The March Bus is rolling through Spunkland stopping for BFPs only!

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I'm weaning you guys off the gin, it's not good for the eggies! Instead we have some of Sparkly's green gunk!

Happy shagging/syringing!

I think I've completely missed my fertile windows this month. not because I didnt track my cycle but because we didn't dtd when we should. Plenty action leading up to it but my most fertile days fell on days that my son had some unsettled nights where we ended up tag teaming seeing to him. Combined with the sleepless nights we were too tired to dtd. Children are a great contraceptive! I'm not even going to bother with the 2 week wait this time as it would be a miracle conception!

mumof1 I'm just using ic's. will invest in some proper tests next week if no AF !

Purdey, I agree with what the others have said and you have achieved so much, admitting you're an alcoholic, seeking help and quitting is massive. You've 100% turned your life around. It's understandable for you to be nervous about your new job but I do think it will be so good for you and show you that you are capable and respected. You have so much to offer and I hope you find your niche soon.

Genni, with all this running talk I think I may head out in the morning. I love running along the harbour as the sun comes up. I might even take a photo for you all, that'll make me get out there

Oh and Genni, you must've nearing the end of the 2ww? How are you feeling?

congrats mrscat! You sound so happy which makes me

So sorry to MaMa, dojo and all those others for whom AF has arrived. AF is ridiculously heavy for me atm. Sigh. Oh well. This will sounds weird, but after years of not having an AF, I do appreciate it arriving as it does on schedule. Silver lining and all.

Purdey I'm with you on the mindfulness thing. My boredom threshold is sooo low and I can really identify with the holiday scenario - DH and I are both like that actually. Neither of us are lie on the beach types. I hope all the lovely messages have made you feel better, you seem to be a great source of comfort and advice for many on here.

MaMa I also had DD1 in London and then relocated to Melbs .

Big hugs purdey. Vent on here whenever you need to x

Coffeenut you're a local!? Hope I haven't outed myself! I should have guessed from your username...

And you got your BFP Amy so that makes me feel much better :)

You're safe MaMa. I don't know any local forensic psychologists .

Altho I wonder if you weren't on the Due Dec 2012 thread ..? Your username sounds so familiar.

Just checked and I am dry. Can I therefore assume that I ov yesterday/overnight and that today is 1dpo. Will try to dtd tonight but I think after that we will have to go back to spontaneous dtd as DH is getting frustrated.

spinning Yes go for your run and take a pic. I'll try to go one morning next week and take one in the park with the deer etc and the sun rising and share one too. Running along a harbour sounds lovely.
Well I was feeling ok, 12dpo and just waiting AF so I know what my cycles are doing, I'm not expecting any miracles this month as feel like my poor old body has been through so much this cycle post MC.

Except I've just done something really stupid. I found an ic amongst my opks - you know one of those free ones you get. I just used it and I think I can see the faintest of lines. But it was after about 20minutes and the line is so faint that I can barely see it and I'm 99% sure I'm imagining it. But I've gone from feeling ok to now stressing that I'm getting my hopes up and setting myself up for disappointment. Stupid, dumb genni! I don't know why I did it, I hate ics and I hate poas early even more!

Now I've looked again and can't see anything. So clearly my mind playing tricks. Luckily have no more tests so no risk of me doing anything stupid again!

Genni can you get more tests for the morning?

Night my DH gets frustrated too. I just told him the plan is to dtd every other day but he would rather it just be spontaneous

It is difficult Mum! DH has been up to it this week but he got a bit cross last night (still spermed me up though). Can't wait for fertile period to be over. Think this will be the last day :) good luck!

Thanks ladies for all of your lovely comments,
I have changed my doctor and the one I am going with won't be back till April , I feel she maybe more or active for me, I had a internal scan in December and was told everything looked fine and that the spotting would not affect my chance of conceiving which is crap!! I need to let me body rest and get the spotting fixed , I know that is what preventing me from having my baby and when that is sorted il feel better, il still pop in, and checking on you all,

Oh Genni, I've done it before, thinking you see a line and that amazement and excitement and then no line, it sucks! Is there definitely no line now? I'm really hoping there is
Ooh a run where you an see deer sounds lovely. Yes do it and take a pic, I'll remind you I will dig out my running gear tonight and if it's dry I'll go, not running in the rain

oh genni I do that too! I think I must be able to trick my mind into seeing lines!!!

