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Thanks purdy :)

I'm 7dp5dt

DizzyN any news from you?

Thanks everyone! The wait is slowly driving me insane!

Boris! That's technically 12dpo!
Did you test the trigger out?

Purdey - means a lot that you still pop in to check on us. Xx

Sammy I tested for the trigger at 4dpt - 11 days post trigger and got a faint second line which just messed with my head. I googled loads and apparently the trigger (at the dose I took; despite spilling some and the blood and broken glass and being diluted with tears) can stay in your system for 14 days (ie should be gone today).

I need brain bleach to remove the memory of injecting that trigger shot.

Me too Boris. I think it's the anxiety of getting to the point of egg collection combined with quite a complicated injection that did it! We put the bung on the glass the wrong way hope so it smashed everywhere, I panicked that there were glass shards in the syringe and then just burst in to tears after I had injected it! Xx

magpie my healthy eating has all gone to pot over the weekend too. Far too much caffeine, takeaway and desserts! Today is a new day, let's start afresh.

genghis I think I was having af cramps last night in bed but I might have been dreaming them (ttc is messing with my head recently, the other day I was dreaming about waking up and taking my temp.....). 10dpo would be very early for me. I'm probably imagining it/or its my digestive system groaning after the awful diet over the weekend.

Hang on in there boris. I can't imagine how nerve wracking it must be for you right now xx

sammy how many 'dpo' are you?

No news from me at all. I don't feel any different to how I feel any other month so I'm just assuming af will be here thurs night/Friday. Apart from having really sore boobs but they've felt like this since immediately after ov so it's obviously just something my body is just doing this month and not a sign of bfp. Yesterday I was at a family party with lots of kids running around. I realised I was the only adult there who isn't a parent .

Just noticed that DP's SA appt is right at the end of next cycles fertile window

For my trigger we had to snap the glass top off four glass vials to get the different drugs to mix. I couldn't do it. DH tried and the first and third shattered into his thumbs, spilling some of the liquids. He got more of the liquid drug in him through the cuts in both of his thumbs than I did. We had to try to siringe up some of the spilt liquid from round DHs blood and the broken glass. DH sobbed as he has never done before because he thought he had ruined my chance of finishing the ivf. It took us more than an hour to do the jabs so we had to put Egg collection back by an hour as its so time sensative. If I ever go through ivf again I am NOT using that drug with its stupid glass vials or at least I'll ask for a double prescription so if this happened Id have enough left despite the smashes. After we finished the jabs I started sobbing and said I was never ever going through this again. I kept asking DH if we would be ok just the two of us, without a baby....

DizzyN get the SA done, crap timing but it'll be worth it... Your symptoms do sound promising but I expect like sammy and I you can't get too interested when you've had so many disappointing cycles...

Oh boris, as if the whole procedure isn't stressful enough without the added trauma of spilled drugs and blood . They could at least make that bit easy, it seems silly after all that expense and work to put the onus on you to deliver the last part of the treatment.......someone untrained? Hopefully the vials hold a surplus to cover any errors in delivery, it only seems sensible.

We will get the SA done, it'll be a perfect chance to have a proper month off. We said we'd take this cycle off but we still 'tried' although I was much more laid back about it.

Yes I've had every 'symptom' imaginable during past tww's so I don't obsess about them too much now. It's pointless. I'm convinced I'm not going to get pg any time soon, but I do stay positive that it'll happen one day......I just wish I knew when?! The wait is just so boring!!

Dizzyn My medical training on giving jabs is solely based on watching you tube demos.... If anyone needs a jab now an expert

It does seem mad that you're responsible for that part of the treatment Boris and Sammy. The pressure must be immense, my heart really goes out to you both (and your dhs)

DizzyN I really hope they are positive signs but I know what you mean about not getting your hopes up - it's self preservation isn't it? Crap about the timing of DP's SA but at least it will take the pressure off, as in it's out of your hands so nothing you can do about it. My DP's is on Good Friday and he's cursing because he has to get up early on a day off.

No news from me - I'm currently drinking a g and t (even though I try not to during the 2ww) after yet another phone call to my embassy for the marriage paperwork. I swear they either don't want me to get married or are determined to drive me to the drink!

Oh and DizzyN I hope the family party wasn't too hard on you - one day you'll get your baby for sure!

