TTC after MC April 07 - Return to the Mother Ship

[popsy76]

Hi Ladies, thought I would just grab the bull by the proverbial horns and get this going. Hope the name is okay. MrsMc I am afraid we will all be thinking of you and your DH (and his light saber) everytime we post

Too many individual posts to go back and answer so I thought I'd start with a positive message for all of us from the March thread and for any MC newbies...

Today is my 1 month MN anniversary and I do not know what I would have done without you all. It is the ability to get on here and "let it all out" that keeps me going. I have been blessed to have found you all and whatever lies in my future - your kindness and advice will stay with me forever.

Big Love and Hip hip hooray for a fabulous new positive thread POPSY xxxx

p.s. Gilly get your arse down to london - we can drink the bars dry of Rose (purely medicinal of course )

lissie- it must be so frustrating no one being able to pinpoint the reason for all the trauma you've had to go through. Clomid sounds promising, it seems to have worked for lots of MNers- really hope it does for you.

alittlebit- how are you going to last until Thursday!! I would say have a stiff drink but then you might be pg!

My stomache is starting to rumble rather loudly so I'm heading home.

take care xx

bye hun!

Winky fabulous! congratulations!!

Catch up with you all tomorrow x

Been away for a bit, but just wanted to say congratulations to everyone with bfps, and my sympathies to all those who are still trying.

I also was forcing myself to stay away because when af came last months, I was a basket case. Funny, I was calm and rational after mc, but that first af really made the mc sink in. Maybe I was hoping that I would fall pregnant immediately. Been extra busy this month, which has been great because I lost track of waht cycle day I am on now! Af due to come sometime this week, so I'm bracing myself for another emotional storm. I've banned myself from symptom spotting, and from doing anymore tests until I am well and truly late.

I still read the boards, and I'll check in periodically. Hope to feel emotionally stronger before I post regularly again.

Best to all of you.

Hey morningglory, good to have you back! I've been away for a bit too but have been checking to see how everyone is. Congratulations Winky fantastic news! Also can I plead with Popsy and Alittlebitshy to do a test and put us out of our misery. This thread is becoming more and more positive and I'm sensing good vibes. Really hoping you both get a BFP

Also, MrsMc - there's a clinic in Edinburgh that does early scans for #65. I can't remember the name off-hand but if you want I could post it tomorrow (I have the details at work). Was going to get one myself to put my mind at rest but it feels like I'd then be making it a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Hi to everyone else thinking of you all

Hi morninglory glad to hear your feeling more upbeat. Im in the same boat waiting for my 1st af after a mc. Its due anytime between yesteday and sunday. Not sure how it ll be and ive been having tons of pre af symptoms for weeks (well 2) which is driving me mad.

Hi everyone, did a test on sunday morning and was BFN. Not testing again as symptoms all but gone - think body is just trying to make itself better (though ruined my birthday dinner with phantom morning sickness weird!)
Was a 42 day cycle last month after erpc so should get AF this weekend if the same (I'm CD39 now). Will test again next sunday if nothing appears.
Feel the same as nh - need to stop spotting and just let body do what it wants to
Had a really vivid dream last night that I had a baby and it was Downs with no mouth (?)and I cuddled it and said "ahhh that is why you decided not to come"... woke up feeling a bit sad but is weird - was like letting go in a way. Off to town tonight for my suprise 1st wedding anniv - hope is opera or ballet or will feel a right chump dressed up to nines in Macdonalds ha ha

Hey Popsy - sorry about the BFN, but it will happen for you one day. Enjoy your evening and make up for the birthday dinner x

Hi ellie Yeah I know - even though was symptom-mad i still didn't think could be true - just doesn't feel like is my time yet IYKWIM?
Still trying to plan outfit for tonight... is cold and probably gonna be wet hmmm floaty dress is out I'VE GOT NOTHING TO WEAR

Sorry to hear that Popsy. How many days post ovulation are you? Not that I want to get your hopes up but I always feel that it isn't over till AF appears! Anyway, I hope you enjoy your night tonight, I'm sure it won't be McDonalds so make sure you look gorgeous!

Excellent news to winky. Every time we hear of one of us getting pregnant it helps to give us all a little hope. Popsy Im sorry. Why do we torture ourselves so?
I think I know who Harveys aunt is! It has taken me a while but I have gone back over the whole thread. Sorry I obviously need something else to occupy my time. Congratulations to you xx. Spugs fingers crossed to you.

