TTC after pregnancy loss - Love is the Drug - and lots of vitamins - thread 14

[TheGrumpySquirrel]

Shiny new thread. Hugs and supportive chat for those TTC after miscarriage or pregnancy loss ♥️

Hello bluee and weasledee. Thank you very much for your messages. I'm glad to be here (if that makes sense, hopefully you know what I mean).

bluee, yes it was heartbreaking but also surprisingly one of the best moments of my life as I finally got to meet my baby. His name is Sonny.

@teaandbics welcome, I’m so sorry for your loss. This is a lovely supportive group, I hope you can find some comfort here.

@ourstar Thank you for the suggestion, I don’t know how I’m going to feel on the day at all... I lost my baby at 10 weeks gestation back in May (Mmc, she had died at 8 weeks). I was just about to have the harmony test - I don’t know for sure therefore but I just have a strong feeling that she was a girl.

@BlueeSpottyTiger I’ve also had stabby pains and I’m 6/8dpo today depending if I believe FF or I go by my cervix / ewcm - which has been right every other month (when I was using OPKs too). So AF is due Saturday, or next Monday. I’ll join you in testing tomorrow I think! I know it’s still early but I can’t wait..! Need to get some more FRER. Keep us posted!!

Tea beautiful name💖 I hope you have lots to remember him by.. sorry i said what 'was' instead of is x your with a good group :) we also have a fb group aswell that Flatwhite32 set up xx

grumpy goodluck :) I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. I'm not expecting to see a bfp myself to be honest. I hope i don't pee on one tonight.. Must withhold 😂 xx

@teaandbics I'm so sorry to hear. Just a series of tragic circumstances. It would be amazing to end our journeys with some light instead of jealousy and bitterness... right?

Thank you grumpy. I'm so sorry about your little one. Mmc is so hard.

Good luck for tomorrow (and for all Tuesday testers). Good to know I'm not the only one who can never wait!

Hi ladies
New to this group and this thread after a MC at 15 weeks in July. We're trying again and I could use a bit of support. Thought I was coping better now but had a complete meltdown the other night after DH asked I everything was OK when I was a bit off when DTD. I know it's early days and everything will probably be fine, but can't help feeling guilty for trying to 'replace' our daughter, and worrying about turning 35 next year in case I've missed my chance, and not wanting to turn this into a trial for both of us and aaarrrggghhh why does this have to be so hard? I think I basically sobbed all that out to him in one unintelligible sentence!

bean oh gosh I hope you’re okay. Do they have any idea what’s going on?

teaandbics oh lady I’m so so so sorry. You’ve been through so much. It’s unbelievably cruel to have a stillbirth after all the infertility struggles you’d already faced. 🌈❤️

Hi ladies, I'm so sorry to hear the sad news on here from @teaandbics and @Lilliputian. you have joined a very supportive group ladies.

@teaandbics and @ourstar, I can't begin to imagine how painful your experiences were. We are all here to support you lovely ladies.

@beanhunter feel better soon my lovely. We are all thinking of you.

After 2 cycles of feeling like my hormones had disappeared, they are thankfully coming back. I have suddenly broken out in a few spots today, and while I'd really rather this wasn't the case at age 32, I'm glad my body is finally getting back to normal!

Thinking of you ladies going through the TWW! I'm currently 5 dpo.

Sorry my messages are coming through really strangely so I missed some of these.

bluee, thank you. We love the name, and ironically had chosen it because it sounds so happy. No worries at all and yes I can already see that this is a really lovely group. Thanks for the FB tip as well.

our, thank you and I'm also so so sorry. It makes my heart ache to hear of anyone suffering a stillbirth. So incredibly painful. Oh you betcha, we so need some sunshine in our lives now don't we? Don't we all here!

kerry, thank you ❤️ Yes it all seems like a cruel trick. I'm really hoping though. For all of us here.

Hello lilli. I'm so sorry. Don't feel guilty, it's impossible to replace our little ones and we're all just trying to get some happiness aren't we?

Good luck to everyone testing. I'm only 3 or maybe 4dpo (you'd think I'd be able to tell by now!) so am sitting on my hands!

Hi flatwhite thanks for a really lovely message. I'm already so glad that I joined this group.