So sorry for the self indulgent post but haven't had time to catch up yet and just popping on to let u all kno I'm back in hospital and they are doing a laparoscopy today! Bad news in terms of current pain and suspected endo but very good news for me in terms of them actually doing something now.

Huge love and hugs to all especially sammy and boris, hope your implanted blastos are growing nicely!

Love and hugs to everyone else, promise to try and catch up properly when I'm back home xxxx

Went to the docs this morning sending me for an ultrasound, also the gp managed to throw the word endometriosis into the mix which is always nice to hear so now just waiting for an appointment. On day 47 at the mo!!

I tested at 7dp5dt! I did, however, test out the trigger, which only took three days! I think test day after IVF is the most stressful and fearful time in your whole life. You must remember though...if it's bfn it's not the end. Not by a long chalk...

I remember smashed glass vials and spilled drugs; so stressful. Boris, May I ask which clinic you used, or is it secret? You too, Sammy. Don't answer if you'd rather not.

Purdey thanks. I used reprofit - they didn't have a waiting list and are so much cheaper than UK clinics. Also I got to ask lucie all my stupid questions :)

I'm at a CARE facility. I won't say which so I don't out myself.
Purdey - can I ask your opinion on lining thickness? I'm getting worried about mine as everyone seems to say they want over 8mm, and my clinic only requires 6.5mm and mine never seems to get above 7mm.
My clinic say it's based on the most up to date research but I can't find any other one which is happy with so little. Xx

I've just spotting early on 11dpo............ either FF got it wrong this month or the soy isoflavones has messed up my body? That'll explain the cramping last night then..... I really hope my LP hasn't been shortened, it's usually a very healthy 14 1/2 days.......

Also I stopped taking pre conception vits last month which might have affected things.

Ugh! Every month there's a curveball!!

DizzyN sorry your body is messing with you again! Is it just spotting at the moment? Hoping it doesn't turn into full blown AF. If it does, at least things are moving forward with the SA coming up next month. The timing for it isn't great but at least you'll get a break for a month which I'm sure will do you good and take the pressure off for a few weeks.
Yes to starting afresh with healthy eating today, I turned down some tasty looking cake at work this morning. Willpower!

Sammy and Boris sorry I keep lumping you two together! All that stuff with injections and glass sounds horrific! I knew that some self injecting was involved but didn't realise how complicated it was!

Squish sorry to hear that endo was mentioned but good that you're being referred and getting somewhere.

Blueberry good to see you on here! Sorry that you're still suffering but fantastic that you're finally getting the laparoscopy. Really hope it goes well for you, let us know how you get on.

Genghis that G&T sounds nice, I've recently discovered that I quite like gin! I hope you're sending the embassy your alcohol bill

I think I might be about to start bleeding again. I've been feeling moody/anxious which are standard for me before bleeding (period and anovulatory) and started cramping today as well. I've been desperately googling 'PMT symptoms and ovulation' but I think I'm clutching at straws. I'm only CD20, I suppose 2 whole weeks without bleeding is a lot better than I've been getting in the last few months.

DizzyN how frustrating. Not taking the pre conception vits did bring forward AF for me, by about a day and a half. Soy can mess with your cycle too, don't take it next month of you are worried.

Magpie, sorry you are struggling again. Hope the bleeding stays away.

Mummy hope the appointment comes through soon and they can diagnose and treat you.

Blueberry don't worry about being self indulgent, you've ever reason to be. Hope you are ok.

cheering boris and sammy on

squish I remember the first time the word endo was used by a medical professional. It felt awful, it was used so casually without much thought.

blueberry I hope your lap went well and that your not in a lot of pain. Remember to move little and often. It sounds like the worst advice but it really helps with the gas.

No news here. I'm cd16 so I guess I'm just starting the ttw. Fortunately we have a load of bathroom decorating to distract me with.

Blueberry I hope the laparoscopy went well? Hopefully you'll get some answers now.

Oh no about the spotting DizzyN. I didn't realise not taking the pre-conception vits would have an effect on your cycle. Will you take the soy again next month?

Good thinking about sending the alcohol bill Magpie! I hope you don't start bleeding again - 2 weeks off is good but still not right. Why can't our bodies just work properly?!

Squish sorry to read about the suspected endo, and hopefully the ultrasound appointment comes through soon.

Good luck with the decorating Bird - I hope the 2ww flies in.

Sammy and Boris still sending lots of positive thoughts to your blasts!