SQUARE ONE TO GRADUATES! Come on ladies we're huntin' BFPs!

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I get twitchy at the end lol! So next rollover thread. Roll call?

Kate what's happening today? Do you remember your symptoms before your last bfps?
Jam due on today? Anything?

Ah tee I got my period yesterday. Hello cycle 20

Trying to decide whether to take clomid again. It made me feel so shit last month.

Fuck 😣
Massive hugs x

Thanks love. It wasn't a surprise and I'm starting to get my head around IVF. I just wish we could start it sooner as I feel we're wasting time trying naturally. I'm going to try and focus back on me and my mental health over the next few months and try not to obsess over TTC as much. It's not done me any good thus far!

Oh Jam. It's helped that I no longer expect it to happen... except for these stupid pms symptoms! Grrr. I think you've thrown the kitchen sink at it already... no need to try anything you don't want to.

My lower back is really uncomfortable - so much so it was difficult to sleep. Similar symptoms to the chemical except boobs not as sore and back is more so...

I caved and did an FRER this morning, and not sure if it was a smudge, the start of a super faint line or nothing at all. Probably nothing at all. Trying to keep expectations low but this super pms is killing me! Testing again tomorrow am as I'm away Sunday (11 dpo) which would normally be my testing day.

Symptoms all gone... so not feeling likely. Anyway off to Dublin!

Jam, you need to give yourself some TLC. What have you got to look forward to? Any holiday or massages? My acupuncturist is trying to drum in the idea that if your heart isn't happy, nothing else works to its full potential, so you must must must take good care of yourself. I think focusing on the positives and booking stuff in to look forward to helps. I tried the grateful app, and felt spoilt for choice on what to note down each day; really put things in perspective.
Kate did you test?!

Nope no test. Although dodgy tummy and super bloated today...?

Test!!!!

I get back tomorrow so first chance will be Monday now...

12 dpo bfn. Insultingly it showed the indent, but absolutely no colour... at least I have that appointment next Monday. Hoping far af early so not spotting during appointment.

Thanks sweet tee I definitely need to focus on getting mentally stronger and calmer. I feel like I'm making progress. Really keen to do some more acupuncture to help with this - I'll try and sort that this week. How are you?

Fx af stays away Kate but yes focus on that appointment if you need to

Thinking of you footy

Room for another?
Stats
TTC #2
Age 33
1 DS
2dpo
Would love to join a thread if theres space!

You are very welcome fizzie we are a bit of a quiet thread but there are three of us who have been going through this for a very long time together and we look out for each other. You are really welcome to join! Did it take you long to conceive no. 1?

Hi everyone, just catching up on this thread.

I've not been in the best frame of mind the past few weeks with my leg being in the cast but last week I got the ok to drive which has helped (although not actually driven yet as waiting to borrow an auto from a friend).

As someone who is super active (i can ride 8 horses a day) the inability to do anything has made me very down and I've struggled with it. We had the 20 weeks scan and when I found out that all was ok I made the decision to sit on my advanced horse and finally found myself smiling again!

Welcome fizz!! How long have you been ttc?

Durez I'm sorry you've been having it (understandably) rough, but also pleased to hear things are getting better! Sad to think I'd be almost that far along too...

Dh was gutted when I told him not pregnant as he was hoping we'd get out of this appointment on Monday!!

CD23 10dpo
Hi girls,
Welcome Fizz, I am 34 ttc#2 (18 months and x2 mc's), have a DS who will be 5 in September! We only took 3 months to conceive him, hope you have much better luck second time round! How old is your DS?
Sorry for bfn Kate but great you have an app to look forward to. AF due Sunday for me and my specialist app a week Thursday, so that's my consolation prize when the witch inevitability arrives.
Jam, I can't recommend trying acupuncture again enough, the lady I found is so much better than my last guy. Where are you in London again? She visits a clinic in Chelsea on Tuesdays and Wednesdays I think.
We are currently in Center Parcs until Friday, so a nice distraction for me in part 2 of 2ww x

DuRez so sorry you haven't been feeling yourself! 20wks is a great milestone to get to though, get ready to bloom!
Did you find out baby's gender?? x

Tee I live north but work central. I will go back to the clinic I tried before but see a woman this time I reckon. It was weird talking about my periods with a man.. have a lovely time at center parcs !

Hello again, lovely people who welcomed me. I can't find my reply that I typed out after my initial post. Gah!

Anyhow, the short of it is that it took us 7 cycles to conceive DS1. Travel schedules admittedly did not help.

And thank you for putting me onto ovulation strips! They were not on my radar at all. Are you using these? www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/B00309HL5A/ref=ox_sc_act_image_2?smid=A4DI4ZJ5WTRP7&psc=1&tag=mumsnetforum-21

I think I'll order a pack now that AF has arrived again. Early, so I had my hopes up that it might be implantation bleeding... :( Also just read someone linking a constant state of tiredness and yawning to early menopause. Perfect timing for a shorter-than-expected cycle to feed the paranoia!

Physicskate I am sorry about the bfn. I hope your appointment goes well!

I had better post this now before it gets lost again.

Don't believe everything you read... tiredness linked to menopause?? Well than I must be post menopausal!!!

Those are the opks I use! They're ok.

So I'm pretty upset today because of it all. Having a paddy and throwing my toys out of the pram. I think it's because of this appointment tomorrow. I feel like they're going to tell me just to be patient like my gp did. I've never had a positive experience of medical care in the uk...

Also feel like an utter failure and waste of space. It's great, but I can't help feeling this way and don't know how to improve my mood at the moment... dh doesn't know what to do with me.

Sorry Kate, it really is a heart breaking and depressing cycle, I'm not surprised you feel this way. Every month it gets harder and harder to muster up any positivity.
Try and think of the possibilities tomorrow might present! At best; some answers and specific course of action, at worst; a new strategy going forward. Either way it's a step in the right direction for sure.
CD1 for me today, cycle 20 😱
I feel completely neutral to be honest. I have my specialist appointment to look forward to on Thursday. I feel sure he will get to the bottom of what's going on. I'm going to continue with acupuncture too as I'm adamant that is helping. I would love to fall in the next 3 months, would result in an April/May/June baby, just perfect 👌🏻

So I had my appointment today and the nurse said we totally did the right thing in coming and that the chemicals don't 'count' as miscarriages (but she didn't say it in a way that discounted them, or diminished their importance). She was lovely actually saying we would get sorted...

So had an ultrasound and low and behold guess who has loads of cysts on both ovaries!!? So might this be a reason for all the heartache? Will have to wait for bloods to find out! I am not sure if I'm devastated or ecstatic that there could actually be a cause!!! In my mind it explains why I did end up falling pregnant while using the soy isoflavins (nature's clomid).

Physicskate I think it's always better to know if there is a cause, so that sounds like progress! When will you receive the blood test results?

You are quite right about not believing everything one reads. At least I recognise my paranoias for what they are :) I've put them on hold now that I'm in the middle of a new cycle, and shall probably return to the disaster scenarios in a few weeks when AF rears its ugly head again.

Bit of an uphill battle with DH this time around, who is exceptionally not travelling for work, but is not very keen on getting down to it while I can't seem to be kicking a cough, and we are both knackered due to DS's school holidays (much as we appreciate the time that we spend with him!)