Chemical pregnancy number 3

[AmandaJL41]

Hello all.

I'm new to Mumsnet, so I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place.

A little back-story. At 39 I had an ectopic & lost a tube. Very next month, pregnant with my son (only child for me & DH). Had 13 wonderful months, didn't plan any more kids. He died in November very suddenly of septicaemia. Since then, as well as grieving, we've tried to conceive again. In 5 cycles of trying, we've caught 3 times, but each time it's the same. BFPs for a week or so that don't progress, eventually a BFN & then bleeding starts a few days later. I've tried to attach a pic of what's happening now. The top line was 11 dpo, the bottom one today at 15 dpo. I had a much fainter one at 13 dpo. Just waiting it out again.

The GP ran blood tests for pre & post-ov hormones, thyroid, diabetes etc. All normal. Post-ov progesterone level of 31 (UK). I'm 41, so I accept that age will be playing a part.

Has anyone had a similar experience? I can find a lot online about 1 or 2 CPs but not 3. Does anyone have any advice? My GP has agreed a second progesterone test & also to test for sticky blood. Since losing my boy, the chance to be a mum again is the only thing keeping me going. These repeated blows seem so cruel

Thanks for reading xxx

So so sorry Amanda. Like a previous poster said, please be kind to yourself and don't give up hope. Xx

Really sorry to hear this.
You are not at the end of this journey though.

Thank you all for your lovely messages of support It means a lot to me.

A quick update. I've been asked back for a confirmation scan on Friday, but I've already made my feelings clear that I will push for a quick resolution to this. Between Friday and Sunday my hCG levels only rose from 8,987 to 9,199, so between that and the empty sac, it's clear that there isn't a viable baby hiding away anywhere. Ectopic is still a remote possibility, but unlikely in light of my progesterone level, which is 24.8. Apparently that's in the mid-range for a healthy pregnancy. They expect to see levels of less than 7 in imminent miscarriage, and in the low teens in ectopic. So basically, in a nutshell, I don't have a viable pregnancy, but my body is going to hang on to it doggedly and not let go for god knows how long Hence I want a surgical resolution to all this, as soon as possible. I've still got enough hormones floating about to make me gag whenever I clean my teeth and feel permanently hung-over, which is fine when you've got a healthy little bean growing, but a constant kick in the teeth when you haven't!

I hope everyone is doing ok. Thanks again for your support xxx

Hi Amanda, just read through your thread and was wondering how you are. Lots of love to you!!