April TTC girls head into September - Autumn and BFPs here we come

[iamdivergent]

Stats so far (you know me, probably wrong! Argh!)

Steph1204 TTC # 1, 2nd cycle, BFP 12 june, EDD: 20/2/15
lillamyy1 TTC #1 cycle 4 BFP 11/8/14 EDD 18/4/15
Ducky23 TTC#2, cycle 1 BFP on April 17th EDD 25/12/14
Cupcake92 TTC #2 Cycle 4 BFP on July 22nd 2014 EDD 05/04/14
LuluJakey1 Age 35 TTC#1 Cycle1 BFP Late May?? EDD 04/01/15
bearsinmotion ttc#2, BFP 26 June, EDD 25/02/15
Poppet85 ttc#1 cycle 3 BFP 5th June EDD 10/2/15
Kitkatkaty87 ttc #1, cycle 1, BFP 7th June EDD 15/2/15

iamdivergent ttc #3, heading into cycle 8 (BFP/AF around about 24/08)
MrsPopple29 ttc #1, cycle 5 (August)
Me624 cycle 4 (?)
21questions ttc #2 (cycle 1 august) Age 30
ToriB34 Age 34 TTC #1 (mmc July)
bradders
Siarie, TTC #1, cycle 2 not sure when AF due as last cycle was irregular
LenaW2109 cycle 6
CP1299 I am 35 TTC1 cycle 1
Tylastar TTC #1
Macmissy Age 34 TTC#1 Cycle3 (+ cycle 3MMC Aug 14)

The successful list is getting so much longer - fx for the rest of us!

Oh no tori

Hope your DH doesn't act like that often! And hope you sort it out quickly!

How are you monitoring ov?

Oh no Ducky and Tori :( I hope u both make up with them soon.

Mines in the bath. I'm very tempted to make a cup of tea and a few nibbles and hop in bed to watch tv.

I'm having to pop and see my nan tomorrow it'll be 1st time I've seen her and my grandad since we lost the baby. My great nan is also there and she never knew I was pregnant. I've got to explain to her what's happened as well. Think it's going to be a tough day. But I'll get through it :)

Tori do u know when u Ov'd straight after ur mmc?
I've no clue when I could ov :s

Well, we are having an early night. We ran upstairs to bed together about 9 0'clock. Nothing romantic unfortunately - there is a giant daddy long legs flapping around downstairs and we are both terrified. The bedroom door is shut and we are just hoping one of the cats catches it and eats it during the night.

We are lying with the fan on - it is really hot but we are scared to open the windows incase one comes in upstairs too. DH has been pretending he is a daddy long legs and is going to get me and I have been shrieking. I know it is pathetic but you have never seen two people run upstairs as fast as we did.

I had to go for a pee and DH kept guard in the doorway so we would know if it had come upstairs. Then he nipped in and I kept guard. He can deal with small daddy long legs but this is huge. I can deal with ones that settle in one place- I catch them in a glass and slide a postcard underneath and put them outside- but this one was flapping like mad.

So we are stuck!

He did say 'Fancy a shag Lu?' and I said 'Not really' and he said 'Me neither'. So I am on my Ipad and he is reading.

What an exciting life we do lead.

Cupcake hope it's all ok tomorrow x

Tori, has this been an ongoing thing? Or could it be heat of the moment?

Lulu hope your cats get it! If there were spiders about I used to let my rats loose, they'd soon find them and eat them up! Bugs scare me!!

Tori- why has this happened? He sounds ok usually and you have just spent your wedding present money on your bedroom haven't you? Or am I getting confused?

Is it not just a row? We all have them. Surely it isn't that awful? I say this as someone who has slept in the spare room 3 nights this week in irritation with my DH but I love him really.

Ducky, your DH and his anger would scare me. I hate angry men. I just start to cry and then get angry myself from being scared. One thing about DH is he hasn't got a temper. Doesn't stop us arguing but we don't shout or get really angry.

It can be quite scary lulu

I've noticed since I have been with him I have changed, I am a lot more timid and nervous around people, but it's taken me a long time to realise

We keep looking at the door Ducky as if it might turn the door knob and get in somehow or squeeze through a none existent gap.

They scare me more than any other insect except cockroaches- which I used to come across at work and could make me hysterical- and large moths (anything over half an inch).

