The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

[Frazzlerock]

We can do this ladies.

We can take on anything

I could talk about diving for hours! Maybe I'll quit my job and become a dive travel agent 😂

Thank you Kin is certainly surreal. And yes over a year we were TTC so not sure why he is being like this, maybe just stress. I have been so frugal though, our weekly shop has only been coming to £40 so makes me wonder how I used to spend £70 a week now!

Thank you for sharing that info, I've passed it on. I know they like going to unheard of places or different locations to the norm so does seem perfect for their honeymoon. I really have no interest or clue about diving despite my parents and sisters loving it!

It must just be stress. I'd be understanding of his stress and worry but don't let him push all the blame onto you cause that's totally unfair. Its not anyone's fault, just life.

You should try scuba diving one day! It's great fun. Redang is definitely less touristy than a lot of places. It's not unheard of because you get lots of local tourists but it doesn't have that backpacker feel.

Morning all
@TwittleBee nice to hear from you
Sorry DH is being a pain for you. It seems it's a theme on here.
Mine currently isn't speaking to me because.... wait for it... he is sick of me farting!! Not in general.... just in last 24hrs, while I'm hideously constipated.... and full up to the eyeballs with fibre and lactulose.... and can't 'go', am bloated beyond belief and feel horrific with the WORST trapped wind feeling in the world.... but apparently that's no excuse for farting and I should get up and leave the room. We don't have guests.... it's only him and the dog... I'm not in the mood for this right now so I told him to feel fucking free to leave the house if if offends him so bloody much as quite frankly I'd happily sit and poo myself at the moment if it meant it provided some relief from this pain!! Apparently I'm disgusted and devoid from manners. I told him he'll be devoid of his fucking head from his shoulders if he speaks to me again!! So now I'm sitting watching Friends with the dog, happily trumping away on the sofa in peace while he sulks upstairs! 😂

Thanks Kin I am trying to be understanding, it's like he doesn't realise I also am stressing about this! I actually like working and enjoyed my job so it's devastating they got rid of me. And I just don't think I'll ever dive because I am really scared of the sea!!

Oh my god tigsy he deserves a slap round the head! What a total plonker! He wouldn't dare visit us in this house (DH and I have fast competitions sometimes haha!) - must highlight we aren't like that in public! He really needs to realise you're pregnant and it's only farts! Jeez.

Yes Twittle, you're the one whose pregnant and been made redundant! Mens minds work in weird ways sometimes. I agree that the sea is terrifying - its so big and open and I hate not being able to see the bottom. I just try and suppress the fear cause scuba diving is so much fun. I've cried a few times though! But you can just pretend it's salt water in your eyes.

Tigsy your DH needs a fart in the face... 😂

Oh @tigsyboo 🙈 I look forward to hearing how he gets on in the delivery suite then...

The pathetic thing is that he has had 2 kids already!! Clearly his ex-wife was a model pregnant species without wind or any nastiness!! Good for her.... something has to make up for her being a mutt ugly psycho..... 😂😂
I'm still farting like a trooper,but have managed to go now.... but I feel like all the spare space is now filling up with air!! I really couldn't care less about his views on my bodily functions at the mo! X

I doubt it @tigsy , no one gets away scott free. I had diarrhoea throughout the first half of my pregnancy, eventually the homeopath sorted me out. Hormones affect everybody differently. Is he still sulking?!

@BettySwoll0cks honestly anyone would have thought I'd took a shit next to him! To me it's just like sneezing when you have a cold... you can't help it when you are constipated! It's not a choice!

Anyway..... my DH doesn't do saying sorry (at least not within 24hrs of being a prick) however he has took it upon himself to ask what was for dinner and go and peel the veg without being asked... so he obviously feels like he has some making up to do.

I currently look around 3 dress sizes bigger than normal and I'm pretty sure it's all bloat but it's hard to tell if any of it is early bump. I'm only little and slim so I guess anything is noticeable! X

I had that with my last pg - was so unbelievably bloated I was in leggings from the word go, just resigned myself to looking hideous. Took a while to get back to normal after it ended too (because I obviously didn't feel shit enough!!)

AF is late. I'm normally like clockwork. Hoping it starts overnight tonight, this would not be a good month to have fallen pg

I've got a dr apt tomorrow to see if the doc thinks there is any blockages etc, I really don't feel myself!!

Why would it be a bad month @BettySwoll0cks

I've been in really bad shape this month. DS had a really bad time with the sleeping right through the middle of the months, I was up to him every hour the night before I ovulated. And I've had 2 boozy nights having tested to make sure I wasn't pg. and I've just been really bloody busy and tired, not always remembering to take my supplements etc

Urgh I don't know it just wouldn't be a good start, it wouldn't end well.

Phew. -ve test this morning.

Oh @tigsyboo I'm sorry you're feeling awful 🙈 as @BettySwoll0cks said, I can't imagine what he'll be like in the delivery suite!

