TTC after pregnancy loss - thread 27 - BFPs are coming!

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New Thread as we're at 988 messages on thread 26. we'll do a quick roll call:
Age 39
TTC x1
MC x 3 = Sept + Dec 2017 + May 2018
Currently pregnant again 5w4ds
Diagnosed with APS/Hughes Syndrome. On Asprin since October and start Heparin tomorrow. First scan Monday.

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@Dimblebimble Pregnancy announcements seem to be the one thing that doesn't get easier for me. It's especially difficult when you know the couple haven't struggled. It's hard to be happy for them. Hugs xxx

@Boboelephant Good to hear. I was a bit worried in case progesterone being low was affecting successful implantation since I've spotted from day one with my last 3 pregnancies. But I trust the professionals. Sorry about all the baby news in your life. As I said to Dimble, it's the one thing I find doesn't get easier to deal with over time. I felt bad about having 'ugly' emotions about other people's happiness for a while, but I've realised I'm just being hard on myself, of course feeling this way is a normal human reaction. Hugs xxx

@SerenaOverjoyed Aww, I had a little chuckle at your description of your anxiety... I get like that too sometimes; fixating on something (for me it's usually electrics or gas or worrying I've forgotten something or done something wrong at work). No tips for the holiday I'm afraid. Hope you find a good deal somewhere nice. xxx

@TinselBee How are you chicken? Has the bleeding got any worse?

@DayDreamer1707 Sorry you're feeling all over the place. Sometimes you just have to let mother nature do her thing and just go along with it. The old time-will-tell motto is probably all you can focus on right now. I suggest trying to find some distractions to keep you busy. It's sooo frustrating all this TTC stuff, isn't it? But sometimes just thinking about something else is the best you can do. Hope you feel calmer soon. xxx

@OctoberGirl91 It can take your body a bit of time to get back to normal after ERPC or pregnancy loss. Hope everything becomes clearer soon. xx

@fnej01 Thanks hun. I'm coming towards the end of my first cycle NOT TTC and I think PMS might be playing a part with the emotions. Seeing them as milestones is a good idea.
I'm fluctuating wildly between feeling utter despair that I will never be pregnant successfully and feeling optimistic about adopting instead. I can't cope with thinking of the possibility of a successful pregnancy though, in case I get bad news I don't want to have let myself get my hopes up. And knowing that my condition can cause problems later on in pregnancy I'm really wondering whether I should be pushing for this at all. Am I just being silly wanting to have a pregnancy which might be bad for the baby and me and how would I cope with the anxiety the whole way through the 9 months? Just a lot whizzing through my head right now.
You made me laugh with 'fanny scan'! I'm really glad everything looks normal on that. One milestone over!

@ratherbeshowjumping your first cycle after loss may not be a completely typical one. On the other hand, some people go straight back to normal, so it's hard to say. I think EWCM is a good sign. You can only try and hope for now. Good luck. And sorry for your loss. xx

@strawberrye I'm glad they're looking into if the referral has been done correctly. Fingers crossed this will mean you get seen sooner.

@Laney79 Thanks hun. Yes, the waiting is hard. I keep reminding myself that regardless of waiting for tests I need this time for my body to recover properly and will try to focus on Christmas for the time being. It's also my birthday on Monday so that should be a good distraction. Good luck for the weekend. Try to remember that your body doesn't know when you're birthday is. A lot of women stay fertile well into their 40s and you know you are fertile because you have been pregnant twice recently. I really hope you're producing a good strong little egg this month. Even if you don't ovulate until next week DTD at the weekend will still give you a good chance. xxx

@Lilimum5 I'm not surprised you're anaemic after all the blood loss. I'm glad you're getting the iron though. Hopefully it's the start to your body getting back into better shape. Once your body is feeling better it will help you emotionally too. Massive hugs. Sometimes it just feels like one thing after another, doesn't it? I hope you leave all of this behind in 2018 and next year you see better times. xxx

@smerlin Welcome, and so sorry for your loss. Did EPU give you a sicknote? Could you get one from your GP? I hope you told your manager to go stuff themselves! Stay strong. xxx

@Wearytree Sorry, I haven't had mine done yet, but getting my levels checked too.

