Yammed if you do, Yammed if you dont

[Owlpatrol]

Yammers thread 10!

Yammer rules:

A safe place for those of you who have been trying to conceive for 6+ months and even yams aren’t helping. Come and have a good ol’ bitch and a moan without judgement. Please read the rules before posting!

The Yam Commandments are as follows;

• Thou shalt not arrive one day and post BFP next day

• Thou shalt not give advice to others when TTC for one month only

• Thou shalt not participate in one-up-manship and realise TTC is shit for everyone in different ways

• Thou shall allow posters to be fucked off with the world and everything in it at regular points in the month

• Thou shalt not be offended by strong language

• Thou shalt not tell everyone to eat yams

• Thou shall accept being called a muppet for testing at 7dpo at 9pm at night

• Thou shalt not symptom spot during the two week wait and must be prepared for a telling off if you do so.

-Thou shalt not post pictures of positive pregnancy tests. We will be delighted to hear about it but no photos, please and thank you

Hi all. Been reading along but couldn't log in for ages.

So all my results finally came back normal - after I totally lost it with a receptionist and howled, she rang the hospital who had misplaced the chlamydia result! Pleased I chased it because it wasn't going to find its way back on its own. Such a relief to know that they are normal at CD3.

I've then had a ridiculously late ovulation for me - CD28 when I'm normally 14-19! I was super poorly so I think it must have just delayed ovulation. We have only managed to BD once so I'm not hopeful. Tbh I'd convinced myself I wasn't going to ovulate at all so I'm just relieved my body is still sort of halfway to doing what it is meant to.

DH has his sperm analysis booked for next week and I will need my CD21 (ha! It will be more like CD35) done next week too.

Will be relieved when we have a full set of results back for us both. Then we can think about what to do next.

@Broodyaf they'll ask questions about average cycle length etc. He asked me if my cycles were regular which I thought they where them noticed after fertility friend says they're only regular 50% of the time so it's worth checking your apps and writing some stuff down for them.
Lovely to have you back @JustLikeTheySaid good on you for putting your foot down. Fingers crossed for good results.
How's things going @BGDino ? X

Also haven't heard from @Owlpatrol lately hope your doing ok? Xx

Hi all thank you for all the messages over the last week or so. I'll catch up with the feed over the next few days. So fw has came and gone and due to various reasons we haven't dtd at all since last cycle dp has been working all hours god sends and my emotions have been all over the place. So initially i was going to hold off ttc this cycle due to the job situation but then after 2 weeks they told me I hadn't got the job which was right during fw so basically we missed the opportunity this month. That's ok tbh I needed some time off.

However it's not all doom and gloom I've decided to try to loose some weight, I'm only 5 foot 2 but I'm 11 half stone which isn't too bad but I could do with loosing some weight so I've decided to focus on that for a while to distract from ttcing. I'm still here though and I'll catch up over the next day or so. Sending big hugs xx

I'm glad your ok @Owlpatrol hopefully you'll be pg soon and will find that's why the job wasn't meant to be I hope you find a tww without second guessing to be a relief I know I'm enjoying not symptom spotting right now x

It’s all a bit shit here.

Finished the Provera today and noticed a little bit of blood, rang the fertility clinic nurses to ask what to do, will have blood test tomorrow morning to see whether I can start letrozole or whether I have to wait for more bleeding.

Have been really depressed this week as in crying all the time and not being able to get out of bed or wanting to eat or do anything. Not sure if it’s the Provera or being on half dose lamotrigine for a week or being overwhelmed by work or not coping with working around 4 pregnant women or some or all of the above. Today I’ve spent most of the day in tears.

Sat down at my counselling appointment yesterday and my phone went off, message from a friend who I haven’t seen for awhile with a picture of her newborn, named Alexander (so same as the little boy I lost).

