Candle smugglers of the world unite! The Berries have loaded up the charabanc and have Barry on repeat. Destination BFP (via the pouch of Douglas)

[happylass]

The small print:

The Berries have strict entrance criteria: TTC #1 for 12 months+, over 30, NO instadiffers, must have a special pimping pot and absolutely no mention of baby dust/dancing. Not that we're fussy

Current passengers

Happylass, 37, TTC since Aug 2012. 2 failed ICSIs. Hopefully FET early May with only frostie. Long awaited NHS appt in June
Beaky 35, ttc coming up 3 yrs, 2x failed iui 1x long protocol ivf cancelled due to poor response. On the pill awaiting short protocol IVF in may
Minx, 34, both tubes blocked, 1 buried ovary, IVF info evening June, IVF "booking in" appointment in July
Nolly, 33, TTC 2.7 years, mc Dec 2014. awaiting ivf August 2015 while dh is off on a jolly.
Wild 40 - TTC for three years. Embies on ice and planning FET with immune treatment in June.
HampshireBlues 36 TTC 3.5 years, unexplained. Cycle 1 chemical pregnancy, cycle 2 abandoned due to cyst, cycle 3 failed. Plan thrombotic profile, scratch and short protocol.
Lumen, 35, ttc since Nov 2011, unexplained, two IVF cycles in 2014, both bfns, waiting for lap&dye and results of numerous bloods, aiming for one last IVF cycle in the summer.
Tigerdog, 34 ttc since Jan 2013. Unexplained and all test results good. Currently in the middle of long protocol IVF, 13 eggs collected and awaiting news for next steps.
Gillster, 41, TTC since Feb 2012. Had IVF in Feb 14 and had 6 one cell embies frozen due to polyp. 2 x 2 day embies finally put back 14 months later on 16th April, BFP 28th April
Smidge, 39 this month, TTC since Jan 2013. Unexplained. IVF#1 Short protocol July '14 BFN, IVF#2 Nov'14 and IVF#3 Feb '15 both Long protocol BFNs. High NK cells immune treatment. 2 frosties due to be put back in natural FET in May or June.
Kuma - 40. TTC 2.5 years. Low AMH high FSH - DH antisperm ABs. Failed IVF June 14 and March 15. Looking to change clinic and try another natural cycle in June 2015.
Lucieloos, 35, TTC 18 months, low AMH & sperm motility. 1st ICSI in Czech Republic in April 2015. Awaiting results.
Barkingtreefrog, 35, ttc since Dec 2011. Clomid bfp summer 2013, mc @ 7 weeks. IUI bfp summer 2014, mc @ 7 weeks. Diagnosed with factor v leiden thrombophilia (but
not thought to be the cause of the mc's as they were too early). Failed IUI January 2015, failed IVF March 2015. No further NHS help. Going private for nk cells testing and a scratch before putting the frosties back, hopefully this summer.
Rain, 33 ttc since March 2012. unexplained. mystery bfp oct 13, MMC Nov 13. NHS IVF starting in June
Spare planning FET with remaining frosties shortly
Pont 1st IVF in Czech Republic in July.

Oh no Beaky . I'm so very sorry my lovely. It's the shittiest of the shit. Look after yourselves. Always here

Beaky I'm so very sorry; we are here if you need us

Oh no Beaky. What day are you on?

And if you are at work Beaks then think about going home.

Thanks berries, trying not to cry at my desk. It's 11dp3dt so 14dpo. The clinic blood test is on Thursday! I can't go home and have college straight after work too.

So sorry beaky. Sending you all my love x

So sorry Beaky. Look after yourselves. Try and take some time off later this week if possible as you need time to process this.

oh no beaky. oh no.

can you go home beaky? Much better to be somewhere where you feel safe at the moment.

Head to the loos for a cry if you really can't go home. Look after yourself.

Oh beaky I'm heartbroken for you.
Can you go home? Be kind to yourself

I'm so angry on your behalf. this is so unfair.

I'm with you there nolly I'm so angry that this has to happen to people.

beaky hope you're managing to get through the day. It must be so hard to be stuck in the office. Thinking of you so much today.

Thank you berries, you are all so lovely makes me even more emotional

That's what we're here for Beaky. Have a good cry on DH when you finally get home.

Oh no, beaky that's awful, and to happen at work too . I'm so, so sorry and also very angry on your behalf that it didn't work. Look after yourself as much as you can. Do you really have to go to college tonight?

oh beaky, I'm so sorry.

beaky been thinking of you. Are you alright?

barking I've just read your news about your dad too. I'm so sorry . What a horrible experience and so stressful and sad. How is he feeling in himself? How is your mum?

Oh fuck Beaky. Fuck it all in the arse. Twice.

Beaky, I'm so sorry to hear it didn't work. This process is so horrible and hard to endure

Barking, hope you dad is feeling a bit better.

Hb good luck for the scan, let us know how you get on.

My sample for the hidden infecrion test arrived in Greece today and they should have the results for me in a few days. I haven't even told DH I sent it off let alone he might have to take strong antibiotics for 3 weeks! I'm hoping it comes back negative but it probably won't!

been catching up on the thread. spare your consultant sounds really good. I'm inclined to agree with his assessment about antibiotics. There's are some very good reasons not to take antibiotics unnecessarily (antibiotic resistance; disturbing natural flora being just two of them).

Good luck for Wed HB. how are you doing otherwise? feeling OK?

pip that made me smile. I'm ok, I know I'm a geek but I love college so it helps distract me. Dh just took me for tea too. Thanks for thinking of me everyone.

Glad it cheered you up Beaky. I still agree with it.

Beaky - how horribly sh*tty life can be - I'm so sorry . Have wine, and chocolate, in abundance and anything else indulgent that makes you feel better.

Barking - thinking of you and hoping your dad is getting a bit better.

To all you Berries who have offered advice about a lightly stimulated natural cycle, thanks . I have decided that I will take them, as this really is my last try so I might as well try and increased my chances of getting more than one egg. I've been listening to all the R4 programs tonight, particularly the one about giving up trying and feel relatively prepared for that. DH has also just been offered a great position working with a company overseas so he will be away during the week for the next couple of years, so chances of a miracle natural BFP are out of the window too once we've done this cycle.

Big wave to everyone else.