TTC after MC April 07 - Return to the Mother Ship

[popsy76]

Hi Ladies, thought I would just grab the bull by the proverbial horns and get this going. Hope the name is okay. MrsMc I am afraid we will all be thinking of you and your DH (and his light saber) everytime we post

Too many individual posts to go back and answer so I thought I'd start with a positive message for all of us from the March thread and for any MC newbies...

Today is my 1 month MN anniversary and I do not know what I would have done without you all. It is the ability to get on here and "let it all out" that keeps me going. I have been blessed to have found you all and whatever lies in my future - your kindness and advice will stay with me forever.

Big Love and Hip hip hooray for a fabulous new positive thread POPSY xxxx

p.s. Gilly get your arse down to london - we can drink the bars dry of Rose (purely medicinal of course )

Oh Ellie , but doesn't it just show what I was saying about people being worse off than you. Puts it all into perspective. Hopefully you can be there for him. I am praying for you both.

Feeling a bit better about work now. My new boss is just not as good as me IMO and that is why I am feeling down about it. But everyone knows I was the better person for the job (the person who gave her the job was my old boss who didn't like me and who has now left, leaving everything a mess). I just made a silly mistake yesterday which has played on my mind, it was not the end of the world but it was silly and I don't even know how it happened (thinking about other things too much I guess - and maybe too much MN!) but it has just made me feel like it is justifying her getting the job. But one mistake doesn't make a bad [insert my job title!]

wisdom ladies, please

Just been to loo and there was a hint of pink in my cm. same yesterday. a tiny bit on panty liner and today a tiny bit when i wiped. i've been googling and it appears this could mean ov is on it's way . if so, how soon? have i missed it?

Am dreading the fact it may be af AGAIN. only had 21 days between first mini af (the bleed AFTER the one from the m/c) and the one that started this cycle. hmm.

Hey ladies hope you are all well. Sorry I have been AWOL for a few days, busy weekend! I had my scan yesterday. We saw a gest sac and yolk in the right place but no HB or fetal pole. I was measuring 5+2 which I think is about right based on OV (would have been 5+6 based on last AF) so the Consultant started me on my Clexane injections and so far I have administered 2 myself and they are not too bad! Have to go back weekly for blood tests and have a re-scan on 5/6 when I should be 7+3/8 to check for viability, fingers crossed!

Now I?ll try and catch up with you ?

Hi all,

Really down in the dumps today, AF is here . I admit I didn't 'feel' pg this time around but I was really hoping I'd fall pg straight away. Now there's a mad bad seed of doubt in my mind that I'll never get pg. We BD'd so much this time , I don't know what more I can do (and I doubt DH will agree to so much action this month, he looks knackered!)

popsy it would be great to be innocent and relaxed about sex and ttc wouldn't it? I wish I knew how. I feel mad and obseesive. I'm so glad for MN to realise it's not just me. Hope your DH gets his mojo back tonight.

alittlebit not sure about the CM but I see MrsMC is around- she's bound to know . Glad you're feeling better about your pg friend. I've been eating loads too- I've put on 1/2 stone since the mc! I actually look more pg than when I was pg.

ellie- I agree with nh, it's good you told DP how you are feeling, much better tha bottling it up. Hope you're not in limbo much longer.

nh - hello! very similar indeed and the mc was my 1st baby too. Though I hope not too similar and AF stays away for you! Sorry work is making you tearful today, can you get away a bit earlier?

mrsMc great to hear from you and glad all is well. Will keep everything crossed for your next scan. Can I ask you and other pre-seed users a question? I've looked on the access diagnostics site and am confused as what to order - there seem to be lots of 'types' of pre-seed. Is it just the one called pre-seed? (I 'm sorry if this sounds particularly dim!!)

nh - one mistake does not make you a bad whatever you are at work, it makes you normal. And thanks for prayers, it all helps x

LBShy - not sure about that I'm afraid - for me it would be AF but I am always pretty much the same but not sure about other people.

