S1lver the way he said "Well of you really can't cope without them " like I wasn't trying hard enough or something. Yes I maybe could have carried on without them for a bit longer but I already regret letting him talk me out of antidepressants 4 weeks ago. Does he want me to get to the point of being suicidal before he decides that the risk to me out ways the risk to a baby, because I know that's where I will get to if I don't take something now and I'd really rather not get that low and then have to fight my way back up again. Plus when I am ill it impacts on DH, I can't support him as well as normal and he struggles more, then if he gets ill it puts more stress on me and I get more ill and we both end up in a situation where we would struggle to look after a child anyway. Therefore me being well is vital to a child's wellbeing. I'm sorry to hear that your PCT have those rules regarding adoption. Surely it is better as a parent or potential parent to manage your mental health well with medication and to seek help when necessary than to battle on alone without treatment. I Wonder if they have this attitude to people adopting if they take medication for a physical heath problem. Either way it sounds to me like they could be falling foul of the disability discrimination act. I am aware that it is very unlikely that DH and I will be able to adopt due to mental health problems and certainly DH will never be medication free, yet those medications are what allow him to be stable enough to consider being a parent. I know they need to find the best homes for kids needing adoption, but from people I know who have been through the adoption process it's very hard to actually get approved and then matched to a kid. I have 1 friend who is already an incredible Mum to her kids who has been turned down twice at the last minute after being matched to a child given an adoption date etc. As June said I can't believe how hard it is given how many kids there are needing loving homes.
looking DH and I cut out refined sugar and cut back on carbs (which the body turns into sugar) before Christmas when DH was diagnosed with diabetes and I feel much better for it so hopefully it will help with fertility too, can't do any harm as I've lost 1 1/2 stone too 
Lexie your taste changes very quickly and things like peas and carrots start to taste sweet. I don't even want sugar any more and some fruits are too sweet. DH tends to avoid most fruits anyway as they are packed full of sugar. We do occasionally have 70% or above cocoa dark chocolate as a treat still, satisfies my chocolate cravings, you can also get unsweetened cocoa hot chocolate.
Bridget welcome, my husband has T2 diabetes and I know that can cause fertility problems in terms of sperm quality and retrograde ejaculation. I'm hoping now he has his blood sugar better under control it will help, but keen to get SA to check what's going on.
sparkwood good luck, that's exciting news 
sooz fingers crossed
limp glad you have managed to get an appointment, fingers crossed for you too.
chooklass Well done keep up the good work.
paranormal welcome and sorry for your losses 