SQUARE ONE'RS TO GRADUATES! Morale & energy is low, but we will not be beaten, BFPs WILL be achieved in this here thread!

[Tee4me]

Roll call:

Tee4me: 34 years old
TTC: #2 since December 2015
DC: DS nearly 5 years old
x2 early MCs
Diagnosed with high level of activated NK cells with positive result for Antinuclear Antibodies plus Hypothyroidism.
About to embark on 1st cycle with medication (from ovulation).
CD7 and gearing up for FW!

Welcoming original square-oner's and any newbies battling along and in need some support x

Hoping so much for your sticky bean Tee.
It's been so long for us all someone has got to have good news xxx

Hey Mimi, thankyou. Always thinking about you all. Made a few new good friends from SA recently and thought of you. They been trying for so long for baby and say that things in SA are different. Hard to get medical help etc.. so they over here for fertility help.
Keep me posted on your life and thanks so much for your prayers. Prayers got my Dh and I back together, so u never know.. prayers might give me my miracle.

Kate I def think your work didn't help your stress. Hope you can find relaxing stuff to do at home. X

Hello everyone. New to all this, seems like a lovely wee community as I have no one to talk to. My friend just announced she’s pregnant & not even trying so while delighted for her it felt like a kick in the gut :( while it’s early days & my cycle hasn’t reverted to normal I’m still very downhearted about the whole thing. Stupidly convinced myself it would happen first try like so many of my friends around me & infertility run in my famil (not sure it’s even hereditary) but doesn’t give me confidence.

Anyways best of luck everyone x

New sparkle : 33 years old
TTC: #1 since December 2017
DC: none
CD1

Welcome new sparkle. This isn't a busy thread any more as it's all that remains of a thread started two years ago. The ones still here tend to offer support, or seek support for how shit long term ttc is.

So we had our appointment today. He agreed to scan me again to see if fibroid has grown into a problem from clomid (haven't had scan since October). He also agreed to test tsh. I want it to be below 2, but I don't think he'll do anything as long as it's below 2.5. And we were told were doing short protocol.

We have pur paperwork appointment in about 4 weeks and then we can start on the following af? So it looks like it'll be about 7 weeks (or 11-13 if we miss that af). It's so weird that they aren't fighting me... I'm not used to doctors being so helpful!!!

welcome @newsparkle. hope your stay here will be short and you get your bfp soon.

that's a good change for you @physicskate. lt is nice to know that they are willing to do something. here's is hoping with your break from work + clomid + tests =bfp soon hun

@Footy1, it really is harder here to get help and rather expensive. hope you are doing well with the boys. dh has been out of town ever so often so not much love in my home nor hope of a Christmas baby lol.

excited for your scan tomorrow @tee4me.

hope all goes well @tee. thinking of you

Tee how did you get on? Been thinking of you xx

Hi @NewSparkle, welcome, but as @physicskate said, you may not find this the most helpful thread, as it's rather quiet these days. DH and I started TTC in December 2015 🙈 I hope you have a much speedier journey to a bfp!!
Well it was bad news on the scan unfortunately. My uterus was empty despite being 3 weeks late, no bleeding, and pregnancy tests lines that were getting stronger. They took my HCG on Wednesday and Thursday and saw an increase, so they can't rule out ectopic. EPU closed for the long weekend so have to go back Tuesday for rescan and HCG. Hopefully it will decrease. Best case scenario is that it was an early miscarriage that my desperate body is refusing to acknowledge! Weird to want to see a BFN and AF, but just want this over with now.
@physicskate I'm so glad things are moving forward on IVF front! Keep us updated on how you go...
@Mimilicious013 & @Footy1 thinking of you both lots too 😘

@radderss!! Good to hear from you, hope all is well with you lovely xx

Oh tee. I'm so sorry to hear that. It sounds as though you're being kind to yourself, so that's the important thing!! If you need anything, we're here!! Don't hesitate to ask! I can work miracles now that I'm a lady of leisure!!

I hope @Jamon is ok too. Haven't seen her about for several months...

Sending you all the love and hugs the world has . hope you are being kind to yourself hun.lts as if mother nature has no mercy on us and it is soo heartbreaking.

