Strapping on our lady balls and going menkul because we HATE THIS SHIT!! The Berries: a lovely bunch of 30 something Ladybros TTC #1

[happylass]

The small print:

The Berries have strict entrance criteria: TTC #1 for 12 months+, over 30, NO instadiffers, must have a special pimping pot and absolutely no mention of baby dust/dancing. Not that we're fussy!

Current Ladybros:

Minx 35 - TTC 2.5 years. Stage 4 endometriosis, both tubes blocked, 1 buried ovary, IVF #1 started Aug '15 at Mustache Towers, if all goes well results due mid-Sept.

Smidge 39, TTC since Jan '13. Unexplained. Some high NK cell immune treatment. IVF#1 Short protocol Jul'14 BFN; IVF#2 Nov'14 and IVF#3 Feb'15 both Long protocol BFNs; Natural FET Jun'15 - Another BFN. Trying to work out what to do next.

Happylass, 37, TTC since Aug 2012. 2 failed ICSI cycles, 1 failed FET and 1 abandoned cycle due to poor response. Hoping to start antagonist cycle mid September. HATE THIS SHIT!!

Beaky 35, ttc 3 yrs, 2x failed iui 1 long protocol ivf cancelled, 1 short protocol IVF BFN, very low amh etc etc. In 2ww for 2nd sp IVF.

Tigerdog, 35, ttc since Jan 2013. Unexplained. IVF #1 chemical pregnancy. Currently redoing tests in preparation for IVF #2.

barkingtreefrog 36, ttc since Dec 2011. clomid bfp summer 2013 then mc @7 weeks, iui bfp summer 2014 then mc @6 weeks. Factor V leiden thrombophilia diagnosed at the repeat mc clinic. IUI bfn Jan 2015, IVF bfn April/May 2015. FET bfn August 2015, remaining frozen embryo perished. Pursuing private tests and then long protocol ivf in Oct/Nov.

Lumen, 35, ttc since Nov 2011, unexplained, two IVF cycles in 2014, both bfns, waiting for lap&dye and results of numerous bloods, aiming for one last IVF cycle.

Kuma - 40. TTC 2.9 years. Low AMH high FSH - DH antisperm ABs. Failed IVF June 14 and March 15, cancelled cycle June 15. Last try September 15

Lucieloos, 36, TTC 18 months, low AMH & sperm motility. ICSI#1, April 2015, Czech, 2xblasts transferred, BFN. Icsi#2, cancelled before EC. Icsi#3, 2 mature and fertilised, both to blast and frozen. Icsi#4 in October, embryo banking.

Rain, 34, ttc since March 2012. unexplained. Mystery bfp oct 13, MMC Nov 13. IVF#1 Aug 2015

Sesame, 40, ttc with no dp, on this road for 2 years, multiple failed IVFs, 3 ETs, 1 bfp then mc, poor responder with v low AMH, but still looking for the golden egg.

nolly, 33, TTC 3 years, 1 confirmed MC, 2 more suspected. still in limbo

Spare, 34, TTC 3 years, IVF#1 short protocol + ICSI August 14 BFP but pregnancy loss at 20+ weeks, 3 failed FET, IVF #2 short protocol + PICSI August 15

Funkymonk 33. Ttc since October 2012. Mc June 2013, Mmc dec 2013, mc June 2014. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Abandoned IVF Jan 2015 due to thin lining. Abandoned FET Aug 2015 due to thin lining. 4 embies on ice. Cycling again November time I think.

Clem, currently on 3rd Clomid Cycle

Pip - quite simply the Best In Show.

I can't believe that nosy secretary smidge! She sounds just like the awful somographer at my uk clinic who makes sarcastic comments all the time. The cycle we collected 7 eggs she asked if we were doing assisted intercourse which is basically what you do with only one or two eggs. Hate her so much. Really hope you get the last laugh over yours. People like this shouldn't be in these types of jobs.

Anywayy rung for my results this morning and looks like we are in exactly the same position as my last round of treatment. Of the 3 eggs collected only 2 were mature again, both of which fertilised. I was really hoping for 3 just to give us a tiny bit of leeway this time but it was not to be. She said they are developing well at the moment but it's so hard as obviously there is such a long way for them to go now and anything could happen between now and day 5. Feeling stressed!

Oh Lucie you've had a stressful morning. 2 fertilised eggs sounds good, ok it's not as many as you'd have hoped but it's better than nothing. FX they're growing happily now. Hope you can have a more relaxing afternoon.

Smidge what a bitch that secretary is (and your sonographer Lucie) how DARE she try and pry like that. I'm all for complaining these days after my experience, bloody email the complaints dept if only to make them aware that her behaviour has crossed the line.

I had a nasty receptionist at the Scan unit. The first time I went, I was sent there from A&E after going in with severe pain (which turned out to be my cyst). She looked me up and down and said "Do you think you can just walk in here and demand a scan?".... I was shellshocked anyway from the day's events and I just kept repeating "but the Doctor told me to come here..." like a pathetic child. She made me wait until the next day.