Glad the hormones are back and I'm just behind you at 4do (am going with that rather than 3dpo as I always test too early anyway. No point pretending this cycle will be any different!). Best of luck to you and all

Hello Teaandbics welcome. I'm so sorry you lost your miracle boy Sonny . That is devastating and completely unfair. I really hope that luck is changing. Are you having good care from your Dr?

Hello Lilliputian

So, I tested today (CD26) and there's a tiny line. I mean a squinter - really. Today must be at least 12 dpo since we didn't even DTD since CD14. As I'd have put OV closer to CD12, I think the line looks way too faint.

I've got no symptoms like my other mc pregnancies... Perhaps it's a chemical?

Back into possible-pregnancy-purgatory for a bit.

What brand of test? Pink or blue dye? Fingers crossed for you grey

Hello grey. Thanks for your lovely message.

Ooh how exciting! Hope that line gets stronger for you tomorrow. I didn't have any symptoms with my boys apart from vivid dreams! So no symptoms doesn't necessarily mean much (hoping its that way for you too).

Thank you. I'm hoping for better luck too. Sadly, the care across the board has been pretty appalling. Bereavement counselling was the one thing that was really helpful though, and kept me going through the very worst of times.

Also have everything crossed for you!

Well I got a bfn this morning but if implantation was that stabby pain yesterday it’s still too early to test right??

Any news blue?

It's a pink IC I'm using. And unfortunately it's lighter again this morning and AF is due tomorrow so it really should be a proper line at this stage. So it must be a chemical on its way out...

I'm really sorry your care has been bad Tea.

Hello ladies and thanks for the comments. I got home late last night. Not sure what's causing it. There was something on my scan near one of my ovaries bug because bloods were negative they don't think it's an ectopic. On some tablets to slow the bleeding and just taking it easy. Was such a horrible day.

grey oh no :( I'm really sorry! X

grumpy bfn today at 9dpo. Was trying to convince myself that i could see a superfaint line so i have thrown it in the outside bin so i can't stare at it all morning!
It is still very early for us both though grumpy so goodluck xx

bean I'm glad your home! How odd, Maybe it's a cyst then?? Did they say you need a follow up or anything?

My chart still looks good though! And temps are still high, & higher for the last 2 days!?

Blue you're chart looks epic. No not a cyst. It's probably a loop of bowel. Repeat scan in a week. Still bleeding heavily considering its day 5. But only half as much as yesterday. Tmi - I use a cup and yesterday was filling it hrly. Today it's more like 2-3hrly which is still mental as it's normally lasts almost 12 hrs.

Jesus bean that is a lot of blood. Hope you are okay, go back in if you feel faint x

Poor you Bean are you watching some TV today?

Still crossing my fingers for you Bluee and Grumpy.

I'm so freaking sad. It's so crap getting a line and just knowing that it's not going to be a viable pg.

Hi to all you new ladies can’t imagine what you have all gone/going through sending a huge welcome & lots of love❤️

Grey-chemicals are so sad sending you lots of love & hugs❤️

Blue & grumpy keeping everything crossed for you 🤞🏽🤞🏽 Also sending lots of love❤️

Well as for me had my hystoroscopy done yesterday for polyp removal & unfortunately it was the worst pain I’ve ever had (I cried when I got home & at work this morning) it turns out I do not have a polyp at all!!!!!!!! So bitter sweet really on one hand we’re really happy that all is well & on the other hand it has taken nearly a year to come to this conclusion 😡 so one af comes (any day now) we can start ttc again. I saw a lovely consultant who done the procedure yesterday & even she apologised for all of the conflicting advice etc & the length of time it has taken but hey ho onwards & upwards ladies ❤️❤️

Crikey sparkle. Sounds a tad traumatic.
Grumpy - j feel a million times better than yesterday. Had to go in a wheelchair from day care to the ward as I nearly keeled over. Taking today and tomorrow off (don't work Thursday) which feels ott but is sensible and what was advised. Can't believe I'm off sick with a period ffs.
Grey - I'm so sorry. Each month I vow I won't test early and then I cave. I'm sure a negative or faint test is actually harder than a period. And yes. Today is a tv and book day.