The one where we all get and stay diffed, and we're brooking no argument about it

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IVF#4 was my furthest Beedle. I lost that one at 9 weeks (RP followed at 11 weeks), but we knew there was something wrong from about 6-7 weeks. I've never yet made it to a private scan, nor have I seen an emby on screen. The only ones that made it to EPAU scan were either empty sacs or gestation sacs with just a yolk sac, no foetal pole.

The only AN threads I ever went on were Brooking ones so were full of lovely people :)

I'm not sure I'll join an AN thread. Am not sure I would find it helpful or fun to always be comparing what's happening to me with what's happening to other people at the same stage as me.

Have posted on the baby names thread a couple of times. I'm quite happy thinking about names at this early stage although won't start discussing with Mr Imps until after than scan at the very earliest (and will prob wait until after 20 week scan). It's nice to daydream by myself about things like that!

Geek lucky for you I am a very forgiving person so I am still brooking very very hard despite the fact that you have basically ripped up the Code on more than one occasion by failing to post photos.

Oooo do tell your names imps! Or am I going to have to search for the thread

I prefer to stick with the brookers I 'know' you all now, some of the others can be very clicky. Although when I've been on the ttc on pred etc thread they've always been lovely.

"imps even the Duchess of Cambridge stopped vomming eventually"

Pah, geek, I, however, don't!

Yes baetlett, it's exactly that, the thought doesn't really cross their minds that buying a pram at 6 weeks might not be a good idea. You've had an awful time too, I'm not surprised. And yes to being a Dr not helping, my dh often puts a downer on loads of things because of it... Luckily he doesn't deal with obs/gynae.

I can't believe you've been sick this whole time, you poor thing. Not long now

geek you'll see that beautiful heartbeat this time. You mark my brooking words

I'm hazy on the exact rules but I've peed on something so here it is, today's opk. I'm still not sure it's positive but looking better. I think it's not far off so might take that as a positive and jump dh when he comes in from the gym.

Oooh yes that deffo looks as though DH needs an extra workout when he gets home Trix

Hello my lovely lovely brookers!!

Sorry for such a long absence, my phone can't do MN as its pants and I've finally got myself a new iPad today after saving for a few months and my first job has been to check up on you guys

Massive massive hugs to Keep, Imps, Beedle and Geek!! I am from ear to ear with all your great news. I'm keeping absolutely everything crossed Geek, I really hope that spotting is just implantation.

Bartlet wow I can't believe you only have 2 months to go, it seems to have flown by

Loopy I am so sorry you haven't got your sticky bean yet. Big hugs, I really hope you get there soon x

Trix get smacking that rat

PS I love little kip, what a cutie pie

My Brooking baby has just woken, will be back in sec

Right I'm back again! I joined an antenatal group as the only pregnant after infertility group was really quiet and I needed to stalk/talk to other people going through similar stuff as I didn't want to tell people i was pregnant in real life until after 20 weeks. I must admit at first I was a bit lost and didn't really post as I couldn't identify with the others on there but as time went on it got easier and about 8 of us live near each other and meet regularly with our babies so I am glad I stuck with it. It's so hard though as you definitely don't have the innocence of enjoying pregnancy or getting excited like most people do

geek Its been so tough for you, at least most of my embryos were kind enough to either not implant or to give up before OTD. I'm brooking for a Lovely Little heartbeat in a few weeks time.

trix I hope there was rat-smacking last night

cups how Lovely to see you :o How is your gorgeous Little one and his cute hats?

I'm thinking perhaps all the really Confident/naive ones on my AN thread are already in the FB Group (I'm not) just leaving the ones who are working on Today I am pregnant behind here

cups ((((hugs))))) helllooooooo!!!

countess a loss of trust is exactly it. I had no pleasure with my last one, just overwhelming anxiety, and found it reassuring to read about others talking through their anxieties even if I wasn't posting myself, it helped me to accept it more.

Loopy I hope you are being gentle on yourself my lovely xx

imps I have stayed up all night, writing out the Brookers' Code 100 times. PLease forgive me

trix hope you got smacking that rat last night!

Thank you keep, I am marking them and hope I prove you right in a couple of weeks xx

Right, picture time...

That is a nice strong line geek :o

That is a lovely line Geek, well done for posting.

Cups it is always lovely to see you! How old is Z now? What a coincidence that so many people on your antenatal thread live close to you!

