Thread 31, TTC1 | Jam and her dodgers still riding the bonking bus for that elusive BFP

[Jamon]

Calling all OPK-ers, Temp-ers, Clomid-ers, Femara-ers, IUI-ers, IVF-ers and anyone else on the TTC #1 Bus.

We've been going a while now so the novelty has well and truly worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area. We don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts, we just keep it legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX). We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face!

Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share...

Key:
HS - have/had sex
GOS - good old shag
ELH - enthusiastic lavatory happenings
LSFX - legs spread, fingers crossed

CD1 for me today. I will read through and catch up later. Hope everyone is good/had a nice weekend.

Sorry flash take care today x

Damn, sorry flash how are you doing?

pyjamas hope you're doing OK

Sounds like a lovely weekend jam Happy for the board move - don't mind re thread numbers, could start afresh/go unnumbered?

jamon I am very pleased to hear that you had a good weekend- you definitely deserved that!
I have often, over the past 2 years list sight of the end goal - I totally get what you mean. In actual fact I found the treatments, the endless treatments quite, well I would not say addictive but the routine was comforting. Everyone knew me at CRGH. At IVI it is completely different vibe - but they say a change is as good as a rest.

I think we should keep numbering - only cos I have OCD tendencies and it gives a sense of the journey we have been on.

flash

AF came yesterday - at day 26, like previous month a few days early. Maybe this is my new normal. Hope it is not a sign that the menopause is fricking coming.

Yesterday was quite an intense day - in the good news part IVI found my medical records from CRGH and have sent my file on to Spain. In the shocking news section (literally) builder found that I could have quite easily have been electrocuted for the past 9 years after my kitchen electrics run right past the drip line of my bath. In disappointing news I put 2lbs on - but I always gain when I have AF and eat like a pig during the week

Morning ladies,

Hope everyone is OK. How are you getting on at work PJs? Been thinking of you.

Glad you had a good weekend Jam - you definitely deserve it. Hope it doesn't feel like a distant memory now.

Sorry to hear about AF Kwick - glad to hear that they found your medical records and that things seem to be progressing. How are the bathroom renovations going?

Sorry Flash

Our appointment yesterday was really positive, she went through all my bloods and noted that there had been a slight issue with my thyroid on the first blood test ordered by the GP (wasn't even told this was being done!) the second one came back OK, but she wanted to run a complete check on my endocrine system so took more bloods for that. I also had an ultrasound scan where everything looked good, including a huge egg on my right ovary waiting to be released. so despite the inconclusive results on the day 21 bloods she is fairly convinced that i am ovulating. And the best news we had was that DH second SA results showed slight improvement on morphology and she explained that the fact his count and motility are so good basically negates the low morphology result. I feel like I should be frustrated by now falling into the "unexplained" camp but I just feel relieved for now. I've got to go back for more 21 day bloods next week and then a hycosy at the start of next month but overall we are feeling much more positive that this could actually happen for us.

Hoping to book a cheeky trip away after the hycosy so looking into that now.

Oh and I think the new thread name has to reference the Pandas!

Will catch up with everyone properly later but just got back from our follow up appt with our new consultant and I totally love her!! Felt like she really cared, had really looked at our case to tailor treatment and we have a new plan ☺️ (have attached below). Work yesterday was shit (AF arrived as well) but am feeling much more positive today! She was such a breath of fresh air - I could've hugged her!!

That is fabulous news pjs!!! I am so pleased you now have a consultant who is tailoring your treatment! Well done!

I think I may have missed the panda bit?

Yes kwick I am so so pleased - I felt listened to for the first time and her attitude made me feel so much more positive about everything. She had really looked into our cycle and it felt less like she was just sticking her finger in the air and guessing. I seriously could've climbed over her drakes and hugged her! November cycle, here we come! Nervous about changing protocol, but have to remember the last two didn't work so could easily be the right thing to do.

Thanks for thinking of me flora - yesterday was hard at work but today was a lot easier. Went for a drink with a colleague who is about to start ICSI at the same clinic so we had a good chat. So glad you had a good appointment!

Sorry about AF flash 💐

Glad you enjoyed the wedding jam! I know exactly what you mean about forgetting about the actual baby at the end of it. I can't even imagine getting to that stage at this point.

I keep going on about it, but the piano has been such a great distraction. Thoroughly recommend taking up a new hobby or learning a new skill as distraction and using brain in a different way!

Desk not drakes!

Was a bit confused by that PJs wondered if she had some giant ducks on her desk or something!
Great to hear that you'd such a good experience with a new consultant, and does seem like a bit of trial and error is standard in this business. All her recommendations seem to make total logical sense so hopefully they'll do the trick!