I can’t shake the fear that I’ll never have a baby of my own, it doesn’t seem to matter what people say or how I try to think it out logically (I’m 32, I’ve gotten pregnant once, I’ve carried a baby past first trimester, cervical incompetence can be treated, my specialists are very good etc; etc;) it’s with me all the time and I’m so tired and scared.

Awww @BGDino I'm sorry to hear this. I wish there was anything I could say that would help. You have a lot going on right now and though you may not feel like it I think your doing amazing. Your grieving and ttc is stressful enough without that. I hope your blood test brings good news x

Had blood test today. Starting letrozole 5mg daily tomorrow, last dose Wednesday, repeat blood test Friday. Have moved my psychiatrist's appointment forward 2 weeks to this coming Monday too.

My parents keep telling me to think positively. They don't understand when I explain why that isn't helpful.

Emailed my research supervisor yesterday to say I had to step away from our project and put my research degree on hold and to say thank you. Haven't heard anything back. Not sure if he's angry or busy.

The only bright spot in today is being told by the dietician that pasta is actually good for a GDM diet, and that I can still eat (salted, not sweet) popcorn at the movies.

@BGDino I'm so sorry to hear this, it all sounds so difficult. People automatically want to comfort you or reason that it'll be ok, but actually most of the time what you need is just to be allowed to feel sad and rubbish.

AF arrived late last night. Felt rubbish and had a cry. We then some plans this morning that will hopefully help our fertility, including losing weight. Still feel sad, but more positive in terms of trying to improve things for us.

@todaywasafairytale sorry for AF but glad you're feeling a bit better for making plans. Feeling like I'm doing something proactive helps me too.

@BGDino you've got an incredible strength, glad you've been able to start the letrozole, all the best with it!
I used to sneak babybel cheese into the cinema with me to pair with my salted popcorn as it helped me tolerate it better.

I've had a small temp rise the last couple of days after 6 days of very low, flat temps after a positive OPK. No idea what my body is doing. Don't feel confident that I've ovulated at all. I've got a GP appointment on 7th March and I'm hoping I can go back on metformin for my PCOS. It's effecting my moods now as well, I'm all over the place.

@BGDino How did you find the provera? I'm to start taking it this cycle (a couple of days after OV until FP) for 3 cycles. Consultant let me try it as I always spot so might have low progesterone. I'm nervous about taking hormones though! Not been on hormonal contraception for about 5 years so feels like a big deal taking this (though of course it's nothing compared to what I'll have to take for IVF!).

My FP only lasted a day and a half last cycle so I've convinced myself I'm hitting early menopause. I'm also surrounded by friends and colleagues who are giving birth in the next few months. I feel like I'm kind of retreating into an antisocial bubble to avoid it all!

@Chooklass I didn't notice anything but TBH I also have lots of psych meds going around my body so I might not have even noticed any side effects. I took the combined pill for 13 years in a row and ran packs together a lot of the time so the Provera doesn't worry me at all :P

Went to the chemist to pick up a few things today. Managed to resist the temptation to buy FRERs. For now.

Morning all.
So I had my GP appt yday to get the ball rolling. They're taking bloods next Monday to check female hormone levels, referring me for an ultrasound and referring me to fertility clinic
Hopefully because I'm 36 the waiting list won't be too long!
Hope everyone else is well on here x

Hi everyone!

@Broodyaf nice to see that things are on the move

I saw my psychiatrist yesterday and she's thinking that the reason I'm depressed again is because we reduced my lamotrigine from 200mg to 100mg, I'm going back up and we'll see how things are. Second day on 150mg today and I'm feeling a bit better. Last dose of letrozole tomorrow and then another blood test on Friday (to do what I'm not sure).

You couldn't make this shit up, but when I was in hospital after losing my baby they wanted me to see the perinatal psychiatry team. I refused because they share registrars with my team and I could potentially be seen by someone who I would have to work with in the future. But apparently the social worker insisted. So the registrar came to see me and I basically just gave her the minimum of history and told her that I didn't want to talk any further. Anyway, I didn't recognise her until she told me today, but my new registrar is the perinatal registrar who saw me in the maternity ward!!!

