The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

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We can do this ladies.

We can take on anything

@ratherbeshowjumping saw this and thought of you 😉

Rose nice to see you. Hope you're doing ok? I didn't see my Dr in the end. I was feeling so down on Friday that I couldn't face going on Saturday and now DH is away. I'm waiting for him to come back so we can go together.

InDreamland hope you enjoy your holiday! I'd love to go back to Venice one day. We might catch ov because actually I got my days wrong and he's back CD15. My ovulation dates have ranged from CD12 - CD16. In the process of arranging a diving holiday for mid April though so I wouldn't want to get pregnant in March and not be able to dive (especially if I'm going to miscarry again).

You're all right that I shouldn't put my life on hold for TTC. Tbh it's not just the TTC, I feel like my life is on hold until we can leave Malaysia. There are things I love about living here but I'm such an outsider.

tigsy, keeping everything crossed for your scan! How far along will you be?

edi I'm not even pregnant and get hit with the mid afternoon yawning fits. Between pregnancy and jet lag I feel like I've been in a daze since October!

I've got a migraine and feel awful. The only thing that gives (temporary) relief is eating cold dairy products, especially ice cream, but I'm really trying to cut down my sugar consumption. Might see if a glass of milk helps.

@Kinsters thank you. Hope your migraine goes, try a glass of Milo ice.

Today is my birthday and I'm now home alone. Don't feel like celebrating as I have nothing to celebrate. Since my last birthday I've had 2 mc's. CD13 for me amd smiley still flashing on OPK but also had EWCM this morning. Busy day though, went to gym and had massage this morning, done 1 load of laundry and another is now on. Gotta pack now as DH taking me out for dinner then we're heading to the airport to stay in a hotel before our flight in the morning.

Happy birthday InDreamland! Even if you don't feel like celebrating much I hope you can have a nice day off, dinner out and a lovely holiday.

A milo ice would be so perfect right now but I don't have any milo in the house 😭. That's actually what they gave me after the erpc surgery, a jam sandwich and a glass of milo. It tasted amazing! Going to go to bed and hope I feel better in the morning.

Thanks @Kinsters. Hope you sleep well and feel better in the morning! Then some kaya toast for brekkie, mmmmmmmm.

Happy birthday @InDreamland. Hope you have a lovely holiday.
My sister just got in touch to say her detailed scan with the consultant went ok. They said nothing to worry about despite the initial concerns. So much worry for nothing but I suppose it is best they investigate if there is a concern.
I went to the doc yesterday. As suspected they won’t scan early, regardless of history. I do have a midwife appointment in for the 21st though so that is a bonus.
Hope everyone else is doing ok.

Thanks @Buggles1. Good news for your sister. Can you tell the midwife at your booking appointment that you're really anxious because of history and then you might be referred for an early scan?

@buggles how far are you?
My gp referred me for early scan due to anxiety
I said the epu told me last time to get booked in with them for an early scan and not to go private as they aren't as reliable and the dr just said 'ok' and booked me in. I'll be 7+2.
On a November due date group and 2 ladies today are out due to bleeding, and another with test lines getting lighter which we all know isn't good news. I feel like Friday isn't a happy day, I'm so worried it'll be deja vu 😩

Happy birthday @InDreamland enjoy the hol!

Xx

Thanks @tigsyboo.

DH gave me a Mother's Day card by accident instead of a birthday card. Like I wasn't already dreading Mothers day at the end of the month. Does he not read what he's buying in the shop? Really upset

@Kinsters I hope you are feeling better after a good nights sleep. I tend to suffer from migraines too, but they have been better recently, which could be the acupuncture.

@Buggles1 that’s great news about your sister! What an awful time she must have been through. If you can’t get a scan on the nhs couldn’t you pay for a private one?