I can deal with spiders, bees, wasps, as well as mice, voles, shrews, bats, frogs and toads which the cats bring in. But daddy long legs and moths terrify me.

I think that is what happens with angry men- women begin to try to keep the peace and please them and end up tip toeing around them incase they upset them and put them in a bad mood. It is a horrible feeling- like you can't express yourself. Then they end up in control with you dancing to their tine (I mean 'you' generally). I am never going there again. I lost all of my confidence with someone like that. He never hit me but his moods could change in a second and I was on egg shells. I could never say what I felt or if I was upset by something incase he got upset and angry.

Tori I hope everything is okay

And lulu u always make me laugh!! I hate all sort of bugs I do lol! I have panic attacks over spiders it's awful!

Ducky do u feel u and DH have become completely different people now?

I'm definitely not the same person I was when i first met DH. I'm so much more quieter as well.

Oh tori so sorry your going through this. do you think your h could have been affected more than you think about what you went through and is taking it out on you? Or is he just being mean?

Cupcake I think we both are completely differnt, I think I'm to blame for his behaviour, the first few years we were together I let him walk all over me and get his own way, I did anything he wanted at the drop of a hat to please him and now he has got used to that lifestyle

Oh Tori, we all say things when we are angry. DH has wanted a baby for about 3 years now and I haven't- for lots of reasons. There were times I thought I would never want one although I would have had them for DH because he really wanted children. Your DH might be scared after losing your baby. The first week I was pregnant I was quite horrified at what we had done- I was scared we'd destroyed the lovely life we had and that I would be a rubbish mum (I am still scared), but I can't wait now.

He did ask you to marry him and he did want to try for a baby. He is just having a wobble because it hasn't all gone swimmingly and he likes to not deal with problems. Do you think he wants you to reassure him that he will be a good dad?

Ducky you are not ever to blame for his behaviour. He is to blame for it. He has created this situation, not you. He is the bully and controlling person.

How old is he Tori?

Ducky I also agree with lulu and Tori, ur not to blame for his behaviour at all.
Tori I'm sorry things aren't going well with DH :( do u reckon he is finding things hard and just blurting all this out or? My DH did that when we first started TTC. He even told me it's over I should leave. But then apologised the next day and said he was scared about going through pregnancy all over again. (He had a right to be scared and worried tbh as it did all fuck up)

Life's never smooth and simple is it?
Tho I bet we all wish it was.
I hope everyone sorts things out

Ive been up since 3:30am DS had a nightmare and is refusing to sleep.

Hope things are better today tori x

Bloody great. Another royal baby :( perfect timing to announce this. And she's not even quite 12 weeks yet so just u wait....it'll be the same due date as my baby.
:( right when it's all raw.

Hi everyone! I've been absent from the thread for most of this month - I was feeling quite stressed about ttc and decided to take a little break.

I'm back now though! Only caught up on the last few pages and really sorry to hear about all these rubbish DHs

I'm just starting my 2ww. DH and I had a really good month and dtd every day but one in my fertile period. I'm really keeping everything crossed for this month, mainly because if I haven't managed it then AF will come at the beginning of our holiday to Italy which will be a real pain.

As ever my cycle isn't exact but it's generally between 30 and 32 days. So AF is due between the 17th and 19th.

If it doesn't happen this month, next month will be cycle 6 and I think I'm going to start opks. We said we'd try for 6 months just taking it easy and only start the science if that didn't work. I thought it would be easy and I wouldn't need to get here but here we are so ...

Hi Me, good to see you again :)

Sorry Tori, hope things are a bit better this morning. DP and I don't often argue, but he says horrible things when we do, like we are incompatible and would be better off apart. He regrets it later, but I don't see the need to say it at all - I have pointed out, if he ever hears me say it, I will be packing the next day. Different people argue in different ways, it's hard to know who means what.

Really angry today, I take thyroid meds and I asked my doctor when I went in to fill in the forms and get referred whether I needed to increase my dose.

He said he didn't know as he wasn't an expert in that area but that they would decide when I had my booking appointment. I've just found our after looking online and speaking to a friend who also has the same meds that you should up your dose straight away after the BFP.

So I called my doctor to be told they couldn't call me back as I was in another country. But then after lots of being put on hold I got through to a doctor who confirmed I should be on a higher dose.

The worst part is it can cause a MC or effect brain development being on too low a dose. So I'm glad I have a scan next week and just really pissed off!