TTC FIRST BABY - Thread 12! [edited by MNHQ at OP's request]

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Oh god, can't believe we're on number 12! Current list - sorry if I've missed anyone!!

FlapJackered 30 Cycle 8
Bettythecat 30 Cycle 5
cupcakesandglitter 23 Cycle 7
Jessikka 28 Cycle 1
starkid 29 Cycle 5
MrsAW2018 24 Cycle 8
AnnaMC214 32 Cycle 5
TTC34 34 Cycle 1
ttc12019 29 Cycle 1
19Bee2 27 Cycle 1
Ember25 34 Cycle 4
BlueArtemis 24 Cycle 7
stormtrooperjulian 31 Cycle 6
MrsH497 32 Cycle 2
Tinag18 36 Cycle 2
MrsR16 25 Cycle 6
Random2468 28 Cycle 2
Jessikka 28 Cycle 1
BostonFern 34 Cycle 1

TTC#1 Grads......
EltzBee Cycle 6
Delilah7 Cycle 3
SullyWifey Cycle 11
MrsEG Cycle 6
MrsLBear Cycle ?
GemmaJen Cycle ?
Crossfitgirl Cycle 8
Bettythecat Cycle 8
Fivexfive Cycle?
Dogmum24 Cycle?
Scottslass55 38 Cycle 4

@granddesigns I can't answer your question as I've just bought OPKs for the first time too so I'll be be looking at your replies for help :)

@thumper59 It's good news your period was normal. I just had my first cycle off the pill and with all the horror stories of people who wait months for their cycle to come back I was very relieved it was a respectable 30 days. My cycles are known for being short and sweet however so I'm sure it will mess with me next month 

@19Bee2 Any sign of BFP or AF?

@Lozzlepop Thankyou. Have to get lots of deed doing in over the next few days then! Think I'll start opks on Friday so I don't miss it

@TrashKitten10 I was shocked that it was completely normal. 28 days same as when I'm on the pill so I can't complain at that!

Aww @FlapJackered sooo happy for you! Fingers crossed little bean sticks. Wishing you a happy health 9 months!

Shift work really sucks messes up BD around ovulation as we are both shattered. Oh well we have a couple of days of sexy time! Just got to wait and see now.

This is a lucky thread girls! X

@thumper59 Definitely not! Your body is behaving so FX it does its job this month :) sounds like you had a lovely weekend x

Can I come back and join you guys again?

We thought we were okay, line got so strong, was the same thickness as the control on Wednesday so we hoped we stood a chance.

Hadn’t managed to get the illusive 2-3 or 3+ on the digital so I tested this morning to see if I’d gotten it (6 weeks) and it flashed not pregnant. Immediately dipped a FRER and it was a stark negative too. I’ve not bled since the bleed 2 weeks ago. And have had no pain. Someone posted about the hook so tested again this afternoon when my urine was more dilute and again, ‘not pregnant’, which I expected after this morning. So this little bean seems to have lost the fight :( Midwife will call me tomorrow but nothing will come of it. I’d like a blood test or scan to confirm it’s all gone though I think.

My DP wants to try again straight away. If we did lose it 2 weeks ago then I’d potentially be due to ovulate soon. But who knows.

Oh @Keyboard91 so sorry to hear that. Are you doing ok? Must be so hard x

Oh @Keyboard91 what horrible news. I was just thinking about you this afternoon and wondering if you were okay

I've got everything crossed that your body is just being an utter bastard and it's not a negative. I remember you saying the doctors were pretty useless when you first had your bleed but I'm hoping the midwife can shed some light.

If it is the worst, you say DP wants to try again but do you feel ready? You've had a complete rollercoaster from finding out you're pregnant, to thinking you'd had a chemical, to thinking you were still pregnant back to believing you've sadly had a loss. Whatever the outcome that's a huge amount of stress and emotion. Obviously go for it if you feel up to it, but nobody would blame you for wanting a little break to rest and recover physically and emotionally. All my thoughts x

@Keyboard91 oh I am so sorry
That's so cruel. I have everything crossed for you that it's just your body playing cruel tricks. Take everything in your own time and we are all here for you 💕

@FlapJackered chart is attached. But I started having cramps similar to AF, so disappointed. Hopefully I'm just bloated and temp goes back up tomorrow. Is your DH fully awake now to realise the happiness?

@Keyboard91 I'm so sorry, but it'll happen for you again and it'll stick that time!

@thumper59 good to see you back!
@Lozzlepop doesn't look like it'll be long until ovulation!
@TTC34 I'm taking pregnacare before conception, and I'm getting the OH to take the wellman equivalent. I've not heard about using evening primrose oil, so I may have to look that up.
@granddesigns I'm only on cycle two, but started OPKs in cycle one. I'd start OPKs about day 7 or 8- I'm using cheap ones from amazon, got 60 fairly cheaply so I don't mind starting using them a bit earlier. I'm thinking of trying pre-seed as lots of people seem to recommend it.
@Keyboard91 I'm so sorry to hear that, it must be so hard x

Thank you @MrsH497 @TrashKitten10 @thumper59 @KatBeCool @BostonFern

It has been the most horrific rollercoaster of my life. Thinking it was a chemical, mentally preparing, then still a bfp so having to mentally go back to being pregnant. Caused HUGE anxiety. And now this.

I don’t know how it can be anything but the worst, as I’ve done 3 tests today and all are negative.

Physically I feel absolutely fine. Still off my food, but nothing hurts. Have just cleared out my wardrobe to keep myself busy as DP had to go to work. Now it’s done I’m tired but I haven’t been sleeping well so that’s kind of expected, especially after this morning.

Nervous that I’m going to bleed, or have pain, in the next couple of days. I can’t afford to take time off work.

