anyone else just fucked off with this lark and want to moan?

[stillvicarinatutu]

come on then.
moan away.
ill start. i m just so fucking fucked off. lost one last year at 44....i thought its a miracle!! wasnt to be but filled me with what appears to be false hope.

been trying ever since. and no. every month the same. this month as well as AF ive another surprise - a cyst. where no one ever ever wants one.
so this month will be lost. along with all dignity as i beg the hospital to lance it.

moan away. go on. you know you want to.

limplettuce Ive only been on ubiquinol for 3 weeks but i need to give my geriatric eggs some youth serum so I'm giving it a whirl. A bloody expensive whirl aswell! I certainly can't afford to take 600mg a day which some fertility docs recommend so 200mg is my limit. I realise i look a bit impatient as I've stated cycle 2 but i have been shagging my husband for 10 years unprotected and nothings happened until the surprise pregnancy that i lost in July. Should be on cycle 4 but couldn't get the sex at the right time. Just had a BFFN on Saturday.

Also i think Maca fucks your cycles up a bit as I've been on it and have only just settled. Its supposed to balance your hormones so I've stuck with it for the three months so far.

Just been past a Boots. I'm now the proud owner of some Vit B complex, iron and omega 3. Why I don't just buy a multivitamin I don't know!

Thanks for reminding me ladies, I need to buy some more folic acid & may try some of the bits listed!

Today marks day one of my fw & think OPKs are backing that up! 🤞

Good luck all!

Jeez, sooz...hope yams make it into the next grocery shop...

Pleased to see the tumbleweed womb catching on - maybe I'll try to get TW to be a new Mumsnet acronym

Hi dude, hope you're doing OK; steak so sorry about your grandma - and the comments from family, what's up with that??

Feel like I'm taking things too easy - just stuck with folic acid until a couple of months ago and then switched to Pregnacare conception thing; DH decided to take an equivalent from early on. Am in two minds about whether it's messed with ovulation, though, as haven't had the same symptoms as previously post-O. Using opks this month to see if all seems same - might just go back to folic if not.

God after typing that out it just makes me realise how fucking tedious it all is. Going to do something fun now; hope you're all having good Sundays!

Hi all, I've just been looking at this thread after sooz tagged me for telling off the yam-pusher... I'm glad that was appreciated, by the way, sooz, did have a vague fear that you'd go back into that thread and declare that you were soooo grateful for the amazing yam advice and then I'd have looked like a twat! I was just so cross that she thought it was appropriate for her to start doling out second-hand (and bizarre - yams?!) advice to strangers.

Anyway, have been reading through and this thread is very in accordance with how I feel at the moment so thought I might join, if ok? I'm 29, been ttc#1 for fourteen months, had three early miscarriages at five, five and then seven weeks in cycles 7, 8 and 9 (no I don't know why I suddenly went so fertile either), had the summer off to do recurrent miscarriage testing which apparently proves that I'm 'just unlucky' and am now on cycle 2 back at it. They have given me a strange and slightly annoying protocol where I take progesterone from 7-14dpo each cycle; obviously hoping it does some good if/when I get pregnant again, but in the meantime it means no escape from OPKs/temping/early testing. I feel so sick of the whole thing and go through a lot of days where I feel a mixture of anger and despair. I know lots of people have been trying much longer and have been through much worse but I just feel hacked off to be going back to TTC a-bloody-gain. So, hello!

Welcome, @lisaSimpsonsbff! Glad you saw the tag, was definitely appreciated! Sorry to hear you've suffered several mc's :(

Did you see her reply to me about her difficult birth? Wtf?! Ok, then, I won't give you advice about giving birth, since I've never done that, and you can not give any advice about struggling to conceive since you've never done that!

Thanks - I dealt fairly well (I think) with the first two, especially as so early, and of course I fell so quickly again each time, but if I'm honest the third one really did a number on me (and on DH). I have a history of anxiety and depression and it's hard to know if I'm not well again or whether this is just situational. I have been feeling generally better in last month or so, though.

I'm sorry you've been through such a long and tough time TTC-ing as well. It's all so tough - it sometimes feels like sodding Coldplay lyrics: 'Nobody said it was easy/ No one ever said it would be this hard'...!

Hi Lisa, well done on stupid yam woman!

Who said it was tedious? That's it! It's upsetting, tiring, hard work, and fucking tedious.

