The Hut of Gl/Doom Part V- for the unapologetically despondent

[duchesse]

The new hut. Ta-da!

This one is a snug little basement World War 2 type nightclub, with dim lighting, snug velvet sofas, red walls and certainly no politically correct smoking bans. Occasionally certain selected men may be admitted at our convenience.

Sit down, make yourselves at home, and never, ever apologise for feeling like shit. That's about it.

is anyone having trouble exisiting this month? I find myself wanting to run away from work about once an hour and the struggle to get out of bed is unbelievable - am starting new job on 1st March but can't even bring myself to be happy about that.
Then this morning I heard on the radio that the lovely Heath Ledger has committed suicide bloody hell - January is even difficult for the rich and famous - was thinking of his poor (ex) wife and baby
and poor me cos don't have one and can't bear to think of another year like the one have just had - am off to get a frothy coffee with a shot of brandy - can't hurt, might help

perkypopsy, tbh i normally just lurk on this thread but your post could have been written by me. esp. the wanting to leave work. hang in there in a months time it will all seem better (i hope).

Morning girls. I am feeling optomistic this morning so not hanging around. Perk up Popsy, you are much much stronger than you give yourself credit for.

Herbs, well where are you? Has AF appeared yet?

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hang on ladies you are all meant to be unapologetically despondent whats with all this cheer!

It is a false front. It feels alittle slatterly to be drinking Absinth this early.

absynth - thats teh spirit! god i hate january i think next year i should jsut take the whole month off as unpaid leave and hide in a room knitting.

Yes I know exactly what you mean. Apart from the knitting. I can not knit, I drop stiches, leave big holes and have never managed to get the hang of starting a new line!! How crap am I?

not crap at all. i just started knitting as something to obsess over besides the position of my cervix and peeing on sticks. i am doing ALOT of knitting.

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I think we should just skip January too. I can have my birthday in the summer instead

can i just ask if everyone on here is relentlessly optimistic - cos i am. i say relentless cos every month i convince myself it is going to happen and am shattered when itisn't.

August birthdays are great. It rains every year. Oh apart from last year it rained that night!

You are in exactly the right place for that kind of thinking!
We all tell ourselves this month will be different but to our endless surprise it is still SHITE. We are still not pregnant. They tell us it is all down to luck. I say luck is rubbish

Yes I fool myself it will happen each month

even teh month dh was away i convinced myself the 'boys' could hang out for a few days.

The mad bad crazy world of baby making!!!

Goat- you are not alone. Even though I officially gave up ftc in October, I still kid myself (pardon the pun) every single month. even after my period, I wonder whether I might be and just have had some bleeding as I did when pregnant with my miscarried foetus in 2006. I am so bloody glad that I had three children unfashionably young (at 25, 27 and 29), cos I could be in this situation with no children had I gone for the career first then children option.

Er... Duchesse. That's me. No kids, probably ever. And having a career doesn't come close to being recompense.

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Oh, and to answer your kind enquiries ladies, AF still not here. Was due yesterday. Boob inflation going up and down like a whore's drawers. Funny pinching pains here and there. Bawled my eyes out in kitchen last night about lost babies.

Lord only knows what's going on. Can't bring myself to test, as if it's negative all the 'is it too early' uncertainty will just fuel the fires of madness.

Herby- it's bloody crap and unfair on you. Didn't mean to upset you in any way. Am sorry if did.

duchesse - how on earth do you give up. i did try to but the pointless hoping continued.

herb - i soo know aobut fueling the fires of madness i bought 50 (yes 50) cheapo tests off ebay last week specifically for the crazy fire.