Thread 31, TTC1 | Jam and her dodgers still riding the bonking bus for that elusive BFP

[Jamon]

Calling all OPK-ers, Temp-ers, Clomid-ers, Femara-ers, IUI-ers, IVF-ers and anyone else on the TTC #1 Bus.

We've been going a while now so the novelty has well and truly worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area. We don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts, we just keep it legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX). We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face!

Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share...

Key:
HS - have/had sex
GOS - good old shag
ELH - enthusiastic lavatory happenings
LSFX - legs spread, fingers crossed

Hello all, I'm finally back from holiday and just trying to catch up!

I'm another one who doesn't really drive - I passed my test 10 years ago and haven't driven since. I don't really plan to start again as I don't think we're going to get a car anytime soon. DH is happy to drive on holiday and we are probably Addison Lee's best customers when we're at home! I definitely feel (as does DH...lol) that I should never get behind the wheel again.

Keeping everything crossed for you pyjamas, it sounds like the clinic are being helpful and I'm glad your DH will be back soon. In the meantime, have a very relaxing weekend!

Sk1pper, bodies are indeed very strange. Before we started TTC, my symptoms (both of ovulation and AF) were so easy to spot. Now I have no idea what's going on at any time!

Hello hep, sorry life's been so stressful for you recently.

Hope the 5k went well Flora!

Sounds like you are a good FW lined up Jam. My egg is due at the same time as yours, we skipped last night because we didn't get home until late but will HS a couple more times as this is prob going to be our final cycle trying naturally for a few months!

Morning ladies. Catching up and keeping my fingers crossed for you pyjamas. When can you test 🙈

So, since ovulation I've been cramping, pre af type cramping, very mild, nothing too bad. Normally I would have started spotting last night and all day today before AF showing tomorrow. Only... I'm. Not. Spotting.

I think possibly my late ovulation is giving me a few days extra which might make my cycle longer than 25 days or whatever but I'll take it. Not getting ahead of myself at all as I'm only 6DPO today and it would be lovely if nothing more than to have a longer cycle but this is major teasing. My temps have continued to rise also. 😳

Feeling more relaxed about Monday (my EDD) and feeling more positive overall. I will be a mum. I am in good time.

As are we all. Xxx. Happy Saturday. X

Thanks pj that makes sense. Didn't realise that about the progesterone. The things we do.. hope your DH is back now

Hi kath how was your holiday? Hope you manage to give this cycle a good go. How are you feeling about starting treatment?

Mouse that sounds really positive. You are in perfect time.

I'm waiting for my train in Edinburgh. Feeling absolutely dreadful. Not hungover just ill. Was coming down with something last week and a weekend of hen activities has finished me off. I am absolutely exhausted and aching all over. Poor egg is due tomorrow, it's not going to be very enthusiastic I feel.

Hope you've all had lovely weekends. Period has come full force this weekend so I'm onto cycle 21...lucky number 21 right?! I'm getting a bit worried we won't be able to fit our IVF cycle in before Christmas now as I wouldn't be starting long protocol until mid November and the clinic closes over Christmas. We've got our nurse appointment this Friday so I guess we'll see then.

flora and Jam I think morphology is a funny one - ours has gone between 3% and 7% - and someone I follow on Instagram has just got pregnant with 0 - 1%. Our consultant didn't seem particularly bothered about it!

skip hope it's not AF, could it be the mysterious implantation bleed?

pyjamas hope you are feeling OK and fingers crossed it is just implantation or a weird side effect of the drugs!

Mouse, hope you are feeling ok today

Struggle - ah sorry hon that really does suck. 21 is indeed a lucky number, it's good you are looking ahead already. No period for me yet, I will test after Wednesday. It's possible I ovulated later than I thought as it would be more inline with my average ovulation day, but I was so convinced I ovulated early this cycle I actually stopped HS. If period is due Wednesday I'll start spotting tomorrow so we'll see...

Sorry about af struggle. I'm straying into mild hopeful twat territory over here. I'm 7 dpo today and have zero spotting whispering so I don't jinx it. Boobs have just started hurting. If nothing else, this is how my cycles used to be! Hoping for a 13/14 day lp and then I would finally have achieved the mythical "normal" cycle!

Skipper I'm keeping tightly crossed for you. What cycle day would you be on Wednesday?

CD26 - so that's my normal average. My boobs are killing me but I'm still not that convinced if I'm honest...

Hope you're ok today mouse xx

Sorry about AF struggle and hope you get answers from nurse on timing soon

Fx for skip and flash!