@granolacrayons I've just seen your message too. Sorry about your losses. Welcome. If the doctor says it's ok to try again I would accept that. On the other hand if you feel you want to give yourself some more time to recover and get results from the biopsy I think that would be fine too. Do what feels right in your gut. Hugs xxx

I’m going retest after lunch as surely it can’t last any longer than 24 hours a surge. Although I know you can ovulate within 36 of getting a surge, I wish I had stuck to CB as that solid face stays there for 48 hours so never questioned it!

Done a cheap pregnancy stick and it’s negative so can’t be pregnant. If ovulation is today or tomorrow that means a 40/41 day cycle I’ve never been that long it’s been 4 weeks since my first AF after MC on Friday x

Finished my stims and trigger, 5 eggs out of 7 follicles. But only 1 got fertilised. Gutted and deflated but still hoping this is THE one! Embryo transfer on Saturday.

Fx for you @Russkispy xx

@OctoberGirl91 I find opk's a total head f*ck sometimes. You can ovulate anytime from 12-36 hours after you get your positive ppl & they say that you don't need to test again after you've got a positive one just baby dance for the next 3 days and that should cover you. How long are your cycles normally?

How are you today @Laney79?

@smerlin that's awful! Hope you can have some time off work to recover ❤️ sending some love.

Has anyone had a private scan at 6 weeks? I will be 5 weeks tomorrow so contemplating a scan at 6 weeks. I am terrified of having another miscarriage 😔 xxx

Definitely @MeghanV07 I could have sworn I ovulate last Friday as I had some bloody EWCM but obviously not! I've only got one OPK left and I've ran out CB so I'll do another this afternoon!

I'm not sure tbh I got caught first cycle after having coil taken out then MC and my first AF was 35 days after ERPC so this is obviously going be nearly 41 days and I've never had cycles this long ever! I've gained a little weight over last few months so going get back to gym I think see if that helps xx

I had a private scan with my DD at 6 weeks in 2016 and they could see fetal pole and heartbeat xx

@MeghanV07 I had an NHS scan at 5+5 and was able to see a heartbeat. I would probably book an early scan again at about 6 weeks because it was reassuring to know everything was in the right location and viable. I hope it goes well for you.

Fingers crossed for you @Russkispy! It only takes one!

Hi everyone, sorry I haven't been around. I'm sad to see so many new joiners to the thread and that a few of you have had bad news recently. Sending you all so much love.

TTC #1 for 2 years
MMC April 2018, ERPC
DH has a condition which means he doesn't always produce hormones, currently being treated with HCG.
Referred for IVF, first appointment imminent!

Ladies I'm so confused and it's stressing me out! Last month I had an odd period (one day, no fresh blood). Went to the doctor's and he thinks my hormones are still settling but as I've had the hormone blood tests prior to the miscarriage and they came back normal he thinks it's unlikely there has been a change. Not pregnant (got a bfn) so put it down to a one off. This month decided to stop tracking my temp apart from around when I think I ovulated (got a big temp spike for 3 days). At around 6dpo I had a small bleed for half a day (old blood, sorry tmi). It stopped then started again 8dpo but was very light. Now I have very light brown cm at 10 dpo. I took an IC and there is a faint thin line but I think it's an evap. I've been having waves of af cramps all week. I've never spotted before af and it's making me feel like there is something wrong with me :(

@Russkipsy Good luck!! It does only take one :)

@Granolacrayons Try not to worry - easier said than done, I know. I am sure what looks scary to you is really nothing to worry about. They are probably just wanting to be thorough to make sure they tick boxes while helping you on your journey. Keep us updated.

I need serious help! I am testing like a mad woman. I know better than to test at 8DPO. Plus we weren't even meant to be trying this month. I need a word with myself. After the last miscarriage I said I wouldn't test at all next time until 6 weeks (if I haven't bled by then) and here I am like a crazy woman testing at 8DPO. No self control!

