SQUARE ONE TO GRADUATES! Come on ladies we're huntin' BFPs!

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I get twitchy at the end lol! So next rollover thread. Roll call?

Wow Russ - she's fantastic!!

Sorry you're having a tough time mimi... I'm no longer excited. I know I'm only 33... but I'm trying to see what it feels like if it never happens. Not sure how long I'll be able to take the disappointment... or early miscarriages. It's like we always say in teaching: stupidity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.

I'm a miserable bastard these days!!

Thanks @kate.sorry you are also feeling down.It's really tough but have everything crossed for you girls that it's only a matter of time. I know words of encouragement are not what you want to hear right now, but I think we can only hope for the best.
Sending you hugs and

Kate I'm 33 too, we do have lots of fertile years ahead xx I can completely sympathise with starting to contemplate a future without children though - I do that too. It's almost self preservation to prepare yourself for the worst. I'm sure we will both get there though. Where are you at with NHS intervention? Are you on the waiting list for IVF yet?

Russ she's lovely but god it hurts looking at babies right now

Tee hope you're doing well xx

Glad to see you are still around too mimi hoping for a surprise BFP from you xx

Jam I haven't even been seen by the fertility people yet! First appt with them on July 3rd, but haven't have bloods or anything yet as my gp wouldn't do anything because of the chemical in march.

We've booked in with a clinic that accepts NHS patients, so not sure if they're treating us as private or NHS...? They were a bit panicked when they couldn't find me on the system because I gave them my short name not full name...

So we're still nowhere. I think today is ov day? Had a seriously vivid dream night before last that I got three very bfp, but I'm sure it's just wishful thinking!

2 dpo. Not hopeful. Dh couldn't finish on ov day. But we were Dtd every other day before then. Have low expectations and then everything's a pleasant surprise, right?

Good luck Kate, still worth another DTD tonight maybe? I've decided we definitely need to keep going after expected OD... maybe our bodies take longer to complete ovulation than we think?
Had a lovely spa day yesterday, best massage ever, feeling very relaxed, ovulation tomorrow for me I expect, anticipating a peak opk later. Told DH he can have the golf on all night every evening as long as he 'delivers' 😂

I love the bribery tee maybe I need to try this! Massage spa sounds lovely

Fx Kate make sure you do follow up with GP they should be helping you more by now

I'm 8dpo I think. Feeling really bloated but that's about it. The mental clomid side effects finally seem to be wearing off and I'm mentally preparing to take it again next cycle...

Clockwork ⏰
Why does nothing else in the cycle happen as consistently??
Jam hope the Clomid works for you!!

Well I'm 4 dpo and progesterone here with a vengeance. Gassy and very tender nips.

Testing on Saturday, as I'm off to Dublin next weekend! My mum is going and we're meeting up with some third cousins!

Tee - aren't you over that way?? Can't quite remember!

Glad you've got something to look forward to Kate! No, I'm not Ireland, live near Heathrow.
Well I was wrong that nothing else in my cycle was as consistent as my opks, I can also set my watch by DH turning me down on ovulation day. I've lost count of the amount of times that's happened now, so annoying. I know you can still get pregnant outside of OD, but I suppose when you've been trying this long you don't want to leave anything to chance. Think I am now 1dpo, he wasn't interested in any morning action either 👎🏻 I kept to my end of the bargain, he'd watched the golf every/all evening since Thursday. Another excuse of not feeling well so not his fault, but it's bollocks because it doesn't stop him doing anything else. No doubt he'll be on the golf course later without any trouble.

Sorry to hear that tee, it's so frustrating. You've done it in the lead up and that's the most important fertility time. Fx

How are you doing girls?

I'm 11 DPO and feeling pre menstrual. Can't believe it'll be cycle 20 starting soon!

6 dpo. Feeling totally normal. No hope for this cycle... but at least I've got my appointment for the 3rd! I'm just hoping af clears off by then so I don't have to do ultrasound while bleeding... ew...

