TTC after pregnancy loss - thread 26 - BFPs are coming!

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Another new thread! This is a lovely supportive thread for anyone who has suffered the loss of a much wanted baby. Affectionately known as the penguin huddle - this is the place to survive the ups and downs of this crazy journey.

Kicking off with a roll call:

RedRobin7
Age 30
TTC #1
MMC at 12 weeks in March 18
NMC at 7 weeks in July 18

Currently under a private gynaecologist and waiting for tests results. Hoping to join the TTC bus again in October.

I think I see it @strawberrye - keeping fingers crossed for you. I've had two early losses and waiting on test results but my consultant has already said take baby aspirin from BFP in future on the basis he doesn't think it'll harm but might help. I'm 39 so he could also be thinking it's my age so worth trying just in case.

@strawberry I see a faint line, I’ll be keeping everything crossed for you testing tomorrow 🤞 sorry don’t have much advice but I really hope this is your BFP!

@strawberrye , I can the faint line too. Tentative congratulations! Hope it turns darker in the next couple of days!

It looks positive to me @strawberrye
Tentative congratulations! Fingers crossed for you that the line will get darker and that you have a healthy and uneventful 9 months!

Hi ladies,
I haven't been around for a week or so. I had a much needed relaxing trip to the lakes with OH and have had a fantastic week. Feeling really relaxed and happy.
TTC isn't on my mind at the moment, as we're taking a break. I had been feeling really sad about not trying and frustrated before, but I'm actually feeling ok about it now and really glad of the break.
My body is still acting a bit strangely. Last cycle I had what I think was another very early loss. I started brown spotting CD22 after ovulating on CD13 (I think), accompanied by mild cramps which then went away again after a few days. I continued with brown spotting, which got gradually heavier until CD29 and then the next day started my period properly which was painful and heavy, and the bleeding lasted a further 5 days (my normal AFs aren't heavy or painful). So AF stopped on Tuesday of this week (just in time for some holiday fun ). But I've had a tiny amount of brown spotting again yesterday and what could have been ovulation pain today. I've never had spotting during ovulation before. Do any of you get it? Is it normally brown spotting? Also, I'm only CD10 (going from when the 'proper' bleeding started) and before last cycle the earliest I had ovulated was CD17.
I'm having acupuncture at the moment. My last appointment was CD8 (a day before the brown spotting). Do any of you have experience of your cycles completely changing when you've had it?
Still waiting to hear when RMC appointment is going to be. But feeling patient and just seeing it as time for my body and mind to heal a bit more.
Feeling a lot stronger and contemplating other options a lot which is helping me feel much less hopeless.
Also wondering about starting OPKs again next cycle even though we're not trying, just so I can have a clearer idea of what my body is doing, because it's acting very oddly at the moment!

I have just been trying to catch up with everyone's news. Sorry not to reply to you all individually today.
Hi to the newbies, sorry for your losses, but welcome to the group.

Special hugs for those of you who have recently had a loss, and especially to those of you who thought you were growing your rainbow. Penguin cuddles!

@hayleyfx I feel safe to say this now: Congratulations! Ignore the stupid witch who made you doubt yourself, you're 100% pregnant. I hope it sticks around and turns into a beautiful little rainbow.

@Yukka Having a diagnosis both sucks and is a good thing at the same time. It sucks that there's something wrong. But the good thing is you have an answer, and a way forward in the future. Hopefully they can find the right treatment now to help you have a sticky and successful pregnancy. But I know you must be feeling a bit shitty, so hugs for you. xxx

@strawberrye I can see a line. Would it harm taking the aspirin if you're not pregnant or diagnosed anyway? I would take it to be on the safe side if I were you. Hoping the line gets darker quickly. xxx

@Beaglemum93 I had an MVA procedure and got my negative after around 8 days. If that gives you any inclination of timescales. I suppose the fact I had surgery ensured all products had officially gone. Xx

@strawberrye I can see the line!! And hopefully that’ll only continue to get stronger! Keep your chin up and look after yourself. Sending lots of love and luck xx

I am feeling particularly down today. So I’ve come on here to have a little moan.
Me and my ex tried for 4 years unsuccessfully. Then me and my current partner fell pregnant after 4 months together without even trying. Then sadly we lost our twins.

Now we are on month two since MVA of unsuccessful TTC. My cycles are a lot shorter than they used to be. So I’m wondering if I am actually ovulating. I just don’t know what’s happening.
Considering they say you are super fertile after miscarriage/MVA - clearly I am not.
It’s so hard, and so upsetting. Plus today I’ve been at a friends baby shower. It’s just brought it all back to me that I would now have been nearly 21 weeks pregnant, and I would have known what we were having. But instead I’m sat here very unpregnant and feeling really shit. 😞

Hi All,

Welcome to the newbies and so sorry for your losses, but glad you have found this way to such a supportive group.

@hayleyfx congratulation lovely strong line. Got everything crossed this is your rainbow.

@strawberrye I can definitely see a line. Fingers crossed you get a lovely line on a FRER tomorrow

@KnitKitty Glad you had a good break and feeling rejuvenated

I'm awaiting first AF following two consecutive miscarriages. Having some serious cramping today am I in for a shocker of a time this month and a heavy bleed? I don't normally get pre cramps so it's making me nervous. After first mc,AF was relatively normal. Would be good to know other experiences so can be prepared. X

@strawberrye I'd definitely take the aspirin. I was recommended after first mc on the basis it will do no harm x

@fnej01
So sorry to hear about your two loses.
Following my miscarriage and MVA surgery my first period was very heavy and sudden. I didn’t have any cramps just back ache. Followed by an extremely heavy flow which came whilst I was at work and totally unprepared. I had to send a female colleague to get me some super night pads. As I was soaking one in an hour. 😞
However there is good news. It was only two heavy days then a few days of light bleeding turned into spotting.

