I think I'm all caught up!
Purdey sorry for the BFN. I often wonder to myself if I am simply setting my body a challenge, just to prove 'I can'. DH and I have joked about it, as I'm not really a 'baby' person and don't coo over others. (Although I think that may be changing, as I have found myself gazing in wonder at babies in public places, or smiling stupidly when I see a toddler or little person trying to figure something out, or talking to their parents). I don't think there's anything wrong with the way you are thinking and I think it's a totally natural part of TTC. It is a challenge (for most of us) and it's absolutely fine to take on that challenge. Unless you're planning on adopting the young 'un put at the end of it, don't think anything of it!
Spinning I have my FX that you will find out more tomorrow. I am lucky in that my SIL and I are TTC at the same time and we are both having different issues, but we are talking about them. We have made a pact that each of us will be happy for the other if and when it happens for one of us. I hadn't spoken to any of my friends about it either up until a couple of weekends ago, but we all went out one afternoon and it came up in conversation, so I told them everything and turns out that the ones who had actually had kids (and one who is pregnant now) had loads of things to say and tell and it was definitely not an easy journey for 2 out of the 3. (The other one is just super fertile and gets pregnant if her OH even shakes his todger in her general direction 
) So I agree; we should be sharing these things and telling each other things, even in RL, but then I suppose it does add more pressure, so it's understandable that we don't. I still can't believe that I blurted it all out to my mum and dad the other night. My dad! Now he knows that I haven't had a period in 5 months 
Pug Hope you enjoyed your weekend away. Did you nick all the toiletries and the waffle dressing gown?
mrsb Glad it's good news from your IBD appointment; you can get on with everything now without that being another thing to consider :)
Mummy Good to have you back. Hope you're taking care of yourself my lovely 
Nomio I'm so sorry- I must have missed the funeral update. Hope you too are looking after yourself and that the snuggles with your nephew made you feel heaps better
Melon, spinning, Purdey, Victoria Nomio and Purple thank you for the info on the dildo cam. I don't think I'm having the one that needs the full bladder- it doesn't say anything about it on the letter, so I assume it's just the internal one. Do you think I need the external as well? Should I push for it? Or will the internal be enough?