Dude I'm CD6 of second cycle with ubiquinol. I'm probably imagining it but I'm sure I'm sleeping better and feeling better since starting that and the B6. I'm not sure energised is the right word, but there's something for sure. I've stuck to 200 for cost too. Might up to 3/400 for third month just for a kick as were fairly certain we'll stop trying so hard at Christmas for the sake of my sanity.

@lisa welcome. So sorry to hear about your losses what an awful situation.

I'm definitely not rattling round will pills lol. Maybe I'm not taking enough...only folic acid and vitamin b complex. Tried to encourage DH to take the men's pregnacare tablets but he's a nightmare haha! He's just packing ready to leave tonight 😢 fingers crossed for a one shot wonder this month haha!

Welcome to the gang Lisa.
On the subject of supps I'm taking pregnacare pre conception for the last 2 months. Hubs is taking the for him equivalent. Before this I took folic acid with vitamin D since we started TTC.
Since taking the pregnacare I've noticed I'm ovulating 1-2 days early. Might try the oil of eve primrose next cycle.

Welcome @LisaSimpsonsbff ! Sorry to hear about your miscarriages

I’m only taking the pregnacare TTC vitamins.
I thought about getting the men’s one for dh but he’s forget to take it. I’m struggling to get him out of the habit of having his laptop on his knee atm!

Steak sorry to hear about your gran! Hope you're doing okay.

Juney thanks for doing the spreadsheet! And wow, I only take one pre-conception multivitamin (will check which when I get back to the hotel), and DH takes zinc and fish oil.

This is probably a dumb question but what is the benefit of taking supplements whilst ttc? Is it just to try and ensure you’re as healthy as possible? I’ve seen a lot of women on various forums etc saying they help conception but I know that’s not true and then I read an article that said taking them was a waste of time...?

I take vit c and zinc all the time to stave off colds (as a primary teacher)! Folic acid/vit d for ttc. The others I got because I've tried lots of other things, it won't hurt and who knows?!

Just went to the loo and realised my stomach below my belly button looks bigger than usual. I'd like to think it's because I'm preggers but it's probably because I had lunch at Starbucks today!

Can I be added to the spreadsheet. On cycle12 now,ttc#1 and cd2. Completely and utterly fed up! On folic acid supplements

We feel your pain, @hellybellyjellybean. Good luck for this cycle and welcome!

Anyone seen that new thread? Haven't dared read it, lucky first month people :(

We do feel your pain @hellybellyjellybean! I also saw THAT thread - scrolled quickly past, arghhh!

Oh I was just coming to post the link haha if we needed any more excuses to be fed up!!!

Totally agree about how frustrating it is being asked about when I'm going to provide a grandchild/niece/nephew/cousin/etc for others, and DH NEVER gets asked. Not once so far. When we got married, his sisters, sisters-in-law, and even the wife of his friend, all of whom have 3 kids each (weird coincidence) trapped me in the corner and started demanding I had kids immediately, saying I needed to start asap and they even all decided together what I should name them. I wasn't drinking (no one noticed, I hardly drink) so I had to sit there stone cold sober listening to them drunkenly telling me to do what we were already trying and failing to do. We have been trying since, but not used protection much for a while before hence why it feels way longer for me than 6 cycles.

I wish I'd just loudly said: "I find it pretty creepy how interested you all are in your brother's sex life."

To be honest it feels like if I got pregnant soon after, it would feel like they all would be smugly thinking I only thought to do it coz of their prompting, lol.

There was also the wonderful moment a couple of weeks ago when a couple who know we are ttc (only a few people know) put two and two together from my FB statuses and texted to ask if I was pregnant!!! I was pretty upset about it. The first time I had properly got upset since starting back in Jan. Apparently a joke about drinking less tea and a comment about being tired and needing a nap = pregnant.

Does anyone have anyone they can talk to about this irl? I did and she's only bloody pregnant and I'm so angry and upset and then so angry and upset at myself for being so selfish but she was my one person I was talking to as well so it's making me feel just lonely and lost and just shit. DH is great but getting aware that I just keep bursting into tears on him about it and don't want him losing all hope and getting upset god I'm in bloody tears writing this now.

@justmeonly this drives me nuts, ppl shouldn't ask. Even if you were you'll tell them in your own time, ppl shouldn't be so presumptuous to ask even if they are right

@micropig ha ha sounds like an excellent response, I'm lucky I think as very few a asking me this but will be using that if anyone does!