The July 19ers - The rollercoaster continues, scream if you wanna go faster

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We can do this ladies.

We can take on anything

@Pegase that's one of the frustrating things about mc isn't it, it takes such a long time to get back to 'normal'. Having fallen pg in Oct last year this is still only my second month for ttc.... it basically wiped me out for 4 months.

Hope everyone has a good wknd planned. My DS was up every 2hrs during the night again so am absolutely shattered but will have to come up with something to do today that I can handle. And not fucking soft play

Pegase yes, I'm going to try and hold off testing next time. We're probably going to skip March because I don't think DH will be back in time anyway. If we do that we can take some time out to go diving in April (if DH can get the time off work).

InDreamland I'll be sure to let you know if I find that crystal ball.

Betty sorry you had another bad night's sleep. I'm surprised how long it takes to get back to normal. I lost this one so, so early but I still feel pretty drained at the moment.

I didn't go see my dr in the end and had a lie in instead. We're very lucky that healthcare here is pretty much obtainable on demand so I can go see her and probably get any relevant tests done on the same day. Though I'm not sure she'll have the same experience as the RMC people in the UK.

@BettySwoll0cks I'm lol-ing at the no soft play!! I fucking hate those places!!

@Kinsters if you feel you would benefit from 'normal' time off ttc I completely get that. What I remember is that you are both quite young (?) so it's good you can take that. Hope you get the support from dr when you go.

@Pegase so sorry it's still making you suffer hun. There are no words to make it better. Just know I'm thinking about you

Well it's fucking pissing it down here, fuck taking the dogs out!!
Went for a meal with the in-laws last night and it's like I've got no off switch I'm fucking ravenous! Feel horribly bloated today though for it!

Oh.. and we've had an offer accepted on a house!! Needs work and some room rejigging and walls knocking through - I must be mad!! 😂

Yes, we're both 28 Tigsy so have plenty of time really.

Congrats on the offer being accepted! Hopefully you can get the bulk of it done in your second trimester while you're feeling OK.

@kin I was referred to the RMC in Cambridge before Christmas and I still haven't had a letter back yet....

That's terrible Betty. The NHS really does move at a glacial pace.

It does. I now need a referral for DS to help us sort out his breathing while he's sleeping, I can tell it's going to take forever, I reckon I'll end up going private as usual 🙄

Yeah not happy about the whole reset time. At least this time I will be more knowledgeable about ov tracking so fingers crossed to get pg again without too much delay.

Just on the tube and there was a newborn crying. Actually thought I was going to start crying myself as I wanted to be the one with a newborn so much.

@Kinsters what awful timing with your Dh going away. Glad you've got your cats. Have you got any other support out there? Hope you are starting to feel a bit better. Xxx

@BettySwoll0cks sorry your DS's sleep has gone backwards again... hope last night was slightly better!

@Pegase I'm sure you will fall pg again speedily x have you managed to have any "horse therapy" yet?

@tigsyboo yay congrats on the offer!! As Kin said, hopefully you can get most of it done before you get too big (and tired!).

DH is convinced I'm pregnant - this horrible cold has struck me really hard and I've in bed by 8pm most evenings (what a bundle of fun 🤪) but I don't have any of the symptoms I had last time at all and I genuinely feel like AF is going to appear any minute (due on Tuesday) so keeping strong and not testing until the witch is late 💪🏼 also can't afford to buy 4 packets of FRER every month 🙈

Already too late for the tired bit @ratherbeshowjumping ... I'm bloody shattered!! Been having 10hrs sleep every night plus a nap most afternoons for last few days. I'm exhausted!

I waited till dpo11 to test with a frer.... sure you can't be tempted?? X

Oh bless you @tigsyboo how many weeks are you now?
I'd love to... but I honestly feel like I'm going to come on at any second 😢

I'm 6+3 today x

It is bad timing with DH's work. I don't have any support out here really, basically just FIL and BIL neither of whom we told about this latest loss. I do see them pretty much everyday though so I'm not totally alone. The main thing getting me down is work. It's so depressing sitting alone all day. I can cope with it when everything else is OK but when other areas of life go wrong then it seems so much worse.

As DH said, we don't need to aim for happy right now. Just resilience until we can get through this. I guess that's OK for now as we've really not been trying long.

Also DH re-checked his itinerary and isn't back till the 22nd which will be CD16 for me so I think next cycle is definitely out which hopefully means holiday is in! DH just needs to convince his boss for the time off...

