Thanks for the good wishes.
To my surprise DH was feeling amorous last night anyway. All was fine until in the heat of passion he reached for the drawer !
Call me mean and stubborn but I stuck to my guns and said no. So over he rolled to go to sleep. Or so I thought.
The crafty wotsit tried to sneakily put a condom on without me hearing (I'm not as deaf as he thinks). He then tried his luck again. At which point he got a mouthful of abuse for thinking I would be so silly as not to hear the ripping of a wrapper .
We debated again and he finally told me that we are just not compatable anymore because we both want different things.
I'm really struggling with this. I know it's wrong to force him into something but it's not quite that simple.
When the boot was on the other foot and he desperately wanted another baby, I saw it as making him happy and afterall, one more wouldn't be so bad.
I feel as though he wanted 3 and did everything to get what he wanted and is not supporting me in the same way that I did him.
Sorry this is a bit of a rant.
A RL friend suggested that I say lets have a 6 month break (to please him) and if I still feel the same in 6 mths then start ttc for another 6 months.
I don't think he will go for that. I also don't think I could go for 6 months without trying. When it's been 15 months already, I feel time is not on our side.
I had another +ve opk today and EWCM and Ov pains (like never before).
Maybe I have been Oving early all this time and the +ive opks I get later in the month are the second surge that can happen (according to Toni W book).
If that is the case we have been putting our efforts into the wrong time.
Not sure what to think.
Hope you are both well today.
Sorry again for going on.
On a positive note, I started antibiotics for the spots (acne) again today so hopefully that will clear my jawline up and perk my mood up too.
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