So in summary, in the last 2 weeks I've been told 4 of my colleagues are pregnant, a friend sent me a picture of her newborn who has the same name as the son I lost just as I sat down for counselling, and the perinatal psychiatry registrar who I didn't want to see when I was in hospital is my new registrar. I feel like having survived all of that, I deserve to keep the next baby I conceive!!!

After lurking here for a long time and a brief venture onto the infertility boards I'm back here.
20months ttc #2
One fertility clinic appointment down and we know we are unexplained and have no intention of going down the IVF route.
So we're back ttc for a few more months while I get used to the idea of being a family of 3.
How is everyone coping with seeing everyone else get pregnant? I need to get over it to rescue a friendship.

Hey @Fizzy13
What did they do/say at ur fertility appt?
I've been referred am curious what their 1st steps are.

I don't have any children and am currently sitting on my sofa watching 1 norm every minute!!

And everyone around me is having children, my (male) friend had a 1 nite stand and got her pregnant 😭

@Broodyaf sounds like a productive appointment. Hope you get seen at the clinic soon.

@BGDino that is a lot to deal with! I'm glad the lamotrigine increase is helping though.

@Fizzy13 welcome! I'm struggling with seeing pregnant people at the moment as I'm approaching what would've been my due date (miscarriage last year). I work with pregnant women and babies so it's challenging. I've been talking a lot to a friend in a similar situation and it's made me feel less alone with it which is helping.

CD28 here and it feels like AF is on the way which would line up with when I had the positive OPK but my temps don't look ovulatory. I wish I could just have normal cycles. It doesn't even feel like it's worth TTC at the moment when my body can't even get an egg out properly.

Had my CD21 bloods taken today (on CD35....) so at least that's another job off the list. Husband has his sperm test tomorrow.

I hate seeing pregnant people too. Loads and loads of people are pregnant at work. It's so so painful. Totally understand how you all feel about it x

@BGDino sending hugs hun, how are you doing today?

I got to hold a one year old today, I was actually in a really good mood about it all, and just tried to enjoy the experience

I'm day 21 @JustLikeTheySaid I thought we were cycle buddies. Not holding out much hope at all this cycle as only managed one deed all month which was just on last day of fw! I am feeling "fullness" though but that is normal and also been starting a new diet in a bit of shed a few pounds

Do still not had his sa he's going to have to book some time off work to do it 😭

Hi all, hope you're all well ❤️

Just thought I'd pop on to let you know I'm thinking of you all - DH's Birthday so I've not had time to catch up on everything.

I'm CD21 I think but had a bit of spotting so weirdly think I'm out. DTD twice this month so no chance of pg for me. Also didn't get that promotion either but I've been told about a job that I've been asked to apply for, so hopefully when that's posted I'll get an interview at least x

How are you all? Have I missed anything major? Xx

@Nosering
The first step for us was blood tests for me on day 3 and then on day 1-7 (day 21 for many people, 19 for me)
Dh had a sperm analysis done
we went through the results at the appointment. my bloods totally normal and dh is apparently above average (cue very smug dh)
Then i had an internal ultrasound which showed that my csection scar is nice and tidy and everything is where it should be. it was interesting to see the folicles on my ovaries!
From that they said everything looked perfectly fine and the next step would be a hycosy test which is more invasive looking for blocked tubes with a foamy dye injected through the cervix.

However after much discussion we have decided that we don't want to go down the IVF route for many reasons so we didn't get that test done. So we are back to square one until we feel ready to call it a day.

Sorry for the essay!

Sorry it was @Broody who asked about the appointment

@cupcakesandglitter same here! Cycle day 21, didn't get the job and only dtd once! Fx for next cycle eh. I'm still on the job hunt

@Owlpatrol sorry we're in the same shitty boat 😂😩 what're you thinking for jobs? I'm planning on staying in the organisation just so it doesn't affect mat leave x