Oh Tee, I'm so sorry. That overwhelming feeling of excitement then sadness is awful. Thinking of you and big hug xx

Tee, so sorry to hear it! Sending big hugs!
Kate, hope you get your BFP soon! Thinking of you.
As for me, last month went home for polyp removal and endo scratch, suffice to say, we didn’t do but went for IUI instead. My dr warned me if IUI failure but we still went for it. And it was BFN. Gutted but knew it might not work. Just got back from home where my dr removed the polyp and I had endo scratch! That happened on CD9. We DTD yesterday and I’ve only just realised I’m in the middle of fertile window, ovulation usually happens cd14-16. I’m on CD14. Do we have a chance of falling pregnant this cycle? Or too soon after the scratch?
We also booked IUI for the end of this month.

Thinking of you today @Tee4me...

Thanks for your kind thoughts Russ. Please don't take this the wrong way - but I really hope I get pregnant before you do.... This has been the shittest thing that has ever happened to me (and I've not always had such an easy ride)...

Kate, I wish you get your BFP sooner than anyone else in this world!
I wish I could help somehow!
I’ve got an appointment with a lady on Monday, Medical Herbalist specialising in infertility, she will advise on foods to eat and not, supplements and herbs etc. I’ll post it here once I’ve got info and hopefully it will be useful to some others

I'm a lurker but @physicskate wow... just wow at your last comment. Who says something like that to another woman? @Russkispy you're a better woman than me because there's no way i'd stand for that if someone had the audacity to say something like that to me

Thanks Suz. I don’t think she meant it in a horrible way. She’s been through a lot and wants her BFP more than anything else in the world! And I hope she gets it very soon!!
My journey wasn’t that bad in comparison and of course I wish I was pregnant now but my time will come. I know it!

Suz - in the time I have been trying, Russ is now trying for her second. She has a GORGEOUS little girl. I have exactly jack shit to show for the last two years of pain.

I really really wish her success, and continue to be impressed with how she took the bull by the horns in order to conceive her first.

Suz you know nothing about me or what I've gone through in order to try and start a family. Fuck off with your judgemental shit!!!

Your lack of success is not Russ's problem. i just don't see why you'd say something like that. It is absolutely awful. So what if she already has one? Good luck Russ

Russ, I'm glad you took it in the spirit it was meant - I am sure you will get the family you want (and richly deserve). I just hope that I do too (but am becoming less and less confident that it will ever happen).

I couldn't even put my reply to YOU in the previous post. I honestly do admire so much how proactive you've been since your started your journey.

Every pregnancy announcement I hear is just another reminder of how low I am these days and how shit I feel about it all.

Suz, I honestly hope you never experience infertility. Or the heartache of being unable to conceive when others do. I hope it doesn't make you feel less of a human being. This thread is my 'safe place'. So thank you of trying to deprive me of the support of women I have grown to love and know over the last few years, the women who have been there with me during every low (there haven't been many highs).

I understand that no one else's fertility has anything to do with mine. I got that when I had a miscarriage and then my best friend announced she was expecting. And when my SIL did the same thing with my first miscarriage.

I do still feel like total shit about myself whenever someone gleefully announces how easy it was for them to conceive.

Kate, you haven’t offended me at all! And Suz, sorry you felt horrified by Kate’s comment. But we’ve been for one another for the past 2 years! Through highs and lows. And I’m still here not rubbing into faces that I’m TTC#2 but supporting others and vice versa.
Kate, stay strong, I know it must be getting harder and harder but we must! Our time will come! I’m convinced! I’m right behind you!

Oh @physicskate I know how low you have become after all this time. It's so hard for people to understand when they haven't been through it. I would be beside myself to see a bfp from you. Your time will come, you still have new avenues and options to pursue.
@Russkispy wishing you all the best of luck too! Like @physicskate I have been trying for over 2 years now, since December 2015, so I know how it feels to wait for so long and see so many success stories come and go, bless you for sticking up for her!
I do have a 5 year old DS myself and I'm very lucky I can take comfort in him when things don't work out, and categorically that makes things easier for me than if I didn't have him.
Having said that, the yearning for a 2nd is as strong as it is for the 1st, I so desperately want to give him a sibling. @Russkispy it didn't take you too long last time and I'm sure success is just around the corner for you!! Much love and baby dust to you!

Well I had my follow up scan today, and have been diagnosed with an ectopic. Thankfully though my hcg has started to drop, so they believe my body is processing it naturally, so no need for intervention and risk of rupture is looking less likely. God what are the chances?! x2 miscarriages and now one stuck in the tube! FFS!

Onwards and upwards all xx

Oh tee. I'm so sorry to hear that. I suppose it is quite good that it may not require intervention... but my heart breaks for you hun...

Everything about ttc is shit.

Tee, I’m so sorry to hear it! Stay strong! Thinking of you 🤗