Hi everyone,
Hope you're all doing as ok as can be expected, amid all the anxiety and stress!
Glad to see some returning characters; thanks for your updates Seeking, Snoopy and Rosa! Glad to hear your success stories albeit after difficult journeys. Seeking - congrats on your BFP and well done for feeling calm.
Rosa, keep your chin up, early 40s isn't so unusual, really is it? You have a good chance and you know you're fertile.
JustLa, sorry to hear about the spotting, it's just the worst feeling. But it's gone now and that's important. I read a study on the relationship between spotting, bleeding and miscarriages and it only made links when the MCs came within 3-4 days of spotting. It also showed that most women who had spotting were perfectly fine.
Welcome back Starshine, sorry to hear you're having a rubbish 2ww.
Harriet, I don't know how you deal with this on a lawyer's schedule. I'm a freelance writer and I think if I had to do the office and commuting saga on top I would go nuts.
All, I spoke to my endocrinologist about the early spotting and he said he wants me to have a luteal phase progesterone measurements taken to see why my luteal phase is shorter since my last MC. He also told me to split my dosage so I take half in the morning and half at night, to help with the weight gain and mood swings.
Meanwhile, I am feeling ok this week and really working on my mindset. I can't keep freaking out every time I see blood. I'm going back to my therapist who I saw after my MCs because my anxiety about TTC is turning into OCD and I need to nip it in the bud. Being aware of it is a large part of the battle though, I think.
Friends of mine found religion helps them focus. I am agnostic, but I have found thinking about the Law of Attraction is quite helpful for me; keeping my thoughts positive and focusing on a happy outcome. Very difficult, but I do find it calming and it cheers me up.
Might get to see DP in time for next O day, but not setting my heart on anything.