Floaty dress and nice cardi/jacket on top? Is lovely and warm here.

Hello all,
Feeling rather despairing about the whole ttc nightmare (should prob head for the Hut but thought I might seek out some positive vibes). Usually feel quite cheerful and hopeful during the bding phase, but somehow even that has eluded me this month. Had rather pressured shag this morning before dh headed off to work and feel very nostalgic for the days when sex was for fun rather than procreation. Plus am waiting for test results and have rather neurotically convinced myself that it is chlamydia plus thyroid problem plus diabetes all rolled into one . Hope everyone else is feeling happier!

Hi Everyone,

Just a quick update:

Went to the hospital yesterday as im getting far too paranoid about every ache and twinge that i feeling. Yesterday i nearly convinced myself that i was having another EP. Anyway i had a scan. Both internal and the normal one but nothing shown up. Dr said that its still probably too early to see anything. Had my blood drawn to check the HCG level and got to go back tomorrow for a 2nd lot. Im praying that the numbers double. If there high enough tomorrow ill probably get another scan too. If not ill have to go back next week for one.

I think ill be able to relax a little more once i know that beanie is in the right place, although i know that ill never really relax until its out.

All this waiting is driving me insane. Please keep you fingers crossed for me girls. XX

P.S forgot to mention that on saturday i had some brown discharge (thats how the ep started) but had nothing since. Nurse checked my cervix and in her own words she said "its tight shut" . Is that i good thing? Im guessing it is xx

alittlebitshy am keeping my fingers crossed for you for Thursday!

Popsy happy anniversary - did you go somewhere nice?

Kensgirl patkica good luck for ttc this month!

nh101 glad you are feeling happier - sounds like the holiday will help too.

Torres hi! no I did not get back to sleep, just grinned

Lissie I am really glad you had some positive news and hope that the clomid works

morningglory hope you feel stronger soon

Harveysaunt glad you are getting tests and hope they get positive results!

MrsMc KatyH Ronshar EllieG Iwillbe GillyD Spugs Hello!!

Well, things are slightly shakey here. I had bleeding last week CD26 + CD 27 then BFP CD30. Now bleeding again today CD32. No other symptoms. But obviously very down and worried. Am hoping it is just implantation bleeding. Why did I not have this with DD but did have it with the baby we lost???!

Hi Winky,

have you spoken to anyone about it to get it checked out? My friend had almost exactly the same as you and was told the first bleed was probably implantation and the second a hormonal bleed when she should have been getting AF. She had hormonal bleeds for the first 4 months I think but is now postively blooming. Anyway, the reason I'm telling you this is to say that it could all be very innocuous so try not to worry (easier said than done - I know!) but probably best to get it checked.

Harveysaunt - how far on are you? Closed cervix is a very good sign Glad you are getting lots of input too.

Good to have you back too Gilly. Glad the move is going well.

Iwillbe - know exactly how you feel re bding. However stick at it. The last 2 times I've got pg I'm sure it was with 2 of the most souldestroying shags ever. In fact one of them we both had raging tonsillitis...it was truly awful, couldn't even kiss properly . Hope the test results will be okay, when do you get them?

Winky, hope you are ok and not too anxious. As katyh says, it could be absolutely nothing - so many women have a bit of a bleed at this stage (but that doesn't make it any easier to cope with).

Katyh - thanks. Reassuring to hear about your romantic tonsillitis shag . I suppose I have this image of conceiving after a joyful, relaxed and mutually wondrous session! Not one where train timetables are the major source of sweet nothings . But actually, it probably makes no difference at all - as long as the timing is ok.

Morning lovely MN ladies
Had a fab anniversary - went to see Fidelio at the roayl opera house in Covent garden - had a meal in their observatory rezzer - was ab fab - Ellie took your advice and went for floaty dress and little shrug - was perfect. Have been feeling pretty rough though and one of my tonsils is swollen so was not at my best - kept fidgeting and annoying the bloke next to me

Got up late today as really need some rest - am totally shagged out (not in the best sense) - am off that to be honest which is a worry cos I am normally raring to go hmmm poor Mr popsy

Katyh PMSL at your tonsillitus shag - maybe I'll give it a go as was so successful for you

winky my sister bled every month all the way through til 5 months - I know it will drive you mad anyway but I don't think she blinked an eye - see how these non-MC ladies have it so easy!

