The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

[duchesse]

The new hut. Ta-da!

This one is a snug little basement World War 2 type nightclub, with dim lighting, snug velvet sofas, red walls and certainly no politically correct smoking bans. Occasionally certain selected men may be admitted at our convenience.

Sit down, make yourselves at home, and never, ever apologise for feeling like shit. That's about it.

ikwym, ive given myself til the new year, then we will think about ivf. when i first said that in may it seemed so far away but now here we are in sept (nearly) my ep's EDD is looming and every month i have a period or mc i feel even worse. theres someone i know who is despondant and hacked off that her first month ttc hasnt worked, i just feel like screaming at her "live my life, go to the hut and talk to the women there, then you will know what real pain is" ds was rushed to hospital on weds (had probs breathing, went floppy and had vv high temp) i really thought i would lose him, never been so scared in my life and its bought my ftc into sharp focus.

im really scared now, i know how lucky i am to have ds, but im still scared

lissie, how's ds now? Is he home?

yes, we got back at 2am the same night, think i over-reacted a bit tbh. i just rang 999 and screamed at the man (or woman, was too stressed to take any notice) that my baby wasnt breathing well. turns out that it was a respiratory virus (did think it would turn into chicken pox but no spots) and he seems fine now.

They are scary when they get like that. I'm sure they recognise my voice at NHS Direct now for just the same reason. I'm glad he's okay now.

lol, ive never been like that before!

Lissie, that sounds horrid!

Eclispe, your running sounds great. I LOVE cross-country, trails etc. I've even done a few fell races - that's hardcore! (Don't think that makes me an elite runner - I'm always right at the back!) Do you live in the country? I live in a city, but I joined a club so I get to go to all the little xc races etc and there's always someone heading off to an interesting race somewhere so I can hitch a lift.

Anyway, apologies for turning this into a running forum! I'm pleased you're getting back on with your running, Eclipse.

Impatience, I live in a field in the middle of nowhere so I have no choice. I used to run on the roads but there are no pavements and it got too scary. Drivers always expected me to leap in the hedge out of their very important way. Fields and tracks is better but it's all hills and mud. I like that though. Mud suits my image. I love the idea of fell racing but I'd never be a pregnant runner. It's hard enough running solo but carrying a passenger... Are they mad? It's a perfect excuse to watch the Marathon from the comfort of a tub of ice cream.

Funny how drivers think that it's far easier for a knackered runner to stop and start again than for them to ease their foot off the accelerator... I'm jealous of your fields of mud! I don't know whether I'd carry on running if I ever get pregnant. After all this time I expect I would start treating myself like a delicate porcelain doll. I have people around me at the moment who are moaning about getting blimplike because they're pregnant. Don't bloody moan to me about it: You are pregnant you insensitive witch (they know I've been FTC for years). Anyway, I don't mind having to start my running from scratch all over again if I ever manage to produce a little passenger!

Hello Huttees. Hope all are well as can be.

Hope this long silence means everyone's happy or too trolleyed to type.
Still pretty positive myself as m/c all over and done with so getting back to normal. Thought I should share my GP experience with you though. About 5 days after m/c started, went in for a blood test to check hcg levels. Didn't bother to phone for results because v. faint line on subsequent hpt and absence of any residual pregnancy symptoms told me pregnancy definitely over. To my amazement, a random GP phoned me to tell me the good news, my blood test was positive. I'm pregnant. Had to explain to her the purpose of the test and that it was to monitor m/c not confirm pregnancy. Oops. Felt a bit sorry for her in the end.

oh dear, I bet she felt pretty shitty about that slip up. Poor you!

oh dear, thats not good.

It was fine, but I did worry for a bit as I was a few glasses down when she phoned and my first thought was, oh my god, I'm still pregnant and now I've given the poor thing foetal alcohol syndrome. Did another test to confirm I was safe to drink (but not drive) and thought, off to the hut with this little tale.
You were right, Impatience. All that talk of running has kept everyone very quiet.

lol, doing a bit too well to be a permanant hut resident at the moment, however the 1st oct is looming. was feeling good so popped onto (one of) my old antenatal thread(s) to wish them all good luck and discovered that someone has been shipped off to hospital possibly in labour. wish i'd never bothered now.

look at that! obv not doing as well as i'd thought!

It's why duchesse built the hut. You wish them well but want to cry at the same time. And here is where you can say that and everyone nods in agreement.

im just sick of looking at my stats on the ttc board and feeling like shit. people are moaning after 1 cycle ttc or about being pg (starting threads about it ffs!) and i just want to scream at them "i should be thinking about going into hospital, packing my bags and worrying about piles, but im not, instead im consoling you for your 1st month not working." then i feel like a bitch because once upon a time ttc was exciting for me too.

With you there, Lissie!

Lissie, you may think you're being a bitch but you've been through more than most and you're still lovely to people. The hut wouldn't have such a stable core of people if we didn't all get good support from each other which keeps us coming back (and being spectacularly crap at conception/gestation too, of course).

thats why i love it here. i can rant and shout (in type of course) without being judged.

I just found some southern comfort that dh brought back from a flight. Very happy now and probably not able to type for much longer. Cheers!

Hello hut-dwellers, sorry to see that the Hut is still as busy as ever.

Just popped in to say that I have some ov predictor sticks and a digital kit (still in wrapper, never used) which I am willing to donate to a new home free of charge if anyone wants them.

First two to CAT me get the goods.

Virtual chocoalte fudge cake and bottle of vodka for you all to share, seeing as it's Friday!

have just CAT'd you!

how are you doing?

Hi lissie, I'm not too bad now thanks. I'm 20 weeks but have been really ill, lost 3 stone and spend 2 weeks in hospital.

Gradually recovering though and hoping he second half will be better.

I have been keeping up with you and all the others though!

oh crap, its all worth it tho.are you feeling better now?

oh Sideways, that doesn't sound fun. Hope you're feeling much better now and everything's safe and well xx