Torres - know how you feel hon. Had tummy ache today thought ooo maybe am preggers but test was BFN and I know AF is on way in next couple days. Don't know why I thought it would be different apart from I just hoped...
I don't know how easily I got PG last time cos I wasn't trying, so I don't know if I eventually get round to trying properly (instead of just jumping unawares and hoping he is too carried away to remember condoms hee hee) whether it will stick qiockly or not. Is very confusing. Don't really care so much today anyway am still just feeling so lucky I have my DP and my family

Hey Torres and Popsy - I was also a bit mad and obsessive this month with BDing - and i don't think DH would do it again! Only cos he is worried about me, he thinks I should be more relaxed. But I can't help it.

So sorry your AF is here Torres, I fear I will be joining you next week . I don't know why, maybe it is cos I tested this morning (is that why everyone says not to test? I am new to this neurotic state of TTC!) But maybe it is just cos I feel low today.

Popsy I felt exactly the same about BDing last week when I think I was OV'ing - get some sexy underwear on and a miniskirt (or is that just my DH? )

MrsMc - so hope eveerything goes well. Are the injections cos you've had more than one MC in the past or do they give them to everyone who's had a MC? Sorry to pry.

Alittlebitshy - I think a little blood in the CM can mean OV. I think I read that on twoweekwait.com ( that I have even read that site!)

Ellie, x-posted there - good for you feeling more positive. How did you get PG last time - split condom or something.

Sometimes I wonder how we managed it last time without BDing for Britain, taking temps and peeing on OPK sticks!

Nah just went out for a walk on a day off and felt a bit frisky! Just miscalculated cycle really. Maybe the fresh air helped

Lissielou - hope you won't think I'm being rude. Just popped over from the 2ww thread because I saw your post there a while ago about ovulating from your tubeless side. Did you know that when you only have one tube it is possible for your other tube to swing around and colect the egg in the months when you are ovulating from the tubeless side and take it back ! Amazing ...

Ellie I'm sure you could 'miscalculate' your cycle again!

That's what I'm banking on! (well I can't keep waiting around for him to decide things can I?)

AF still not here (though is due fri/sat so there is time boo) keep hoping that achey tummy is due to early PG symptom and not AF. Last time was PG just felt like bad pmt but then no period so I keep hoping even though I know in reality I can't be PG. Thik am going a little bit mad.

Going to do my best to catch up I hope you are all ok. I detect an air of sadness and fear with you all. It will happen again and it will be better this time round, I promise. You have to have faith, the power of visualisation is so powerful Tell me to get lost if me saying that when I have what you most covet is annoying but I have had time to reflect and I want to share thoughts as they may help you on your journeys too .

My1stbaby ? excellent news about DH?s new job

NH101 ? fingers crossed for 30 May but lets hope you get a BFP on Friday. DH used to tease me about MN but now he sees how much it helped me through the MC and I even overhear him telling people where I get my support from I NEVER let him read though!! The injections are low dose heparin because I have recently been diagnosed with thrombophilia which means my blood clots too easily, it might not have been the cause of my last MC as normally this condition leads to late MC but as I was 10 weeks, my consultant thinks it may have been the cause and doesn?t want to take any chances I am very lucky.

Winkygirl ? thanks, I did wear the dress I originally bought, it did show a lot of cleavage but I wasn?t the only one at the wedding who was flaunting it so I didn?t feel so bad. You are right, there are worse things to consider when dressing up enjoy the wedding next week

Gilly ? hello! Long time no see, how are you? How has the break been? Thank you for your good wishes for me and your prayers for us all in Argentina did you have an amazing time? Sorry no BFP quite yet, but soon!! and the job sounds exciting! Are you going to take it? Sounds like you are swithering?

Feedmenow ? I too think about when my baby died I think it was the weekend I was in Cardiff and told my little sis our news I did have a dream around then that my grandparents (who are no longer here) were at a party with me and I was desperate to introduce them to my baby. I like to think she is being spoilt rotten by them in that playground in the sky . It is a torturing thought and not healthy but I guess none of us can help it.