Fx for you this cycle rather!

Tigsy you should get less tired in a few weeks though right? I think that's what everyone says, that the first and third trimesters are tiring but the second is OK.

It must be so isolating when everyone speaks a completely different language @Kinsters, I don't know how you do it. I like what your DH said though - resilience is good. It's very true.

Had a massive argument with DH this afternoon. Went food shopping & came back to a fridge full of leftover alcohol from Christmas that MIL gave him. He's literally filled the entire fridge up with beer. I very very rarely drink (especially at the moment!) and he will maybe have one beer every other night at most. So a quick job putting the food away took an hour as I had to unload, no lie, almost 40 bottles of beer from the fridge & find a home for them. Apparently I'm "overdramatic" and "immature" for getting annoyed about that... then obviously it escalated.
Only one single packet FRER left in the shops... grabbed it. I got a BFP last pregnancy at midday with a half hour hold so thought I'll just do it now and see what happens... thought I was bursting for a wee... and sorry if tmi but literally a dribble but enough for the test to be used and now I'm really pissed off with myself for wasting a test 😡

Oh @rather how annoying. Did it saturate the window bit of the test? If not it might still be usable?

rather yeah, it's quite lonely. I'm deciding whether to switch jobs and try and find somewhere more international but I worry I'll just have the same problem or worse. Plus we're TTC so not the best time to switch jobs.

That's so annoying about the beer and the wasted test. Are you going to try the other FRER this morning?

Hi Ladies, I am still here, I think we are still carrying on ttc at the moment but I’m not expecting anything to come of it. I’m trying to be realistic.

@Kinsters how are you doing? Did you make it to the doctors? What did they say?

@Tigsy, how are you getting on?

@Pegase I hope you are recovering okay, I’m so sorry you had to go through it all again.

@Ratherbe Have you tested today? Sorry about the wasted frer, they are much cheaper on amazon.

@Indreamland Are you on holiday now? If so I hope you are having a fab time.

@Betty Sorry DS’s sleep has gone backwards a bit. From what I remember sometimes it was 2 steps forward and about 20 back. He will get there eventually.

Hello all,

Sorry been absent. Got back from our Paris trip Saturday - was such a lovely time away and so nice to be away from reality for a while.

Oh Rose I am sorry you've got to that point where that's got to be your realistic view.

Rather - oh my that would have really pissed me off tbh, pretty stupid for him not to realise a fridge is needed for food and not just beer. Alsp why wpuld all the beer need to be kept cold! Just bloomin keep 2 in there tops and refill as he takes! And urgh about the FRER on top of all that!

It's tricky though Kin it's like you can't put your life on hold when TTC but same time what else can you do?

Oh tigsy I'm still needing at least 9 hours sleep a night now and grab naps if possible at 13 weeks! Is awful feeling that drained.

I've spent yesterday and spending today job hunting. I've had my LinkedIn switched to looking for a new job but had no interest. Seems like there's nothing out there that I'm qualified to do atm! I've applied to things I haven't done before and cleaning / bar work too. Feel like it's hard to explain why I'm going from being a Manager in my industry to wanting to be a part time shop assistant etc though! Surely it will make recruiters think I've done something bad in my industry?

@tigsy, @twittlebee - I am now 9 weeks and I am still exhausted. I am going to be by 9pm at the latest and I usually have a yawning fit half way through the afternoon. I still feel nauseous and have the metallic taste back in my mouth. Still hoping that it is all a good sign.

@Rose68 good to see you still with us.

@kinsters I think you should continue to look for a job even though you are TTC. I think you have to keep on ploughing forward with life rather than putting it on hold. I am 37 and I do wish that I had been TTC 10 years ago rather than leaving it until now. However, I am pleased and happy with all my promotions and job decisions that I made in the last 10 years - even though I would like to get out of teaching now!

@rather - I do hate wasting a test. Are you still waiting for tomorrow now or will you crack today and test anyway?

@twittlebee - I really feel for you with the job hunting. Do you want to stay in your industry (was it property?) or do you fancy a change. Are there are recruitment agents for your industry that can look for you?