@Mistymeow sounds like you might have had success to me!! All the signs are there. Keep testing and keep us posted. Fingers crossed

@KnitKitty I am just as bad today if not worse, got upset and cried again. No idea why. Has to be AF soon...CD 22 so god knows. I normally don't get this emotional but you never know after a MC. I just struggle switching off when I'm at work because I'm on the internet all day so can't help but look into things 🙈

@Russkipsy Good luck and will be keeping my FX for you x

@Holly5633 step away from the tests!!! Give them to DH to hide or something 😂

@Mistymeow try not to worry and maybe try and test again when you are feeling ready x

OK I'm royally p*ed off now. Its definitely not a new pregnancy as I'm still bloody bleeding and spotting from Mondays drama. I'm gonna go call epu and find out what to do.

Oh @Lilimum5 this isn't easy for you is it. Yes ring EPU ❤️

@Beaglemum93I just rang my doctors in tears so they've got me in for 2:30 to have a chat. Just hoping they can refer me for an early scan just so I can see something. Or at least do bloods. I feel like such an idiot crying but I feel so upset atm 😔

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@MeghanV07 thanks I'm waiting for a call back.
You are not silly we all understand the anxiety you are dealing with hun xx

Oh @meghanV07 - big hugs - it's such a shit time - I had a scan at what should have been 6 weeks and I knew due to my cycle length etc it would be out but I only saw a sac and yolk which whilst normal at 5 weeks, has made me more anxious and I've had a long two week wait until my scan on Friday. I would be tempted to wait a little longer than 6 weeks unless you're a 28 day/ovulate on day 14 person. I do understand how scary it is, but sometimes the uncertainty can make it worse.

I have had some bleeding and pain so I don't feel very confident and have no idea how I will get through another miscarriage especially this time of year, but I'm trying to stay strong.

Aww @MeghanV07 that is perfectly normal, surely you'll get a referral to EPU. I suffer with anxiety quite bad usually so I honestly don't know how I feel once I see those two pink lines again it's a nerve wracking time.

Be kind to yourself 💖 hope GP makes referral, can you self refer?xx

That's how I feel @Justincase87 because of the time of year it's making it so much worse. I hope they just suggest bloods today so at least I have a decent level of hcg. My mc was only 827 and it would have been in the 2000's. so as long as it's a good number that will help even for a couple of weeks. I just hate all this uncertainty 😔 hope your scan goes well on Friday though. Please keep us updated ❤️

Thanks @Lilimum5, I just hate feeling like this. I know so many people have mc's and it's becoming more common that people are having them but it just makes you so so worried doesn't it. Let us know what they say xx

@OctoberGirl91 my EPU are horrid. They wouldn't even speak to me last time, they just kept saying there was nothing they could do as I wasn't 7 weeks yet. So my GP referred me. Hoping she can do that today ❤️

Hi All, I was on the last thread but have been dipping back in every now and again. So sorry to all the new joiners.
I'm 34, TTC #2 (22 month DS). MMC in July. Both previous pregnancies happened first time round. This time it seems to be much harder. AF has just arrived today (at CD 25, which is unusual as I have generally 28 day cycles). AF has been so much more painful since the MC. DH thinks we should see a doctor as it's odd that it is taking so long. I don't know what they will do as I know for many people it takes much longer (it just historically hasn't for us). :(

OK I've got to go for more bloods to see if the numbers are going up or down I'm praying that's its a mistake because I had a negative on Monday and now it positive again today. Its definitely not a new pregnancy.

@Lilimum5 I'm so sorry, you seem to be having a tough time. Normally you would love to see that line. I hope you bloods show some positive results. It's cruel how our bodies can mess us around.

Does anyone know the answer to this Question....If you had ovulation bleeding, does that mean you have ovulated? x

Fx your GP is helpful let us know how you get on @MeghanV07 xx

How'd you get on at the epu @MeghanV07? I hope they were helpful