my hisbamd and he come straight the hosp, The baby was fine at this point still but over the course of a few days i started to lose more water, but wasnt in full labour and the baby was fine so they moved me from delivery suite to a ward and it was that night 2am i just woke up and knew something was wrong, i felt reduced movement and called the midwife to check, they sent me for a scan and me and husband literally seen her last few heartbeats on a screen and then it just stopped, it was like she wanted us to see her before she went, it was absolutely the worst nightmare u could ever imagine 💔... I then got induced the following day 11am and had my baby girl Bonnie by 5pm, but then the cord snapped and placenta was retained so i had to get an op to have it removed (this all happened in Feb).
After this nightmare and the funeral, I got my first period exactly 6 weeks later and wanted to get back on track with ttc to take my mind off everything and take control more than anything i think, so i joined these threads and Started opking, taking ttc vitamins, my cycles were always on the long side 35- 38 days and it took me from feb to may to fall pregnant again by may, I was taking
BBT
seven seas ttc vitamins
Calc flour
Using pre seed
Omega 3
Id got the fertlily cup
CB opks
And hubby was on hcg injections for a few weeks too, I ordered the Ava and it turned up after id just found out i was pregnant 🤦🏽♀️ so iv still got that but not using it.
Now im almost 10 weeks and found out from an early sneek peak test im having a boy 💙 due the same week Bonnie was born ironically...and due to what happened last time i am under a consultant lead pregnancy and may need a cervical stitch in a few weeks which they take out at 37 weeks and it prevents preterm labour, but they will try a pessarie first before the stitch, if my cervix is really weak i could be put on bedrest, but there night be absolutely nothing wrong this time, we just wont know until im further along.
my 12 week scan is on 20th which is when i
might just start to relax a little but ill be honest its so hard to relax this time round but the hospital have been amazing so far i have a secretary i can email anytime and she asked the consultant anything and gets back to me so its good i have that it really helps. xx
So now im fully aware of how common it is to lose a baby at all stages, its difficult to enjoy it as such and although its not taken us long time either time to fall pregnant & we do have that on our side, its other worries that my cervix just isnt strong enough, but there are ways to fix that, so fingers crossed I can carry this one to full term 🤞🏻💙 and last time was nothing to do with my cervix and just one off streak of really bad luck 😓
Xxx