Hi ladies, hope you're having lovely weekends
Rosebud I don't think you're being unreasonable at all. And esp if there were issues with his SA, it takes two to tango, and even if your engine did restart and ovulate, it can't fertilise itself. Hope you can cycle very soon and we're celebrating your BFP! xxx
stealth hoping you feel better soon
Vixx been following along on the IVF thread but OMFG wow, what an amazing haul. So excited for your embies and for your FET in January 
eighty hope you're also feeling better, you poor thing. Rubbish to feel rubbish - but hopefully it's not made any difference to your Clomid absorption. Keeping fx for you
AFM The TTC cray cray is reaching defcon levels, as I’m obsessing about my lining in a natural cycle. Every month that I’ve ovulated it’s likely my lining has almost certainly been too thin to be able to support a pregnancy, and so it feels like I’m missing every possible chance to try and get a natural BFP.
I’m taking L’arginine, high strength Vitamin E, baby aspirin and I’ve started, if you can believe this, as it sounds bonkers - using vaginal Viagra cream that many clinics recommend for thickening up lining. Viagra was originally developed as a heart medication, to do with dilating blood vessels, when it was discovered it had a rather different effect, the reason for which it is now best known and prescribed! However this also works on the blood flow to the uterus, if taken as a pessary or cream vaginally, and absorbed locally (doesn’t work if taken orally - and apparently you get all the horrible side effects and none of the benefits!) You can’t actually get pessaries or creams over here, a bit like DHEA, where it’s not sold or manufactured in the UK. So to get it in the right formulation, a clinic in Greece called Serum, who lots and lots of British women go to for IVF, liaised with an embryologist in Malaysia, who gets ‘V-cream’ manufactured over there (can’t call it viagra as it uses the generic, but it’s the same ingredient, just in a cream base). Mine arrived on Friday - it’s in little applicators, like a tampon (or pre-seed), and you just whack it up there, and hope it does its thing.
Completely OTT I know, but there’s a private ultrasound clinic about 10 mins from my office, so I’ve booked a £99 scan after work next week, to see a) if I’m gearing up to ovulate this month or if my cycle has gone wonky after the stims and b) if all of the above has made any difference to my lining, i.e. could I theoretically support implantation in a natural cycle.
Massively OTT and sounds utterly crazy I realise, but I feel so desperate after hearing how incredibly diminished my reserves are now - so feel like I can’t waste any opportunity I have to try and catch an egg, if that makes sense.
So will see if all the supplements and viagra up my chuff has made any difference at all - would give me hope that there is a chance I could conceive naturally at some point, maybe, possibly, one day - otherwise the months in between IVF cycles just feel completely wasted, if I’m ovulating but no chance of getting a BFP if we catch that egg!
Big hugs to you all
xxx