I am staying at school tonight to watch the school production. Not quite sure how I am going to stay awake but will do my best. I decided that I couldn't wait until 9pm to eat but forgot to bring dinner with me. So I ordered some mexican on Deliveroo and I have just scoffed a quesdilla with guacamole and some tortilla chips. I keep swinging from being massively hungry to feeling really sick so hope I haven't made a mistake by scoffing it all down. You always order more on deliveroo than you need. If I was at the shop I wouldn't have had the tortilla chips, but because some man was coming to deliver the food to me, I feel bad and order more. Ridiculous. Before I moved to Dubai I don't think I had ever had delivery food but it's just too easy here. I ordered at 445pm and by 5.05pm I had a freshly made quesadilla in front of me!

Right - school play time!

The yawning fits are awful aren't they edidxb ! DH tries to keep me up until 10pm each night as he wants to watch something and I end up falling asleep on him by 9.15pm so miss whatever is on!

It's Town Planning, so yeah property/construction. I would love to stay in the industry seems I've spent so long bloomin getting qualified for it! But there's nothing out there. I am already signed up with a few recruiters but they've said there's nothing really out there atm, they've noticed a real slow down due to Brexit too. Plus I would need part time hours so that restricts it even more.

Feel so close to tears constantly but staying strong so DS doesn't see me down. It's hard because I have bouts of depression and anxiety, I'm not on my meds due to pregnancy and so bloody struggling. Just can't believe how much bad luck we've had over past 6 months, just grateful we have a baby on the way but feel awful I can't provide for my family

Hi ladies, sorry not been on over the weekend. Just been really busy and for some reason exhausted (nope not pregnancy symptoms sadly - only on CD12). OPK is still showing high so waiting for the peak - hopefully in the next couple of days.

@Rose68 we're not away yet, fly out early Wednesday morning. I am off work though as took the whole week so I had time to get some bits sorted that I don't normally have time for - including fixing my coat zip which needed stitching back. Glad you're still on the TTC wagon, I know you're being realistic but I still believe it will happen for you x

@Twittlebee so sorry so much is being thrown at you at the moment. Fx the market picks up soon for you and you find something.

@Tigsyboo great news about the house. Hope the majority of work can be sorted in your second trimester when you should have more energy and bump isn't too big.

@Ratherbeshowjumping I'd be super irritated too about the fridge and FRER. Hope that you're still in for this month. How many DPO are you?

@BettySwoll0cks sorry DS has been up in the night again, hopefully though he will settle. What is it with the NHS, I agree it just takes forever for anything to happen. Hope your referral comes through soon, can you chase them?

@edidxb it's a good sign you're so tired (I think). Have you gone for any early scans? Enjoy the school play!

@Kinsters CD16 may just be in time to catch if ov is CD15 which could happen. I agree with @edidxb that you should really consider still looking for a new job, one thing I have learnt is to not put my life on hold. I really wish I'd taken this advice sooner but it could have been worse and I have done some great stuff since deciding not to put life on hold just in case we got pregnant …………….must admit though, as soon as I started having more fun we got pregnant, just sad we lost the baby and the next one. Sadly life cannot always be planned and you just gotta do what you gotta do and if baby comes along things will work out x

Sorry if I've missed anyone.

Heard some sad news today that a friend today has started her third mc - it's just so unfair and I'm angry for her. I just understand why this happens to good people. Like me she is TTC #1. This really sucks.

@Pegase so sorry, I knew I'd missed someone out. Sorry! How are you? Seeing babies is so difficult isn't it - I really struggle with feeling constantly surrounded by babies, prams and pregnant women everywhere I go, why are they always everywhere on the tube? Hope you get your BFP and rainbow soon x

Hi all
Nice to see an influx of messages!

I'm just so nervous at the min. Can't help but thinking my symptoms are very minor and nothing that gives me confidence. Also they fluctuate all the time, I was exhausted the end of last week, but today I feel bright as a button!
Feel queasy rather than nauseous and usually when hungry. Just feel like Friday scan could break my heart again and I don't think I'm ready for that.

@Rose68 glad you are still here 👍🏼
@ratherbeshowjumping - the fridge thing would annoy me... DH did it with the freezer and slimming world meals - couldn't order a small amount / check the room in the freezer first so ended up with 10 ready meals and enough room for about 4... then it was 'we need to make some room' ... no, we don't throw stuff away the rest of us need to fit your stupid impulse purchase in!!
@TwittleBee that really sucks with the job. Did you have to leave straight away? Did you get any pay?

Morning all

Hope everyone is ok, will try to catch up!