The BESH are cheating on Luck with Irony, all Hags aboard for the ironiclusterdiff of the decade (for the B's and the none B's!)

[Blue2014]

You know the drill by now ...

Rules of Entry - must be over 30, TTC no. 1 for over a year, be suitably evil and Hag like, willing to shout Cunt at the moon on regular occasions, consume extra gin when our fellow hags are unable to, and to get the nipple tassles out for any successful Hag ...

No admittance without a complete BESHtionnaire - see below.

I'm so bored!! Brno is boring, nothing is open and there is no English tv and it's cold and I've read mumsnet 15 thousand times!!

Your garden isn't yours?! Is this the house you were moving to?

How long are you over there for the clinic? Hope it all goes well.

I'm struggling with these drugs, I don't think they suit me. Feeling constantly sick, tired, moody, sad, and not sleeping (just ordered a washing machine at 4am, at least I'm productive in my insomnia). I'm also finding them really restrictive, 3 jabs and 6 vials, two jabs requiring mixing, means it's not so easy to jab whilst out and about. And painful. Not sure why, but I just can't find a jabbing site that doesn't really fucking hurt. This is my fourth round of jabbing (not including the fet as I didn't have to do many) so it's not like I haven't done this before, but I'm struggling this time. Had another intralipids drip on Friday as well. Scans on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, fingers crossed the horribleness has produced something. Not felt anything happening in the ovaries yet.

Oh barking, I'm so sorry it's so shit. I wish I knew the thing to make it better but all I know is that is very fucking unfair that you are having to go through this. Do the injections stop soon?

Yeah, the garden on the House we were buying. They didn't mention it on viewing but the searches suggest it's shared which I think decreases the value of the massively! Ah well, bigger fish (eggs?) to fry at present. Egg collection is tomorrow morning

Oooo, good luck for tomorrow!! Everything crossed

Thanks barking I'm shitting myself

Thinking of you today Blue.

Popping a head in to wish you all the very best of luck today Blue, I hope it goes smoothly and you get lots of lovely eggs. Should punch of solidarity. X

Fucking hell Hags. 3 eggs! 3!!! From 10 follicles. That's not right is it? We are supposed to be male factor, if I supposedly have no problems I should have produced much more eggs, right?

Blue, just popped by to say good luck! I have been festivaling and doing the ostrich.

I am not sure what three eggs means but someone more knowledgable will come along soon!

Thinking of you, hag!

Festivaling sounds amazing, much better then being in this boring town not drinking. I need Gin.

3 eggs isn't great, it's a pretty poor response and seemingly in line with people with very low ovarian reserve which the NHS said wasn't a problem for me. I had 10 follicles which from my research quick google suggests that 7 of the eggs were too poor quality to come out of the follicle. They collected on day 13 and the doctor inferred after that they needed to do so to prevent my larger follicle from getting too large and rupturing. I'm a bit heartbroken to be honest, it's bad enough that we have quite considerable male factor issues but now it turns out I don't have many eggs and they're probably shit too. And now I'm stuck hanging around waiting to see how these 3 get on. Dr didn't seem overly confident and told me to go on my planned trip to Prague as nothing that's getting weak by day 3 will be worth transferring so it's day 5 or nothing.

This is fucking shit hags

Oh Blue. I am so sorry you are going through this. Life is fucking unfair and you do not need this added stress and heartbreak.

Try and not make assumptions though, those 3 eggs may be good ones. Totally understand that you are feeling crap and want gin. I would too. How is Mr Blue dealing with it all?

He's seemingly doing well, he's a practical "let's see what happens with these eggs".l but he was shocked at the low number. First scan suggested there would be 17 follicles which dropped to 10 which led to 3 eggs.

I'm honestly just having the shittest day (and to everyone at home I'm away on holiday, I'm gonna have to return and pretend I had a nice time and there was actual stuff to do and I wasn't sobbing the whole fucking time)

Oh and there are babies everywhere in this bastard town

Why can't they transfer earlier? I ended up with only 2 viable embryos on my last round so they were both transferred at day 2 and we all know how that ended up. Interestingly that last round was also my worst in terms of my response. Previously I'd had many more follicles, eggs then embryos but never enough for my doc to take to day 5. He always transferred at day 3.

It's largely how the clinic works I think Fab, they're big believers in waiting til day 5 on your first round if it's not looking great because if it fails they have a better idea of why (seed or soil and all that)

You are my hope Fab. This round may not work for me but I remember the despair when it looked like this round wouldn't work for you and now you have a fablet (a teething fablet??) I hate hope but I've got to hang onto something - it's nice having you around

blue, sorry you've had a shitty result/day, hold onto bastard hope and let mr blue look after you. Think of fab

Thanks Coop, hope you are doing ok

blue IOTO.
That's all.
Although day 5 or nothing seems strange, do you get any say in it? I know someone who had two crappy looking embryos transferred on day 3 as that's all they had going, and it worked first time.

Sorry you're disappointed, I know that feeling of going in thinking you've got far more than you actually come away with. It fucking stinks.

It's not over yet hag.

I'm ok, sorry I've been awol everyone, I'm thinking of you all, I'm just not in a place where I can be on here regularly at the minute

hake of hope/cod of calm/squid of serenity all round hags

How are you today Blue?

Coop Good to see you and hope you are doing well.

Barking HAPPY MOVING DAY HAG!!

I am arranging to have an hysteroscopy so they can check the state of my uterus and endometrium (in case there are infections etc) before we do anything else. I am bricking it, hags. What if they say it is totally fucked, which would not be surprising after the battering it has taken the last few years?

2 fertilised - it's a start, I was looking at flights home assuming the worst. Just the wait til day 3 now. Lining is 10mm. I have tablets to stick up my Fanjo (literally a sentence I never thought I would say!)

Thanks for looking after me Hags.

Hope moving goes well barking.

Coop sorry to hear things aren't great, you know we are hear if you want us.

When is the hysto Erica? It's shit waiting for each stage assuming we will be told it's game over isn't it? I've no wise words but only a toe hold for you

IOTO IOTO IOTO!!

I think after my next period... just e-mailed the doctor today. Oh god, I am so scared.

Are you feeing a bit better today, Blue? Are you going to "use" both now?

It's horrible isn't it. I bloody wish I had something clever to say but I don't.

Just waiting to here more about our 2, I'm
Not really expecting both to make it, at this stage I would be thrilled with one. If they only make it to day 3 we may consider putting 2 in. Have also booked for AMH test on Friday, turns out NHS only do fsh and LH so it would be good to know.

Oh Blue, I am crossing everything for you!

The consultant saw my face when he told me why he thinks I should get an hysto and he said that most things that could pose a problem are "reasonably easy to solve", such as an infection that would be treated by antibiotics.

It would be a fucking joke that, that I have kept miscarrying because I had some stupid infection that gets sorted with penicillin. But I am sure that it is a bit more complicated than that or I assume it would have come up before.

Anyways, step by step.

Keeping everything crossed Blue IOTO! I'm so pleased that my story can be a little inspiration.