On 10dp2dt (12dpo) so at the business end of this IVF cycle. I honestly don't know what to think - I really don't feel any different to how I usually feel, so hopes aren't high and am dreading a BFN on Weds 🙁 I've been using my IVF mindfulness app a lot which has helped a lot. And have a tai chi lesson and intro piano lesson today to try and distract myself. This bit is horrible - so glad I'm not at work, I'd be useless.

Sorry struggle , it's so shit. I'll be long protocol too and Christmas clinic break is stressing me out. So much we can't control. Agreed morphology is such a grey area, we've had a mix of reactions from doctors from you need IVF to it's not a problem at all.

Fingers tightly crossed for you flash skipper pyjamas - we are overdue BFPs so let's hope it's a bumper crop this week

Hope you're doing okay today also mouse

I hope you're okay today mouse, must be so hard

Also thinking of you lots pyjamas, I think having lots of distractions is the only way to cope.

Sorry about AF struggle, hope there's some good news re timing on Friday.

Keeping everything crossed for you Flash and sk1pper.

How are you feeling today Jam? Any better? We had a lovely holiday thanks and are now looking forward to whatever this autumn holds for us.

Mouse and for you.

Welcome back from your hols Kathrino. We just booked our next holiday for October! Can't wait. Especially now the grey rainy days seem to have arrived.

Hope you're okay too Mouse xxx 🐼

Jam I'm just telling myself it's out of my hands now re timing - I can't do anything to make it happen more quickly, so if I don't get in before Christmas at least I can kick back a little bit over the festive period.

Bloody Kate Middleton pregnant again as well...

Quickly checking in to say good luck to pyjamas, skipper and flash - have everything crossed for you guys! xxx

Wi-Fi is crap where I am, and trying to take the chance to relax for TWW, though also stressing about work I need to get done :s

Looking forward to some good news when I next check in (Kate bloody Middleton doesn't count) - hugs for all!

Thanks everyone!

Have had a day of adventures today - tai chi was good, very relaxing even if it was granny club 😂 Was eyed v suspiciously when I came in (may have been the Guns n Roses t-shirt) and then one of them looked at me like I'd shat on her knitting when I asked whether it was shoes on or off ha ha. I very much enjoyed it though.

And I totally LOVED my piano lesson! It was amazing how much is still in my brain from my 11 year old self and it felt SO good to engage my brain in a different way and in something that wasn't IVF/work/anything to do with a screen. I've signed up for weekly lessons and potentially picking up a digital piano tomorrow! It's all been a great distraction.

If I get a BFN, I'll be devastated and obviously won't give a shit about the piano for a few days, but my lesson on Sunday is something to look forward to at least 😊

So tomorrow is Indian head massage, reiki, cinema and potentially picking up digital piano. TWW? What TWW?

Hope your ok mouse x

Pjs, flash and skip 🤞 for you three.

Had good news at kidney scan. Everything was fine which has made relax a little.

for Mouse.

Sounds like a lovely and relaxing day PJs - lol at the granny club tai chi, I can't wait to be old and have an excuse for being judgemental and mean!

Fingers crossed for those in the final few days of the TWW. AF has almost left the building here so be FW again soon, still undecided on whether I can be arsed tracking this month or not

Ladies I am sorry I have been AWOL again! Had to use a quicker commute to work last week and does not give me enough time to get on to MN!!!

PJs my cousin was born in Columbia - his mum is Puerto Rican and dad British do you get to go back often?

I still need to read back but just a quick update from moi:

• home renovations underway: I spent 3.5k on supplies today!!! 😳
• just had SW weigh-in, lost 3.5 lbs and now my BMI is 35.5
• have telephone appt with IVI consultant tomorrow and physical appt with nurse later in the week

Much PMA and joy to everyone.

WE ARE ALL IN PERFECT TIME!!!!!