@Tigsy, is your scan on Friday? I’m sure it will be just fine x

@Indreamland I cannot believe your DH has done that! I have no words!He will have to make it up to you very quickly seeing as you are off on holiday! I hope you have a fab time, holidays are good for conceiving. x

@Rose67 I'm so upset. Just cried. Told him to cancel restaurant as don't feel like going out for dinner now. Like I wasn't already feeling like shit today. I'm so hurt, he couldn't even bother to read the card he was buying me. I'm a mother to 2 dead babies and he has to rub it in on my birthday.

I am so so so so sorry InDreamland I have no words. I want to wish you a happy birthday but I feel that the "happy" part is something that's not happening at all for you today. Sending you love and hope and so much bloomin luck

Thanks @Twittlebee.

He hasn't even said anything. He's just gone all defensive rather than apologise and try to make it up to me. I am so so hurt.

Oh my @InDreamland what a dooch!!
I think the defensive is a blokes natural reaction to being in the wrong. My DH (frequently short for dick head!) does that all the time. I'm sure he realises how his inconsiderate act has made you feel and a genuine apology will be forthcoming once his pride takes a backseat xxx

@tigsyboo he had better be sorting his blasted pride out fast as we're supposed to be heading to the airport in 15 mins and still not said anything. I'm sick of feeling like I'm not important enough to even have any attention paid to.

Urgh @tigsyboo same here. My DH says really hurtful stuff the whole time and then either says he was joking (when he clearly wasn't) or that I'm oversensitive. Top drawer twattery in my book.

@InDreamland I'm so sorry your DH did that, and isn't decent enough to recognise your hurt or to apologise. That's really rubbish. I really hope this doesn't cast a shadow over your whole holiday

@BettySwoll0cks what is it with men?! He needs to apologise and do it fast and actually make an effort rather than just sulk.

Well if it was my DH I would wait a lifetime. I just end up 'letting it go' mostly. Tres annoying. x

We shouldn't have to let it go though. They should actually step up and be more thoughtful and conscious.

You're preaching to the converted - I would love to have a partner who I really felt had my back. Instead, when I'm struggling, my DH runs in the opposite direction. Says he doesn't know what to do. I nearly left him because of it (and a number of other frustrations) a few years ago but fortunately there is enough that's good in our relationship that I didn't (fortunately because I now have my gorgeous DS)....

Ooooh, @InDreamland, that is pretty bad. I hope he’s apologised before you head off. Not the best way to start a holiday or a birthday. Fx he’ll come to his senses and say sorry soon.

@tigsyboo will be 8 weeks on Thursday. Could get the private scan but unsure how reassuring it will be anyhow. Hoping the midwife may at least move it 11 weeks rather than the 12. Will see. Fed up of dealing with them now. No empathy or sympathy at all.

Oh @Betty that sounds tough, like you say though very fortunate that you didn't and you no have a lovely DS. My DH is just always so caught up in his own world.

@Buggles1 we are on the road and still no apology. Nothing. Not said anything about it so we're barely speaking. What a shit birthday this is. I hope the midwife can move your scan forward for you.

I understand that @Buggles1
It's like it's easy to tell someone just to wait and see if their pregnancy works out.
The only people I've had any joy with is a female gp and my female occ health nurse, both of whom told me they had had a MC, and I honestly think it's only then you understand how pregnancy becomes terrifying.

I find it so odd that they would get you to a go surgery, get you an apt with a midwife, pick your birthing hospital, talk about tests for birth defects and insist you make choices.... but refuse to scan you to see if your baby is actually ok first!! It's all these thoughts and plans that make it so much harder!!

I only handed my booking form into the GP on Monday and when they saw my lmp was nearly 7 weeks ago they were all huffing and sighing about how I've left it late to get an appointment with the midwife!

@tigsyboo you're so right. I thought all that was a but premature before we had even one scan.

OPK went peak positive last night but of course no DTD or this morning either. Hope we catch it in time tonight. Boarded plane now so about to push back and take off.

@Indreamland I hope you have arrived safely & that things are a little better between you now. Have a lovely time!

@Tigsy I think that’s slightly ridiculous re the huffing. I’m sure it really doesn’t matter when you have your booking in appointment, some ladies wouldn’t even know they were pregnant yet. x