Trix what shagging news? THIS is totes your month.

Hope you're okay Loops - hopefully AF has been and fucked right off again.

Yes the rat was smacked last night! Will go for a bit more rat smacking tonight too.

Looking good there geek

cups lovely to see you!

Woo hoo Trix!

It seems that my vomiting had been replaced by heartburn - had it during the night and have got it a bit now. Something new to experience!

I've also decided that if the scan on Monday shows that Barry-Baxter is still alive, I will tell my boss and HR about it. However, I will wait until the anomaly scan is done and dusted before telling colleagues. I am still acutely aware of Mr I's sperm DNA damage and the possibility of this leading to abnormalities and I'm not close enough to anyone at work to want them to know if there's an issue with the pregnancy.

I dare say I am being overly cautious/paranoid, especially as I've been able to find no research that indicates a strong correlation between DNA damage and abnormalities, but given all that's gone before I cannot and will not believe that everything's fine until we've had the scans/tests.

Actually, I won't be able to believe that everything's fine if/until the baby's actually here, but I doubt that I will be able to hide my diffedness from colleagues for that long.

Do you Think you'll be able to hide it until 20 weeks imps Surely some nosey bugger will ask you in front of everyone Before then

I Think a tiny bit of my anxiety has been replaced with a bit of hope after yesterday's scan. But I know what you mean about not really believing that Everything is fine until I actually hold a baby in my arms.

I think you would be able to hide it until 20 weeks, physically, imps, it'll just be potential podge and no one would ask, surely!!

Glad to hear of the smidge of hope beedle

Nice lines geek

I was just thinking of my colleague at about 17 weeks when we came back to work after the summer holidays - I spotted it as soon as I saw her from the side, even though she was wearing something quite loose and drapey. Obviously I didn't say anything until she told me at the end of the week. But other people might not be quite so obsessed about other people managing to get pregnant Before them Though if you're not a teeny size 6/8 you might get away with podge imps

Geek all is forgiven, beautiful BFP! I never got dark lines on Internet cheapies. When are you going to have a scan? I had my first at 6 weeks as standard at my clinic but they made such a big deal that they only see the heartbeat in half of them that I almost didn't want a scan that early!

Trix excellent work!

Imps you might be able to hide it until then, I got a proper bump around 22 weeks I think it was and that's when I started telling people as I had a few funny moments with people and I felt like I was a bit mean making them squirm I could tell some of my colleagues and friends were dying to ask. I work in a very small team of around 6 people they all knew from the start as it was impossible to hide the IVF as appointments overlapped with work and I was unable to do a fair few of my normal jobs from early on. However they were sworn to secrecy and I didn't tell anyone else we worked with until 22 weeks. I also didn't tell most friends and family until after 20 weeks.

Z is great thanks, he's still a crap sleeper so I'm constantly exhausted. He's totally worth it though. He's such a funny little boy, full of smiles and he loves cuddles. He loves the dog and they cause lots of mischief together. We are in the middle of selling our house and have had an offer accepted so we are hoping to move in June. I'm also back to work in June so it's all a bit stressful

I will do my best to hide it - for example I have a big floaty cardi on today which I am using to cover up my enormous bloat.

Re: some bugger making a comment - my planned responses are as follows:

Colleague: "Have you got any news to share with us?"
Me: "If I had news to share with you, I'd share it with you."

Colleague: "You're looking a bit fat"
Me: "How fucking rude, you enormous twat".

Any other likely comments I'll have to fend off do you think?

Sounds like your covered there Imps! I'm almost hoping you get asked so I can hear the response

I got several "so what's new with you?" "Any exciting news" etc etc

I just said no news and kept a really straight face. I got lots of stares at my stomach and boobs too!

Oh someone asked me the other days what my news was (I don't think for a moment he had any clue about my diffedness) - I said the first thing which came to mind which was "Well I sowed my sweet pea seeds this morning" Perhaps I need to have some standard news to fall back on

Imps I am howling here at your comebacks, they are brilliant! So what about if someone asks you straight out 'are you pregnant then?'

Today was my day trip away with the WI, supposed to be forgetting about everything, except the gp calls in the middle of the afternoon and says they won't do the prescription. Thanks for telling me last Friday, when I had a chance to sort something out! Not exactly a happy bunny after that, and MrG even less so.