Hey everyone, am back from hols now. I can't post on my app as can't see the previous threads and I forget what I want to say ha ha.
Hope you've managed to get through today all ok mouse, you sounded very positive in your previous message which I know is really bloody hard as these dates lurk on the horizon. Love your mantra that you will be a mum some day, it's an important one to keep telling ourselves throughout this journey.
Your day sounds great pyjamas and a successful distraction. How are you feeling physically? I'd love to take up the piano, I did keyboard for years at school but never managed to graduate to the piano but it's such an amazing talent to have! Bet you're so pleased you're not at work this time?
Good news about your scan babi. Was that TTC related or a separate issue? Think I missed any previous posts about that..
Seems like lots of us are coming towards the start of an IVF journey. DH had another frag test today to see how things have improved (hopefully) since he's op and eating well/losing weight etc. Then follow up in 2 weeks, which is just before he goes away for 2 weeks with work so hoping it's good news. We had lots of good chats while we were away and we are both at the point where we are ready for IVF/iCSI if necessary. It does scare me, especially the egg collection but it seems like it's the emotional side that's tougher than the physical bit and I'm coming to the point where anything is worth a go and better than feeling so miserable all the time. Holiday was great and we had a lovely time but I cried on the plane home as just felt miserable coming back to reality and I guess coming back to the same old same old. But don't want to wallow in it or fall back down the black hole so just picking back up with my business and carrying on with life and being healthy etc now I'm back with the mindset that we'll be starting treatment in a few months if nothing has happened. DH was also meant to go away for work in November but he's already discussed it with his work and they're totally understanding about him not being able to go if we're having treatment then so that's another massive weight off of my mind.
Fingers crossed for skip, flash and pyjamas this week, really hoping we all get the happy ending to this year we deserve!

And yeah bloody Kate Middleton, although the one that's really got me recently is Daniella Westbrook! She must be one of the unhealthiest women walking the planet! I know we're all sensitive to it because we're TTC but does anyone else think it's become hugely popular in recent years to have children?? I think it seems to have swung full circle again whereas for my sisters generation - 40 upwards - lots of her friends didn't have kids but now everyone seems to and it's constantly in the news!

So sorry I fell off the thread again ladies- if I miss a day it takes me so long to catch up! Think I need to put thread time into my daily schedule 😂

Hope you're doing ok mouse💐😘

Am keeping fingers and toes crossed for you pyjamas 🤞

Wishing everyone else lots of good luck, and positivity to those who have had crappy times ❤️

I'm on day 2 of first clomid cycle- have the most intense nipple pain! Is this normal??

Hey ladies. Thank you all so much for the well wishes. Sorry but the last few days have been really hard.

My AF didn't turn up yesterday. I kinda knew it was coming, so I'm guessing Wednesday as I've just got home from a day in York to what I think is spotting starting. Quite honestly I'm devastated but I expected it. I'm 8DPO today which means another possible 9 day LP but with a longer potentially 28 day cycle. I'm not even entertaining the idea of implantation spotting.

Today was a mess. It started positively with a drive to York, we got fudge and went in a few shops. Plan was to go to Betty's for afternoon tea but DH diverted and we ended up in a little cafe because I was losing my patience.

Crying baby set me off and I ended up running to the toilet and declaring I wanted to go home. Composed myself. Walked around for another hour. Lost my shit again as I was so bored.

We were meant to be going and doing things but all we ended up doing was walking around the streets. Had to have a stop at costa to calm down.

Then decided to run and catch the last admission to Jorvik and it put me in a better mood. Even manage to hold it together when the guide was telling us about infant mortality rates being low in Viking days. And families would have many many children.

Went for something to eat, didn't enjoy the meal, caught the park and ride back to the car park and came home.

Wanted a nice relaxing day, afternoon tea, maybe a massage or a walk out, had the opposite. Wanted to buy something to remember the day. Came home with a German pickle Christmas decoration. Really couldn't make it up. Pretty much sums up my life.

Thankfully DH has been lovely and has apologised several times even though none of it was his fault. I was just an emotional wreck. 😕

💐🌻🌷 mouse x

Chloe - scan was after re occurring kidney infections where left kidney hurt massivly.

Still got constant side pain so need to go back to Doctor.

I have had a crazy busy week at work, have been reading your updates but haven't found time to post. I will do the same as Binky and put it in my calendar (will have to think of a code name, can't really write "Mumsnet" in my work calendar!

Welcome back from hols to Kath and Chlo.

Sorry your day went awry Mouse, I admire you for getting up and going out today at all. 💐

PJs you're doing so well with all your distraction, just hoping so much you have a big bump some months down the line and are stretching to reach your piano keys because you're sitting so far back!

Kwick can you volumise your hair into a very big high style and add a few cm, that would get your bmi under 35 . Seriously though, well done.

Good news on scan Babi.

I'm CD12, DH is away but back soon, hopefully in time for ovulation. Have appointment in a few weeks to get the ball rolling for IVF. Eek. But I know a lot of you are in the same boat.

Thoroughly fed up of seeing first day at school photos on my friends' Facebook but I'm there "liking" all the posts and wondering how they have school age kids and I haven't even crossed the start line. But enough of that.

I'm going to be positive this week, looking forward to dinner with a friend tomorrow, going to have some wine, will see DH in a few days, but for now luxuriating in having the house to myself and lying on the sofa tonight with a magazine and a bag of sweets that I don't have to share!