My next period has arrived earlier than expected but it is pretty much normal in flow.

Hoping it’s not too bad for you!! Xx

I'm so fed up ladies thought I was done with the mc physical part anyway but no started bleeding with clots again today. I didn't know this could happen after erpc that was on the 4th and it's now the 18th. Could it be af even though I still have hcg in my system. So confused what do you ladies think.

@strawberrye congratulations hun. I'd take the aspirin anyway it can't hurt I don't think. Good luck with the test tomorrow xx

@Laney79 @hayleyfx @Russkispy @Beaglemum93 @KnitKitty @Rachyxxx @fnej01 @Lilimum5 thank you all, I did a FRER this morning (attached) and the same type of internet cheapy I did yesterday. FRER has a faint line which came up within 2 minutes (picture was taken within the time frame but since drying has become more pink) but internet cheapy is negative. I can't really help feeling like I know how this is going to end, especially as with my first two losses my BFPs were quite faint. I guess all I can do is wait and hope and try to stay relaxed. Ordered some more FRERs to test with in a couple of days if I don't start bleeding in the meantime.

@strawberrye morning lovely. I hope your OK. If you don't mind I will still keep my fingers crossed for you. Look after yourself and remember we are here for you what ever the outcome xx

How do/did you guys get past the anxiety and fear of loss to try again?
I keep having these various nightmares of different scenarios that leave me so drained and scared all day x

Morning ladies @straweberrye that looks good, I would start the aspirin as they may not do second aps test as hcg hormone can mess with the results. I don’t know if that’s ‘standard’ or just my consultants opinion. 75mg....

Also, looks like we’ll be going through this together. Got my bfp this morning. I’m totally shocked. Just spoke to consultants office and they will call me back with initial plan soon xx I’m speechless xx

@Yukka congratulations

@Yukka congratulations that's a nice strong line, keeping my fingers crossed for you that this is a happy and healthy pregnancy! I hope my line gets nice and strong like yours. How many weeks are you do you think?

Thanks @lilimum5 and @strawberry it’s a bit surreal as was just letting diagnosis sink in but boobs tstarted to hurt so thought I’d do a test ‘just in case’.
I think I was due on on Saturday, (cycles been slowly getting back to normal since last mc 6 months ago) so just 4w3d. Just done a cheapy and line is visible but much weaker. Don’t be put off @strawberrye we all produce hcg at different levels, today we are pregnant :) xx

@strawberrye definite line there-fingers crossed. Hoping for super sticky for you xxx

Wow @Yukka -no mistake there! Congrats! Fingers crossed they get you straight on a treatment protocol and this is your sticky one. Xxx

I'm about 9/10dpo...not had a proper AF since losing bow, trying not to symptom spot or wind myself up too much but my fella says he thinks I'm preggers again. Going to test weds if no AF as before we fell with bow my Luteal phase was about 12 days.

@strawberrye definitely a line, I really hope it gets nice and dark for you, fingers crossed! 🤞

@Yukka congratulations!! I think I’m 4+4, I hope these are our rainbow babies 🌈❤️

@Laney79 will be keeping everything crossed for you testing 🤞

thanks Laney79 fingers crossed for your testing on Wednesday

@Hayleyfx yikes we're super close! - congrats, lets hope these beans stay nice and snug for 9 months :) are you going for any early scans?

Hello ladies, it's been a while!

Update on my situation,
(For those that don't remember been TTC since May 2017 with mc September 2017)
Just been to our second appointment at Yorkshire fertility clinic for test results
DH results were bad again and we was told the chances of us conceiving naturally are very very slim so we've been referred for IVF

Im not even sure how I feel, I've got leaflets to read, an open talk thing to attend on December 20th to meet the doctors and nurses and other couples going through it then an appointment on 8th January to start the process. We're officially infertile, pretty devastating.

I send you all lots of baby dust and hope for Christmas babies!!

@hayleyfx @yukka fingers crossed indeed for all of us! It would be so lovely for these to finally be our rainbow babies. I am 4+2!

@tiniestsky the fear of TTC doesn’t go away my lovely. Only you in yourself know when the time is right. And for those that have lost... we live in the hope that we will conceive again, because we’ve overcome the first hurdle of getting pregnant in the first place.
I have good and bad days, some days (today for example) I am looking to the future for me and my fella, our new house together with his 2 year old and my two doggies... and hopefully our own baby soon ❤️
However yesterday I was rock bottom low, crying at work and feeling like giving up.
Each day is a fresh start and a day closer to our next ovulation cycle to try again.
These things come to test us I guess... god only sends the hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. We will all get there one way or another ❤️
I am free to chat if you ever need.

@yukka wow that is an undeniable positive 😬😬 super happy for you my lovely!! Now look after yourself and let the other half pamper you. And make sure you get the pregnancy care and support you need through the EPAU you are entitled to an early scan.

@laney79 keeping my fingers crossed for you that you ovulated and conceived this month!!!

@strawberrye hoping that line gets darker for you! As others have said we all produce HCG at different rates. So don’t let that get you down!!

@DaisyMay25 you may not be able to conceive naturally with your partner but that doesn’t mean that IVF and other treatment won’t work. You guys will have a baby it will just require that little bit of help.
Keep faith in yourselves and look after eachother. This is an opportunity to get so much closer as a couple and share both of your concerns and worries.
When me and my partner lost our twins it rocked us massively, we weren’t communicating and were on the rocks. Then we both stopped and were like ... why are we letting this destroy us?! We are now stronger than ever. And we are getting through our battle together.
I am confident we will get there sweet! Keep your chin up ❤️

Sending you all love xx