Thanks for being so supportive everyone. I'd love to book a holiday but we've literally only just got back from one.
I'm so run down with it all, it's really beginning to get on top of me. It's taken us a year then 5 months to get a BFP, all because we just don't have enough sex. 2/3 times we have done it at the right time, I've got a BFP. So fucking frustrating. 😫
DH is being supportive & is being great but I am beginning to really seriously resent him 😢

Ps @Kinsters I'm so so jealous that you're off diving 😢

Hi ladies. Sorry I dropped off whilst on our break, I needed some time out after my birthday disaster. No sign of DH trying to make a birthday 2 yet. I hate all this, feel like I've lost all interest in anything generally. The break was good though, I needed to get away.

@ratherbeshowjumping I'm so sorry you've gone through this again, there are no words. How are you? Hope you're being looked after.

@tigsyboo your DH needs a reality check. Many pregnant women get gassy, my goodness the gas I had when I was pregnant the first time was hideous. I couldn't believe how much wind I had.

@TwittleBee glad to hear things are progressing well.

@Frazzlerock sorry you're having a difficult time. I hope your life coach can help. Be kind to yourself. Going through what we have is so hard. I find myself being more withdrawn too and I think I am a very different person to the one I was before mc#1 - people I work with who didn't know have commented but they understand when I explain about the 2 losses.

Has anyone seen my AF? Seriously. I am never late - but I'm 2 days late. Even got some creamy CM now (sorry). My body simply hates me 😭

That's so annoying Betty. I know everyone says that luteal phase is supposed to be consistent in length but mine definitely isn't! Even fertility friends has now come up with a message saying my cycles are too irregular to make predictions.

InDreamland glad you had a nice time off even though it sounds like DH hasn't redeemed himself.

rather diving is the one thing that I absolutely love about living in Malaysia. There's a lot that I hate about being here but the fact we can take a long weekend and go diving in the tropics is just amazing. I'd love to try diving in the UK one day though - I've heard there's some great dives up in Scotland and that you can dive with seals off Norfolk and dolphins off Ireland.

Sorry that you're feeling rubbish. I think it's unsurprising that you feel some resentment to your DH. He just needs to do one thing in the baby making process and him not being committed to that must be really annoying. Is he one of the ones who doesn't "believe" in fertility science? I can't remember whose DH's are like that!

Positive OPK this evening so I expect I'll ovulate either tomorrow or Thursday. I thought I'd probably ovulate before DH got back (Friday) and we'd planned not to try this cycle and booked a holiday which I can't be pregnant for but I still hate missing a go. What if this cycle is the cycle my one good egg is going to be released? My charts looking really nice as well with stable and low temperatures.

Shame about this cycle @kin. Focus on the holiday!! Have you read "It Starts with the Egg"? I'm sure a lot of the ladies on this board will have, but my copy arrived yesterday. I'm astonished by the statistics in the introduction alone about the percentage of our eggs that are likely chromosomally abnormal or otherwise non viable and her suggestion that you really can make a difference to this through lifestyle and supplementation. Since I still haven't had my referral through from RMC (GP letter went before Christmas) I am going to start following the 'advanced plan' from the book.

AF arrived overnight. And so a new cycle begins!!

I'll have a look for it Betty, I've heard loads about it but not read it yet. I'm sure there's lots more I could be doing.

I guess it's a good thing you can start a new cycle as you didn't feel good about this one, AF always sucks though x

Hi Ladies, I’m just trying to catch up!

@Betty I’m sorry about AF arriving, I know you said you didn’t want it to happen this month, but I’m sure it wouldn’t really have mattered if you had had a couple of drinks during the

@Kinsters I have dived a couple of times, the first was great with proper training, the second there was no training, we were taken out on a boat and there were a few instructors who each took one person at a time down, they held on to you all the time and I hated it.

@Indreamland I hope you had a lovely holiday, FX for DH making it up to you very soon.

@Twittlebee I’m so sorry about what DH said to you and about your job situation, that must be really tough. I also think he is being quite unfair.

@Ratherbe I completely get why you are starting to resent DH. Could you try talking to him?

As for me, I am plodding on. Nothing exciting to report, I’m feeling quite stressy, probably because I have some friendship issues going on with some Mum friends at school. 😩

Hi all.
@betty I purchased "it starts with an egg" just after the last miscarriage and before I went on my holiday before Christmas. I read it all in about 2 days and found it so interesting. I started on different supplements and others which I though about taking I realised didn't do anything. I think it's a pretty cool book which can make a big difference to some people I didn't go as far as cutting back on all plastic for example but did think more about it.

I am suffering from a rubbish cold currently. I am on day 3 and I just feel horrendous. I really want to go home. Its 4pm so not long to go anyway.....

I had my 10 week scan today. Like the last one I was so nervous but everything is fine. It's the furthest I have ever got in a pregnancy and the most I've seen on a scan so it was pretty cool. I saw arms and legs moving. I go back in 2 weeks for my 12 week scan.......

I had my blood taken for the NIPT today too. @tigsy I'm not sure which one it is. Just one was offered to me and it gets sent to Germany for testing I should get the results back in 10 days apparently.....that's another hurdle to cross!

A bit like @twittle I am trying not to post too much about pregnancy and I have felt so unwell I have not been able to do much most evenings but I have kept up with everything.

Yay edidxb, congratulations on the positive scan! Will you find out the sex from the NIPT or keep it a surprise?