We have nowhere nice to run near me really. If I hop into the car I can find nice routes within 10 mins... but I think that defeats the object sometimes! I wish I lived near the water. I live to run along the beach!

No there's definitely no line now. keep fishing it out of the bin and staring at it under bright light I'm glad I'm not the only one who does these stupid things though! This is why I hate ics - a frer is pretty conclusive either way IME unlike these stupid things!

spinning I'm a fair weather runner too!

wotsits if I have time I run to the park but if I'm short of time i have been know to drive there and then run- I know what you mean though I often feel like it defeats the purpose too.

Purdey that was me worried about bringing up ewcm at an unrelated GP appointment - will try and pluck up the courage though!

After yesterday's optimism I am feeling rather flat, despite this cycle having dtd in double figures at what I think is the right time. Just don't feel hopeful for some reason. I want to feel different, some sort of symptom, but nothing. Consoling myself with free kitkats at work...

I need to stop buying ics. They stress me out! Even the thought if having one in the cupboard stresses me out and makes me want to test... and then I spend more time than is acceptable straining to find a line. Any line. Even the faintest inkling of a line.

Do you know what else I hate? Symptom spotting. I cant remember what I felt like before AF so everything is a symptom! So damned annoying.

Seriously... its 2015. Surely there is something out there that can give you a definitive 'Pregnant' or 'Not pregnant' from, like, 1dpo! Or even a.. 'your egg has morphed into a blastocyst' or 'your egg has not been fertilised this time' result immediately.

I'm taking this idea to Dragons Den. I'll make my fortune!

Heir... I'd ask them about cm. No harm in asking. My doc must hate me. I only ever go when I've stocked up a few things to ask him about!!!

I feel the same this month. We dtd 11 times durin my fertile window (over 6 days) but I just dont feel it. 11dpo today and a bfn on an ic this morning. Free kitkats sounds a fab way to cheer up though!!

Still no AF here but PMT has disappeared which is a relief. Woke with a horrible cold but feeling more like myself. Temp was high this morning but I imagine that is down to a few glasses of wine yesterday and the cold. CD27 and think latest I oved must be CD13, my LP is usually 13-14 days and would be surprised if the Maca changed it...

Genni, snap, I poa ic last night but was definitely BFN. I had a dream that I got my BFP but by the time I went to show DH it had vanished.

Spinning, looking forward to your pic. I would love to live near water. My home town is by the sea and I really miss having it on my doorstep.

Rainy, sorry to hear AF arrived ttc truly sucks. I really hope your BFP is just around the corner.

Juney I’m glad you have ordered more sperm, I was worried about your safety with plan C! Sorry it costs you money though.

MrsCatMad Congratulations!! And good luck Glittery to test again.

Sorry about AF dojo, Wooly, MaMaPo, Dizzy

Good luck with your treatment abroad Lucie

Purple I am glad the scan went well. Adora Sorry if you have already said but what is your op for? To improve fertility?

Rainy Sorry you are feeling so rubbish and getting off thebus, I hope you will continue to ttc but without the stress of all the monitoring.

Night I only see wet and ewcm by looking for it. But get creamy in my pants.

Purdey I know we aren’t speaking about it anymore but I would recommend pushing your sexy GP for a CBT referral or some to get some support or a referral to a talking therapy support group – not necessarily mindfulness and Juney’s suggestion of using the third sector is great too, there are some brilliant organisations out there to help. You are wonderful and we all love you. I don’t think anyone warns you to the fact that you may not want to be stuck with your little bundle of joy constantly and can leave us feeling very unfulfilled, having a job helped me hugely in having an identity other than “Mum”. I hope you find some joy soon, we all adore you.