I want to try again. I want a baby more than anything, as does my partner. What I’m really nervous about is what happens if/when we catch again. Do I test and find out early - potentially will have to go through all this again (but would mean I knew it had happened and seek appropriate testing) or do I want to just wait until it’s glaringly obvious? How will I be during the 1st trimester knowing that I had absolutely NO IDEA, not even an inkling that this morning would yield a negative. Will I then have to POAS daily as a result during the next pregnancy because of being paranoid? I don’t know how supportive the NHS will be and I can’t afford reassurance scans (especially as the nearest centre is 40 miles away). This is what is scaring me. My DP knows I have anxiety, but I haven’t told him how paranoid I feel like I will become. I don’t want to be, but anxiety brain is not logical.

@thumper59 yup already ticked that one off for today 😂😂 glad to hear everything is back to normal so quickly!

@Keyboard91 I’m so so sorry to hear your news I can’t imagine how you must be feeling these past few weeks, it’s completely normal to be having anxiety and mixed emotions over everything, take the time you feel you need put yourself first, sending lots of love your way!

Oh @Keyboard91 I'm so sorry you're going through this! My thoughts are completely with you - I can't offer much else I'm afraid! Xx

@Keyboard91 I can only imagine how anxious you must feel now and about the future. Do you have a supportive GP, could they talk you through what might happen in the future or even arrange some kind of talking therapy to help you through the anxiety? Sending you gentle hugs x

@Keyboard91 I am so sorry you are going through this, there is nothing more cruel. I had a MMC, I thought I was 11 weeks but the baby stopped developing at 7 weeks. I totally understand your anxiety and I suffer really bad too with it and I know your hurt but I can promise you something...things will get better and you will get your happy ending, We all will. I would definitely go and get seen if you can, might make things more clearer. I know it helped with me to an extent when I went back to the EPU and they said it was nothing to do with me or my OH. It was just bad timing and they explained a lot which put my mind at ease. You will get there, just take your time and make sure you always talk about it, it helps I think. Here to help in anyway 😘

@Keyboard91 I'm so sorry you're going through this, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Take each day at a time and look after yourself. Sending you hugs x

@Keyboard91 You poor thing In terms of how to handle a future pregnancy, that's really hard, especially with anxiety.

I guess that without having tested 'early', you would have probably just assumed the bleeding was a period and have been none the wiser. Whether or not that is preferable I suppose is down to you. It's probably a lot less stressful to test a little later but that's hard when FRERs and suchlike exist and you understandably want to know what's going on with your body.

Also I think you would need to say in your mind that, if this pregnancy doesn't progress, today wasn't just a negative test out of the blue, it was a negative following a bleed. You had signs in this pregnancy that things may not be progressing well before you had a negative test. You'll drive yourself mad testing and testing in future pregnancies so try to assume that without any negative signs, things are going okay. I don't know if I explain myself very well but basically viewing this negative test as the end of your chemical rather than a completely out of the blue event may be easier to cope with in the future.

Hope you get some sleep and please do take time off if you need to

@Keyboard91 So sorry to hear about the emotional rollercoaster you've been on recently. I really had my fingers crossed for you that things had taken a positive turn. All I can say is look after yourself and each other and i hope you have support from your GP for next time. Lots of love and hugs

@keyboard91 I am so sorry to hear what has happened, I am devastated for you. I hope you're getting all the support you need, I think @trashkitten10 has given you some really sound advice and I can't really add to that.
Take all the time you need to get over this, and ttc again should be when you feel ready, whether that is straight away, or not for a while. That decision lies with you and DH and there's no right or wrong.
I'm not sure if this helps at all, but I know that sometimes the NHS will do early reassurance scans if you've had a previous MC, and if you have anxiety in addition perhaps this would mean they would consider it in a future pregnancy. It's difficult not to be anxious whatever the circumstances. There is also lots of support on MN for ttc after MC, I have seen a few threads and am sure it may help to speak to others in the same situation. But do speak to your GP and get all the information you can.
Take care of yourself and sending you all the love and hugs I can muster ❤️💐 xxx

@FlapJackered huge congratulations on your BFP. Can I ask, where did you get your soy iso's? And how many/when did you take them? If the pre-seed doesn't work for us this month then I'll be getting them for C11!

So sorry to hear what you're going through @Keyboard91 to get that positive then not have it is devastating I know, but we're all here to talk to should you not feel like talking to someone face to face.

Congratulations @FlapJackered very happy for you!x x

Morning Ladies, lets try and have some form of a positive Monday...we all know how much fun they are 🤨. Did my 2nd mountain climb yesterday and safe to say, walking boots are a must have. I was like Bambi on ice and decided the best way to get back down was just to go on my ass like a child, was extremely fun but scary. How'e everyone else's weekend been?

I am currently on CD9 and began testing with my OPKs yesterday, hoping for my positives on CD11-12. We are also on with our SMEP and my lovely OH is very keen on this plan...keeps telling me when we need to BD, least he's eager.

Morning @DayDreamer1707 and ladies! Well it may be Monday but I'm finally on days off just finished work! Luckily me and hubby work the same shifts.

I'm 3/4 dpo first cycle using clearblue opk and preseed. Found the clearblue so much easier than interpreting lines which I'm rubbish at! Because of work not had as much BD as we'd like but hey.

Ladies hope you all have a good Monday I'm off to bed! Xx

Morning everyone ☺️

@DayDreamer1707 sounds like a fun weekend! I had a fairly quiet one just doing the housework etc and had a friend over while DP was out on Saturday night. Have eventually recovered from the gym in time to go back tomorrow lol. Thats good that your OH is very keen, mine asked last night if I felt impregnated yet 😂I told him i required his services on Tuesday lol.

@MrsH497 hope you enjoy your days off ☺️