Here I am waiting for AF (CD 41 arghhh) - have persuaded myself not to test again til after the weekend. littlebit your story of testing positive at 7 weeks has given me a tiny shred of hope. Well enough to keep me smiling anyway. I am usually much calmer when there are no symptoms - when they come I turn into a complete loon - I don't think anyone understands the power of symptoms - they say "just relax and it will happen" well I bloody would if I didn't get PG symptoms on and off all month wouldn't I (and then I punch them in the face - in my head that is )

My symptoms this month have been

1. increasing MS until a period of 2 days when couldn't breath through nose cos of smells and all food tasted off
2. painful goose pimply legs whenever I changed rooms (i.e. small changes in temp) - I had this when PG
3. massive exhaustion at 6pm so can't think of anything but bed 4)bursting into tears at weirdest points - worst was 2 mins after got into friends car to go bridesmaid dress shopping - she was shitting herself at her poor choice in bridesmaid However don't have the boob symptoms from last time so maybe that can be my REAL sign next time (cue massive achy boobs middle of next month and a third month of mad as a snake popsy [MAAS - new accronym]) Gilly Glad you are having a fab time - where in north london are you - I think Torres is in Highbury way? I am often down there. Me and a friend were just talking about setting up an icecream parlour where we live - so many mums crammed into cafe nero ordering babyccinos - we'd do organic ice cream and soya stuff and smoothies etc....oh dreaming of a new life

Have a fab day everyone - it is officially a skiving day for me so I'll be basically posting all day

I've been on the phone to the Practice Nurse. She says to wait until Friday and if I am still bleeding to go in to the surgery with a wee sample. If I took a test now it would not show anything. They could not scan me until 6 weeks.

Thank you for the reassurring stories. I find it so ironice that DD's conception = accident, pregnancy no bleeding but when we actually try for a baby in blissful belief it will be plain sailing it is a blood filled drama.

Hello all!
Glad your night went well Popsy - sounds like you're having a lovely day skiving today too, you lucky thing.
I'm bored of work today I want to open a tea shop and have my (as yet unborn and unconceived) baby in the corner and spend my days chatting to people and making tea and being a bit bohemian.

Hi all, last day at work before I go on holiday and can not wait! It couldn't come at a better time, I feel really run down after the years events so a couple of weeks of sun, wine and ice creams should do the world of good.

gilly I am about a 15 min walk east of Highbury tube! It's so exciting you're coming to live in Highbury- when do you move down? I love it- been there 7 years now. One word of warning- there are far too many places on Upper St to part with your cash! I agree there are yummy mummies everywhere- the pavement cafes are full of them, there are loads of designer maternity and baby shops, plus there are exercise classes in Highbury fields where new mums do star jumps around their prams!- a place to avoid if you're having a wobbly day. I'm laughing that you are classed as 'older' at 33- I'm the same age (well for a few weeks more)- does that mean we should be 'responsible' now? I certainly don't feel it!

mrsmc- how are you hon- did you convince the EPU to re-scan you before your hols? Hope you have a relaxing break in any event

morningglory- thinking of you and hoping you get your strength back soon. Good luck this week and if AF does turn up, feel free to come and moan to us all.

katyH-glad you dropped in- how are you feeling?

spugs hope AF arrives soon so you can start ttc in earnest

popsy Hi hon, sorry you're poorly. I really hope this is not a cruel hoax, you've had full on symptoms havent you. If AF does come, here's hoping that next month will be MAAS free! Your anniversary sounded wonderful- your DH is very good at surprises!

iwillbe what test results are you waiting for? hope they go well. I sympathise on the neurotic front- this ttc lark has tured me into a pessimistic hypochondriac!

harveysaunt hope youre ok- have you got your hcg results back?

winky so sorry you're bleeding, it must be scary but hopefully you can get some strength from the posts where people have had successful pgs despite bleeding alot. Hope 6 weeks comes soon for you so you can have that scan to put your mind at rest.

ellie what a fab idea- I would happily wheel my as unconceived unborn baby along to your teashop with a stop off at popsy's parlour on the way home!

Hi kensgirl Hi lissie - hope youre ok today

B*gger. Went to the loo earlier and ALOT of stuff came out. Heavily bleeding now.

Another one bites the dust...