It's definitely good having something in after AF to focus on. Fx you won't need it Kate. You must be in report writing hell now?

nope! My new school don't do them! Just grade cards every half term and two parents meetings a year. It's soooooo much better than three full reports where you end up writing the same thing to the same child over and over and over and nothing changes!

Trying to plan more small things a few weeks in advance to give myself more to look forward to. I don't want to get to the depths I ways in just before Christmas...

Not thinking this is my month. Refuse to get my hopes up!

Will you still test Saturday Kate?
Jam presume you'll be due Friday-ish. Really hope you girls report surprise BFPs.
I'm 3dpo, still peeved that the last time we DTD was day before ov CD12, maybe even 2 days before if my calculations were too generous. Feel like the acupuncture is really helping my underlying health/wellbeing, so feels like such a waste to not continue with DTD on and after ovulation. I don't know how to stop DH from losing interest after only a few days. I'm all out of energy, ideas, and quite frankly sick of being the one making all the effort. Fed up!

Not sure. I don't like to test before a work day as it changes my mood. And I have like 10 frer from that boots Bogor offer... I'll only be 10 dpo on Saturday... so not sure.

I don't know what you can do tee. Dh tends to get performance anxiety if we Dtd every day and is very very nervous about being able to provide an analysis sample. I've told him I have to have a fist up my fanjo, blood tests and may need surgeries, needs etc, so he needs to man up. Probably not the most supportive, but what I'm saying is maybe let him know what you might have to go through if it doesn't happen? Or maybe he gets performance worries and doesn't want you to know?? Lay all the cards on the table and tell him your frustrations now that your next ov is weeks away??

In all our 13 years together he's never not been able to finish... perhaps that's because if he's not in mood he just won't attempt it?? I don't think there's anything I can do other than be a bit more rationed with DTD leading up to OD (although Ovia tells me I'm most fertile CD9-13, and we're both keen during this time - other than CD13 for DH!) but every month I say we must keep going over OV and beyond, and we (he) keeps failing on that!

The thing is also, he's adamant I'm overthinking everything. Thinks I'm worrying over nothing and that it will happen if we just DTD when we naturally want to. He doesn't even agree about seeing the specialist to be honest, so I just don't have a leg to stand on if that's the approach he thinks is best. It still annoys me that I let him have the tv to himself while golf was on Thursday-Sunday, we'd made a pact (albeit kind of tongue in cheek) that he would deliver every night, and only ended up being twice 😡 Feel like I'm turning into a doormat because I just do everything possible to keep him 'sweet' now, and I'm starting to get sick of it and starting to resent him a bit. I just need him to show some effort ttc too!

Oh tee. He's an arse.

I can tell I'm not upduffed at 7 dpo. I'm getting really irritable and ratty. Just got annoyed at another thread when someone contradicted me about my experience/ opinion. Yeah, my response was way harsher than it needed to be...

Let's hope cycle 14 month 16 is the one that sticks! Disappointing this cycle as I was really hoping that taking the plunge about an appointment would work as it has for others.

Irritability could be the progesterone! I definitively get ratty immediately after ovulation I've noticed. It happens every month, and every month I think to myself, don't get stressed there might be a bean wanting to settle in!
FX for you Kate!
PS. Apparently Summer Solstice is linked to high fertility, so good luck all round!! x

One thing I'm starting to accept is how differently men see TTC tee. This has been a big source of arguments for us as I've expected him to feel and react like me and he 100% doesn't.

I'm reading a book called Conquering Infertility which is about coping with the strong feelings sadness frustration and stress. It's very reassuring read.

Love the summer solstice boost! Fx

Kate irritability means nada!

Period due Friday and no sign yet. Mentally preparing for it, I'm going on a hen do glamping this weekend so not ideal timing really - but it'll be a good distraction.

I need you all to bring me back to earth. I'm 8 dpo. Really achy back and a pair of sore boobs. Gas and totally knackered (though I did have a parents' meeting so it was a loooong day). Please help me back away from the tests!!

Those are all classic AF symptoms for Kate but they could easily be an early BFP brewing too. Fx for you xx