anyone else just fucked off with this lark and want to moan?

[stillvicarinatutu]

come on then.
moan away.
ill start. i m just so fucking fucked off. lost one last year at 44....i thought its a miracle!! wasnt to be but filled me with what appears to be false hope.

been trying ever since. and no. every month the same. this month as well as AF ive another surprise - a cyst. where no one ever ever wants one.
so this month will be lost. along with all dignity as i beg the hospital to lance it.

moan away. go on. you know you want to.

I read that one too. The question itself doesn't even annoy me, it's the blimming chances are she will be back with a BFP.

Think I am 9dpo today. Bit of spotting this morning but way too early to pee on the FRER burning a hole in my bag, right? Realised I have been hanging onto the idea that if I manage it this month, I will have conceived (barely) before my 40th, so it's fate, right? Fucks sakes, I don't even believe in fate.

I saw that thread too and thought of this one!! How typical would that be

Limp I’ve decided I might just start pissing on £5 notes instead of tests.... ICs would be represented by post it notes. I can draw on the test line myself

Hahahaha. I feel you. I had said this month I would not test until after AF but I have been tromping this one test around most of the month. I think I might do it in the morning and then NO MORE EVER AGAIN.

I say that every month. I managed to get to 12 DPO last time and then proceeded to do 4 in the space of 24 hours........ I am terrible. I’d hate to think of how many pregnancy tests I’ve bought over the past 12 months. I could have bought a nice pair of shoes with the money

Trouble is I think the ICs are shit and I don't trust them much. Otherwise I would just pee on a million of them every month. The whole turning 40 / miscarriage within a couple of months has wrecked any confidence I have in my body, and I sit there watching the bastard things going nope, no, it won't turn, as if I can get sods law on my side. It's like whistling past the graveyard. I tell msyelf it just won't happen in the hope that fate will prove I am just a negative nelly. Pshaw. I think that might be my answer. No more, just save for beautiful shoes.

Also I drank myself silly on Saturday so probably scuppered this month before it even got going.

Sorry guys, rant needed. Soo fucked off with all these early/mid 20something little NED's spitting out kids without a care in the world. You work hard, get a decent job, try to be financially and emotionally secure, wait until you're in the 'right place' in your life so you can have and support a family and then have difficulty conceiving While little miss fuckface down the road has No 4# just for fun with daddy no 3 while the government pay for them all!!

Totally get your frustration Merrz except DH and I are early/mid twenties and have been TTC for a year now. I’d like to assure you that we’re financially and emotionally stable; there are some exceptions to the rule, I promise!

Hope I didn't offend anyone, when i read that back it sounded a bit scary haha.
Age is actually irrelevant, just so frustrating when it seems to come easily to these kind of people and doesn't happen for those who really want it and work hard for it

Really fucked off by that thread, @juneybean but loving the responses on here! I'm sure she's pregnant, she's clearly one of those fucking fertile fuckers.

@Justwaitingforaline - love your IC/post-it comparison!

I'm thinking of investing in a clear blue digital if I'm not preggers this month (and let's face it, I'm not). I may be mad, the machine alone is 80 quid. Yet I feel it would be worth it to get pregnant. But will it make it feel worse when I don't?

I totally agree - new shoes could be bought with all the money on tests and other stuff like preseed and vitamins. I might stop testing and put the equivalent in a jar. I won't be pregnant but at least I'll have some new shoes.

"ICs would be represented by post it notes. I can draw on the test line myself" - Hahahaha!! I am literally going to start doing this! @Justwaitingforaline

@Merrz not offended at all! Totally get what you mean, it's fucking frustrating!

This retreat sounds like a fabulous idea! I've kept away from MN for a while because I was reading some of the boards getting more and more disheartened.
AF has just left, cycle 13 I think (stopped counting). Decided no OPKs this month and definitely no early testing. Still taking the vits, limiting my caffeine and only the occasional gin.
Had two days of my colleagues going on about how they can't imagine having never been moms

Oh Merrz I do get it, but fwiw if I could tell my younger self anything it would be to just get on with it. I waited til I was settled and 32 and still ended up a single parent struggling through. I wish I'd had the nous to do it all younger.

Can't imagine, Summer, so frustrating. Reckon this retreat will be huge

I couldn't help myself on that thread...I had to comment ffs

Omg why do I have fertile cm?!? I'm only cd 8...hastily asking our donor to come on Saturday (cd10) in the hopes we aren't too late. FML.

Sick of these curve balls!

@juneybean hope you catch the CM.

What I don't understand about those threads is why people comment if they're annoyed by it. I just snort and pass on by.

@LimpLettice I'm not sure what would happen if a psychologist analysed my bedside drawer. I have loads of pregnancy tests (not cheap ones either) but I NEVER take them - I can always feel my period coming before I get a chance - so I just buy and collect more and more like a hoarder. When I'm old they'll probably break into my home and just find me sat there surrounded by thousands of untaken pregnancy tests.

@juneybean sorry I meant comment on the actual thread! Not having a go for commenting about it on this thread xxx

Enraged this morning about a thread on conception where the OP states that people aren’t getting pregnant first month of trying because they aren’t having enough sex.....

WTF! Surely in your first month of trying you have the most sex!!

I think DH and I have had sex more this month than ever before because we’re having an off month from TTC

@Justwaiting I saw that WTF seriously!! If it was that easy none of us would be moaning on here would we.

Although to be fair, before I started TTC I really had no clue, just imagined it would happen straight away not until i actively started TTC that i realised it's not that easy.

@waiting. I've just read that!!

Ladies thank fuck some ignorant little twat has solved all our problems. We aren't getting pregnant because we simply are not having enough sex! Well blow me down I wish someone had told me that 12 months ago I could be bouncing a lovely 2 month now on my knee. Go out and shag like rabbits and I'm sure we will all get a BFP this month....

Cause you know I bet us lot didn't know that.....

FUCK OFF!!!!

More positive note fingers crossed you catch it @juney x

I mean, do you think that OP can tell me why my boobs are on fire Post Ovulation? Maybe it was the full moon.

Ps I’m really glad I’ve found such a like minded bunch of bitter TTC-ers