The July 19ers - All aboard the rollercoaster for a 3rd lucky thread

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Oh poor you Twittle how can he possibly say you're the one who wanted this when he was the one having unprotected sex?! Ffs.
It must be really tough him blowing hot and cold on you. Have you got much support from family etc? Hopefully he will come round after the scan when he see's it on the screen x

@TwittleBee my DH is the same
3 days ago in a mood for absolutely no reason told me he was 'dreading' the time I got pregnant again as I'd be 'a neurotic psycho' again -
Yesterday when I showed him the test as he was wfh he burst into tears and couldn't stop grinning!
This morning tried to speak to him about my worry over multi-vits 'overwhelming' my body and that I might just stick to folic, vit d and magnesium for next couple of months.... and I'm all the psychos under the sun!! I can't help wanting to do things completely differently to last time!!

@edidxb all the extra stuff your dr gave you, did they tell you the benefits? Do they think you have low progesterone??

My cbfm has caught up with the frer - I've read on clearblue sure that it measures 50miu and so that's quite a strong positive for 12dpo!!

that is bloody brilliant tigsy ! beautifully strong then! DHs can be dicks cant they! WHy do they do this to us when we are actually rather vulnerable?

I sent DH another text and actually he has said it was his fault last night, he is sorry and he does love all 3 of us very much.

It is his birthday Saturday, we are going out for the day just the 2 of us before our best mates come over later so wonder if this weekend will be a good time to reconnect and try and get back to where we were before the MMC

It must be a male thing to just recoil and/or lash out in stressful situations rather than react in a way that would actually relieve the stress by connecting with your partner! Tbh I now try to not share the ins and outs with my DH unless necessary- that's why it's so useful to have you guys!!

Am sitting bored out of my brain in EPU. Have read the whole magazine I bought to occupy me. I just want to know one way or the other now.

good luck Pegase is there much of a wait

Thinking of you @Pegase xx

That's fab @tigsy great news.... positive at 50miu at 12dpo is a fab result so must be a tough little bean.
Wtf is he going to achieve by calling you a "neurotic pyscho" when you're talking to him about vits and supplements ffs!

Good news @Twittle, what are you doing for his birthday? Some time alone sounds like it could be needed.

Good luck @Pegase xx

Rather just a nice lunch and then either cinema or bowling (most likely bowling, its what we used to always do on our dates when we first got together)

Well almost certainly bad news. They could only see gestational sac on scan and nothing else. Want me to come back on Friday to confirm with a rescan but I should be 6+6 today so there definitely should be more.

oh Pegase I am so sorry no idea what to say to you. This is so horribly cruel to happen again to you, I am just so sorry

Sending lots of hugs @Pegase, hopefully the little bean is just tucked away in an awkward position... I'm so, so sorry you are going through all of this anguish again. Hope your DH is looking after you xxxx

Oh god @Pegase I'm in tears here
I don't know what to say
Was it an internal scan? X

@Pegase I’m so sorry, I have tears in my eyes reading / writing this. I can’t believe it’s happening again for you. I swear it’s that brown discharge that is such an ominous sign. Sending you loads of love and I hope you have someone with you to support you. x

@Tigsy please take the supplements, your baby needs them. Supplements really won’t cause miscarriage x

Yeah internal. Know from previous they would definitely see yolk sac and fetal pole by this stage although nurse was trying to be encouraging. Literally just a big gaping hole on the screen.

I don't know what to say Pegase, just so so sorry xx

@Pegase I am so sorry to hear that. That is just devastating news. Are you heading home now and is anyone with you? x

I spent a long time last night thinking. I lit a candle and thought about my losses, @frazzle's little Emily and all of us who are dealing with loss. For the first time I had to connect with the sadness that I may not have another baby - my body is doing all sorts of inexplicable things and it might just be that it will never work out. At the moment that feels like total heartbreak, but I need to start normalising it a bit in case it turns out to be the reality. If I don't, I will get stuck in the grief phase and won't be able to look at DS without thinking about the others I wanted, but couldn't have.

Sorry, that was a bit of a miserable post! Blame it on the hormones. So to lighten the mood, my little dog also has her period just now and so she is wearing the dog knickers of shame (much to everybody else's amusement)

Haha Betty that has cheered me up! Had no idea you could get dog knickers.

Just now need to wait till Friday to find out how they are going to reset my body and hope DH doesn't decide to pull the plug on the whole TTC thing due to the stress

No idea you could get those! They look fab. DDog has just finished hers and I did feel awful keeping her in the kitchen for a few days... she is very cute Betty, I love spaniels.

Feeling your pain and sending you hugs @Pegase 💐

@Rose68 I wouldn't have thought they would have caused delayed Ov either but I'm ALMOST certain they did! I'm also convinced they made me constipated last time and it was the straining that caused the bleeding which started the whole epu journey off.
I'm going to call gp on Thursday when I'm officially 'late' and see what she says
I'm going to ask if they can test my progesterone too I think. X

Pegase so sorry the scan wasn't better news for you, that's just shit

I'm back home now and we managed to dtd before DH went off. I think he'll be back late on Thursday so hopefully even if Thursday is o day there'll be some sperm left up there from today. I think it'll be hard to tell when o is for me as jetlag throws bbt out so I'm expecting some unusually high temperatures for the next couple of days. It should happen soon though, I've never had as much ewcm as I've got today!

@Tigsy I would have thought the supplements help to prevent miscarriage rather than the other way round.

@Betty I am sure you will be able to have another child! I too have been trying to come to terms with never having another. I have managed to mostly separate my feelings from my boys, but I know what you mean, I do sometimes look at them and think about what is missing, and likely to remain missing. I am loving the dog knickers, I have never seen that before!

@Pegase I hope you are okay. xxx

I lit a candle last night too.

How the hell does anyone hold wee for 4 hours! I am currently at 3 which is a massive achievement for me.

@Rose68
I think I'm just panicking about stuff and want a different outcome so keep thinking about what I can change based on last time.

I've been to Tesco and compared all of the vitamins.

I've found Tesco do their own range that have slightly lower values (around a third less) than pregnacare range for most things apart from folic and vit d
I've decided to try those for a month as a more gentle ease in to stuff as I think if nothing else it is a compromise between my anxiety and needing extra stuff for my body x

@Kinsters yey for the eggy gunk and shagging!!

Glad you're back ok @Kinsters and like @tigsy put ever so eloquently "yay for the eggy gunk and shagging!"
On a more serious note, hope you aren't feeling too jetlagged and hopefully he'll be back in time to DTD again on Thurs.

Good idea @tigsy fx'd they do the job!

@rose I think that all the time, I can never manage longer than 3 hrs either!