Kwick that is shocking news! I know what you mean about the comfort of routine. I get that with OPKs. It's like Ah - I know what I'm doing with this and it works

I'm in agreement with you to keep our thread count. It is a journey

Great news on your test results flora. We were almost identical on the sperm front. Definitely relieved too that there's nothing 'wrong' even if unexplained is vexing. I still occasionally remember that technically we can conceive naturally - even though it feels like we can't. I had the hycosy and didn't find it too bad

Pyjamas that's brilliant news, looks a solid plan. I'm a big fan of Proxeed Plus, my DH is still on it. It seems like she's really gone in detail and looked at all aspects. Ooh also you've inspired me. I've played the piano for years and years - until recently as we don't have one. I mentioned it to my mum the other day and she offered me theirs! It's an upright and needs some tuning work but I'm sooooooooooo excited about having a piano in my life again

Kwick panda was that sodding pregnant panda in china who was taunting us in the news a few months ago

I thought that Skipper had a dream in which we were all in China being impregnated with panda sperm?! Omg please tell me I did not dream about someone else having a dream about panda sperm?!

The alleged pregnant panda is here in scotland jam biggest news around... that and our new bridge

Thanks for the advice on the appointment, I guess I might get to the vexed stage yet as obviously no guarantees but I'd convinced myself that I'd no eggs left or something!

Well done on all the musical exploits ladies, sounds really soothing!

Oops. Edinburgh panda not pregnant, now I feel like a total dickhead.

Flora 😂😂😂 too much panda confusion 🐼

Your results and defo a massive win 👍🏼

Mouse how are you doing?

Oh and skipper did have that dream!

Hello ladies.

Thanks for the love. I had a bit of a meltdown at the weekend. We've been starting to clear out my grandad's house, which I'm finding really difficult, and then I had a few too many drinks at dinner with friends and when we got home I told DH he should divorce me and find someone else who can have babies.

I've been gentle with myself the last couple of days, just focused on exercising a bit, pottering around at home, being methodical at work, and getting some time in to write and I'm feeling better now although having to acknowledge that my mental state is a bit more fragile then I had allowed myself to think.

Hope everyone is doing ok, sounds like test results etc have been good and plans are afoot for the next stages. Glad you like your new consultant pjs.

I like the idea of keeping the numbers for the new threadkwick and jam. Its like survival, we're still here, still battling on.

Also, thanks for the info re first appointments etc. Its nice to feel armed with some knowledge.

My SIL is about to get blood tests done by her GP as she is worried she is starting the menopause, she's only 40 but her periods are messed up she said, seems her and my DBro have been trying for almost a year with no luck. I can't shake the feeling of guilt that my mum might not be a grandma, even though I know it's a long way off from that.

I'm so sorry you've had a tough time flash - you're definitely not alone, I think most of of here have had similar meltdowns. I know I've said similar things to my DH in the past. You're doing the right thing by being gentle with yourself - the thing that helps me is reminding myself that nothing is permanent, including the way I feel. When I feel bad, I treat it like a wave - ride it until the next wave of optimism comes along. Hugs to you xxx

So glad you're getting a piano back in your life jam! You'll get even more out of it than I will as my highest achievement still amounts to Jingle Bells 😂

We're motoring along with next steps here - DH is booked in for his sperm fragmentation test and I'm going in for my immunology test tomorrow. Then we can relax for a bit until we try again in November. It's a longer break than last time, but still soon - but we really want one more shot at it this year! Just need to look after myself and get my head straight between now and then.

Thanks pyjamas. You've inspired me, I'm going into the loft this evening to dig out my clarinet and re-learn! Maybe in time to be able to play something Christmassy this year. Will need to buy some new reeds.....

Glad you're feeling positive about your next round, have you got anything nice planned between now and November as a distraction?

We'll be setting up a band soon! What should we call ourselves? "Infutility"? 😂

Going to Bristol for a long weekend and have that weekend retreat lined up to try and figure out how the hell I can make my life somewhat enjoyable again! Can't really book holidays as all this treatment is costing a shit load of money! Saying that, I do have Christmas booked for two weeks so I can go and see my mum and brother in Florida. So if the cycle doesn't work, then my mum can fix me!

Love it! We can do comedy musical numbers about TTC and fertility procedures. The clarinet can be used particularly dolefully when necessary!

Well I'm sure the breaks will do you a lot of good, I have to say I'm wishing away the weeks until my spa hotel holiday in Spain, I can't wait, I need to get away.

Oh yes, my mum is my greatest champion too. Have your family been badly affected by the storms?

Hahaha now there's a great mental image flash 😂

My mum and brother are thankfully fine - they did have some damage to their property though and worrying that they can't afford the $4000 insurance deductible. I wish I could help them, but every penny I have is tied up!

Glad you're feeling better flash. I definitely have days like that. I also get extremely emotional thinking about my lovely grandma who we lost on NYE. I feel like infertility makes me feel sad things more sometimes.

Blimey your clinic doesn't hang around pyjamas - all the best with those tests. I'll be starting IVF proper in November so we can be cycle buddies. It's not far off.

Keen for MN band. We could be the TTC sisters :D