The second time, I was booked to see the consultant, and they had requested a scan for me prior to seeing him, but hadnt fixed a date yet. I was going away for a few days, so I wanted to call the scan unit to let them know in case they booked me an appointment for those dates. I was trying to be helpful. The same woman said to me "Did they not tell you there's a long waiting list for these things?".... erm, yes I'm sure there is, shall I ask my rupturing ovarian cyst to hold off until a more convenient time for you?

I'm almost hoping I get her again the next time I get scanned, because this time I'm taking her name and complaining about her. These people have NO idea the amount of added stress and upset they give to people like us.

This is this morning's pimp results. It doesn't look good does it berries. I'm going to go in and get myself another blood test this morning.

googs and lucie they should create a worldwide list of health dept people to avoid. It's unbelievable they have so little empathy.

It's hard to tell smidge, do you think today's line looks fainter? They look quite similar to me but it's hard to see from the photos. Try not to stress yet. Hope it goes ok tomorrow.

Crappity crap. As I feared, this morning's blood test came back with an HCG of only 33. Progesterone has also dropped. i think I was already losing it when I had the 175 result given by next morning my pee test was already quite light.

Life's so fucking unfair berries

Oh Smidge I'm so very sorry my lovely. As you say this is beyond unfair and so, so cruel. Sending a huge Berry hug to you and your DH. Take care

smidge I'm so so sorry That's so fucking unfair! I'm devastated for you.

Oh smidge I'm so so sorry. It's just so heartbreakingly unfair. Life can be so unkind.

Oh Smidge, I'm so sorry for you both. This is such a cruel thing to happen. Sending big hugs. X

Oh smidge I'm so sorry. It's the cruelest thing ever. You poor thing, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. Look after yourself lovely and take some time. We are all here for you

Oh Smidge how devastating, I'm so very sorry. Absolutely gutted for you. xx

smidge I'm so sorry, this is so horribly unfair.

So, so, so very sorry Smidge. That is utterly unfair and cruel.

smidge what a cruel and sad thing to happen. I'm so, so sorry. x

smidge I am so gutted for you . This is shit, no other words for it.
Let us know what AliG says tomorrow .

Does anyone know success rates for 1 vs 2 blastocysts transferred? Is there much difference?

smidge I'm so so sorry. Just utterly cruel and unfair. Sending berry hugs your way

Oh Smidge So sorry.
How are you?

Smidge I am so sorry. Life can be really unfair and utter shit. Big hugs

Clem Instadiffers don't know how bloody lucky they have it!

Sesame This is NHS treatment. I have no idea when I'm likely to start IVF, I guess the appointment I have on 26th Nov will be talking about that stuff. Will update here once I've been.

Barking You may be right about the pregnant woman I know overcompensating but as long as I've known her, she had always been steadfast about not having children. Maybe she's mellowed out a bit. Either way, good luck to her (I say through slightly gritted teeth!)

I've been keeping my head down and working like the proverbial bee trying to not think about ttc. The more I let myself think about the more it makes me anxious/angry/sad/frustrated/all of these things! I've started back at the gym hoping I can take my frustrations out on the bloody cross trainer!

Trying to get my head in a good place is proving a bit difficult at the moment, but I'll get there. I hope everyone else is coping as well as can be. Here's to a better week!

Smidge sending big hugs your way, I've been thinking of you loads and am so so gutted for you. Did you still get to see AliG today? Was she able to offer any helpful comments at all?

Sesame do you start stabbing today? Not sure if I remember that right... Also did you make it to the fertility show?

Tiger I hope you are enjoying your break, I'm so excited you've found the dress! Can you tell us or do you want to keep it quiet? I found I knew mine straight away but I tried on tons as it was a bit expensive and I wanted a cheaper one

Hello to all berries I hope everyone is ok. I'm not able to check back while typing as am sneaking on via phone at work.

Ant sorry your post hadn't come up when I started typing. Anyway just wanted to add that I find it swings and roundabouts in terms of having my head in a good place, I'll be honest and I would say it does get harder the longer this all goes on. But, it isn't like this all the time if you know what I mean. Sometimes it's so so shit understatement , sometimes it's ok. I do find the gym helps. And planning stuff in to look forward to!

Not good news from my day 3 results today. We have one embryo at 7 cells and the other at 4 cells. Last time at this stage we had a 9 cell and a 4 cell which both somehow miraculously made it to freezing on day 5 but I just feel really disappointed. At least last time I felt the 9 cell was doing quite well but it just doesn't look good at all now. So fed up and really don't know what to do next.

barking how did you get on Friday?

ant here's to a better week indeed! Hope the gym helps.

happy how are you getting on? Did you decide to temp in the end to keep track of your cycle?

beaky yes started stabbing today. Fertility show is next month, still thinking about it. When do you get the results from your blood tests?

smidge thinking about you. What did AliG say?

lucie those embies don't sound too bad to me. Fingers crossed for getting them too blast. Keep hanging on!

Some of my too old to know any better relatives went on the attack at the weekend giving me their helpful advice about the importance of passing on genes to the next generation, telling me to do ivf... Cos ivf=baby... everyone knows that witches How am I supposed to deal with this shit?

Thanks sesame, they are meant to be at least 7 cells on day 3 though and preferably 8-10 cells so the 4 cell is way behind and could have arrested and the 7 cell is just ok