Torres ? hey you sorry about that BFN and that AF arrived, fingers crossed that this is your lucky cycle Good to hear you had good news with DH?s job this week too. About the pre-seed I?ll check the site and get back to you, I didn?t realise there was more than one type.

KatyH ? I love Lilly but our surname ends in an ?e? sound so feel we can?t have any names that end in an ?e? sound as first names. My current DD favs are Lola, Mia, Leah and Juno. Ava will always be out favourite but that?s gone to my little angel for a DS Xavier or Isaac.

Popsy glad DH finally got the text!! Hmmm enjoy those choccies! How was naked cooking?! Hope he keeps you happy soon

Basil I am crap! I keep forgetting to send you the pre-seed. I am so sorry. I have written a large note to package it up for you tonight sorry it?ll be too late this cycle ? hopefully, you won?t even need it next one! enjoy your week away!

EllieG ? how awful about your friend?s wife!! Hope AF stayed away.

Hey Herby I hope you are feeling a bit better. I know what you mean about not being 20 something weeks when you should be. It was hard seeing my pg friends at the wedding for that reason, I am so thankful for my new bean but it is such a young, fragile thing that I can only just dare to think of it as a new hope at the moment. Sending hugs and hoping your time comes again soon and this one is meant to be however you go about it. I wish I had some suggestions on how to go about getting the medical answers you need. You are definitely not a meanie sounds like your friend needs some help, the MC seems to have taken over her life a bit which we all struggle to avoid I know but doesn?t help you live with it.

Hello alittlebitshy what CD are you on? I had a hint of pink just after OV when I got my BFP last time round, I was told then on MN that it could have been the egg bursting from the follicle so that would mean OV had taken place. Hope that helps

Supersigningmum ? I think it is incredible too how that can happen ? nature finds a way I guess I hope Lissie sees your post

Hey MrsMac - nice to hear from you. I hate waiting for my AF! Cramping is getting stronger and keep rushing to the loo to check for AF but not there yet. Is messing with my head cos this is what happened when was PG, but is just same as before AF. Grrr. Wish I could be completely carefree about the whole thing but am far too neurotic and obsessed.

it is the worst time of the cycle and I challenge anyone to be able to think about anything else if you are TTC! fingers crossed for you!

Ellie- fingers crossed for you too.

MrsMc- thank you so much for looking after us all . You're right, we have been sad and scared! Your post really cheered me up. I love your baby names- so cute. Xavier is a great name in particular(and my first crush at primary school). Actually thinking about baby names has made me all giddy. I will have a baby!

of course you will!

AF today - boo. Not to worry though, it will happen at some point and I wasn't really trying this month anyway.

sorry Ellie, hope this cycle is your lucky one!

Exactly. It will happen one day and when it does that will be the right time.

Good for you Ellie x

You've all gone quiet are you ok?

I'm OK, just fear I've bored everyone to tears already. Still afflicted by morning gloom, but have recently had the feeling of enjoying something and being momentarily happy, which I realised had been absent for a long time. So... progress.

How's it going Mrs Macintosh? I know what it's like, those first few weeks of pregnancy are utterly nerve-wracking, and you can think of little else. You're so conscious of every little feeling, you almost live within your womb...

Oh, and I wrote to nice helpful lady at the hospital, who has sorted me out an appointment with the consultant. Hurrah!

Morning ladies, just checking in. I am having a break from MN but wanted to say Hi and that I'm thinking of you all. I am actually feeling much better now I am not posting everyday - it had become a bit of an obsession - and meant that I was thinking about MC far to often and not about all of the other lovley things going on in my life. I actually feel pretty sane for the first time in ages . Sending you all massive hugs - will keep checking back to see how everyone is getting on - will leave you all with a massive HUG and sprinkling of baby-soon dust yipeeeee
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