Fed up fed up fed up FED UP!!!!!!

[Kate8989]

Sorry ladies just felt like a rant......
Had a fricking shit year so far that doesn’t seem to be getting better at the moment. I have good days and bad days but feeling fed up today. I think watching the wedding making me feel more down as everyone looks happy and beautiful and I’m sat here looking like waynettea slob 😂 x

@DaisyMay25- thank you!!!!! I will need a second laparoscopy to remove but it shouldn’t be too complex. I was dreading the news that it had infiltrated. It’s a fantastic place I went to in London, they can see so much on ultrasound xx

@Kate8989 soo glad to hear its not as bad as u thought hun fx this is the light at the end of the tunnel for u x

@thisisouryrfx18- thank you!!! It’s just nice to know I’m not going mad!!! I have three painful lumps of endometriosis all where nerves and ligaments are. So at least now people have sympathy for my pain lol and don’t think I’m making it up xx

@Kate8989 yh its gd u know whats goin on and theres a treatment for it so it doesnt go on longterm..u sound relieved hope its pickd ur mood up x

Ive got my docs appt for nxt tues..uugghh dnt want to go but i cant go on in this limbo anymore i need answers

@thisisouryrfx18- hey, what are you hoping to get from the appointment? I hope you have a nice Dr, that always helps xx

I just want blood tests to c if i definetely ovulate and a scan prob because i get really heavy periods n bad cramps, ive been anaemic a few times aswell. Im hoping the scan will rule out any cysts etc. OH is going to get his sperm checked aswell.

@thisisouryrfx18- are you in the South by any chance? Have a recommendation but will DM you x

I live up north DM me and i ll try and figure out how to read it technology is not my thing lol

Hi everyone,

I've had a quick read through your thread as I had been wondering how a friend of mine,physicskate was getting on and I heard from the yammers that she was on here.

I'm very excited for you physicskate. I really hope the IVF goes well. Did you find out about your thyroid? Is it ok?

I'm really pleased you've had good news Kate8989 .

I hope you all make positive progress on your journeys soon. Lots of love x

Aw that's so sweet of you @peachesarenom. I'm fine and in the middle of my ivf cycle. Thyroid is not amazing but ok with low dose meds.

I'm trying to keep a slightly lower profile... but feeling a lot better than a few months ago. Those were some pretty dark days.

How are you getting on???

Hi physicskate I'm so excited for you, sending lots of positive vibes. I was really worried when I heard you were being trolled.

All is ok this end

That feels like a long time ago now. I guess I'm made of stronger stuff... glad to hear you're ok too!!

@Kate8989 just bak from the docs she was actually really sympathetic shes doing bloods to make sure i ovulate and referring me to a gynaecologist..how r u gettin on?

@thisisouryrfx18- that’s great news, so pleased you had a sympathetic DR. Did they say how long your referral would be?
I’m not too bad thanks poppet, got my consultation with surgeon on Monday. So should get a rough idea of when my next surgery will be 😳 xx

Blood tests are cd28 instead of cd21 cause of my 42day cycles does that seem right?..its a catch 22 isnt it? u want to get the op over and done with i imagine but its still daunting

Hmmm I guess they know what they’re talking about poppet, I’m not very clued up on ovulation etc...
It is daunting but I’m defniteltly more excited than anything! Can’t wait to get these f nodules ripped outta me lol.
How have you been in yourself? X

@Kate8989 still v down im relieved ive took the 1st step but sad it has come to all this..i dunno my heads all over the place. My works stressing me out aswell their changing everyones job roles/titles unsure if it will benefit me or make my job harder on the same wage. I hope u dnt have to wait long on the op then u sound like ur geared up for it gd for u 💪

Going through all this fertility stuff has really put things into perspective for me. I just don’t care about the things I used to... for example... I used to have my hair done regularly always made sure colour was spot on. I haven’t had it done since January, really need to go but I know it won’t make me feel better. I suppose you can liken it to work aswell, all the trivial shit that gets thrown at you, does it really matter in the scheme of things? Not really!!
We will get there, however long it takes and whatever path we go down. I’m looking forward to the op but not looking forward to being bed bound for weeks 😢 xx I’ll be annoying you lot on here lol x

@Kate8989 ur right ttc does put things in perspective work is just work im one those ppl i work to live i dnt live to work ive always been that way. Im a hardworker when im there and ive had opportunities to progress to senior roles but i cba with the stress tbh. Just with this shake i might b under more pressure and im thinking how the stress will effect me ttc. Your not bugging us on here im always happy to listen and ur right fx we ll get there in the end x

Hello my ladies...
Reaching out to you, on a real downer at the moment. Didn’t sleep last night as kept telling myself I’m going to end it all....
Was researching hysterectomy stories last night and thought If I can’t have a baby I don’t want to be here anymore. Don’t think I can carry on like this xx

@Kate8989 please go to the docs hun! Have u told anyone in RL how uve been feeling? X

No, nobody wants to hear it anymore that’s why I bottle it up. I can’t cope with this diagnosis. I can’t accept the fact I have endometriosis which I why I keep googling hysterectomy and that seems the only way to really get relief from it so I’m in a shit sandwich really at the moment! X

@Kate8989 well 1st of all i completely understand how u feel not with the endometriosis but the depression u have..i had anxiety and depression soo bad i didnt want to leave the house. I know its not what u want to hear but im gonna tell u because im very worried about you, you need to get a docs appt today an emergency 1 and get on some antidepressants. Theres no shame in it you feel like ppl are tired of hearing it because thats what depression does it plays tricks on your mind and makes you feel alone. But your not alone i guarentee your family and oh would devasted if you were to hurt yourself! I know you might think im only saying this to make you feel better but a friend of mine had endometriosis had treatments then she was waiting to start ivf and she fell pregnant naturally it wont 100% stop you from having a baby x DM anytime you want if you want to talk privately and keep me updated on how u get on at the docs hun ❤

I’ve got some antidepressants at home which I’ll start taking..
I don’t know what the doctors can do, I want the endometriosis ripped out of me as it’s making me feel disgusting and they can’t do that so it’s just something I need to work out in my head.
I’ve had so much emotional pain even stemming from childhood, why have I been given this physical pain to contend with aswell. It’s like the world is trying to tell me you’re fucked so just get the fuck out of here x