April TTC girls head into September - Autumn and BFPs here we come

[iamdivergent]

Stats so far (you know me, probably wrong! Argh!)

Steph1204 TTC # 1, 2nd cycle, BFP 12 june, EDD: 20/2/15
lillamyy1 TTC #1 cycle 4 BFP 11/8/14 EDD 18/4/15
Ducky23 TTC#2, cycle 1 BFP on April 17th EDD 25/12/14
Cupcake92 TTC #2 Cycle 4 BFP on July 22nd 2014 EDD 05/04/14
LuluJakey1 Age 35 TTC#1 Cycle1 BFP Late May?? EDD 04/01/15
bearsinmotion ttc#2, BFP 26 June, EDD 25/02/15
Poppet85 ttc#1 cycle 3 BFP 5th June EDD 10/2/15
Kitkatkaty87 ttc #1, cycle 1, BFP 7th June EDD 15/2/15

iamdivergent ttc #3, heading into cycle 8 (BFP/AF around about 24/08)
MrsPopple29 ttc #1, cycle 5 (August)
Me624 cycle 4 (?)
21questions ttc #2 (cycle 1 august) Age 30
ToriB34 Age 34 TTC #1 (mmc July)
bradders
Siarie, TTC #1, cycle 2 not sure when AF due as last cycle was irregular
LenaW2109 cycle 6
CP1299 I am 35 TTC1 cycle 1
Tylastar TTC #1
Macmissy Age 34 TTC#1 Cycle3 (+ cycle 3MMC Aug 14)

The successful list is getting so much longer - fx for the rest of us!

Actually yes! Were going to our usual annual trip South of France and the weather looks really good right now. Some years we get a bit of rain and sun but it's more of a family holiday with the PIL, we go away somewhere else for really good weather.

If this bean sticks I'll be in Antigua when I'm about 19-22 weeks! Which was completely planned. Antigua is a long flight from the UK so that's the only part I'm crossing my fingers about lol!

Good luck Iam and 21- it is not over until AF arrives.

I stopped off in the village on the way home from work to buy some cheese for DH at the deli. As I walked back to the car, I spotted him coming out of the florist with a beautiful bunch of flowers- all blues and purples and dark pinks. Awww!

He didn't see me and I called over. He came across smiling and said ' Just the person- I've got these for Elizabeth. Can you drive me round there love?'

Elizabeth is an old lady we met in Sainsbury's a while ago. She lives by herself and he calls round once a week to check she is OK. She is in her 90s.

I must have. looked a bit surprised because he suddenly realised and said 'You didn't think these were for you did you?'
I said 'Don't be silly, of course not'.

I dropped him off, came home and he has just rang to say he is staying for afternoon tea!

Have a lovely time Siarie! :)

And keep going Iam! A bfp is still possible!!

Aww lulu how nice of ur DH! Bet the elderly woman loves the company :)

I'm back had a lovely lunch with my mother, my auntie and uncle and cousins came too :) was really nice. And I've brought DS his cute little outfit for the wedding tomorrow. It makes him look so grown up!

Have a nice time siarie.

Sounds like you had a lovely afternoon cupcake, just what you needed. Have you got your outfit sorted for tomorrow?

Thats so lovely of your dh lulu. He is so thoughtful I bet he made her day.

I'm still getting such bad morning sickness :( I hate this :(

How's everyone this morning?
Sorry about the bfn iam - but no AF is a good sign!
Glad you had a nice time with your family cupcake. I was so shocked about your dh - let's all hope he keeps it up! I hope either your sickness goes away or it's a good sign
Have fun on holiday siarie! Hope you don't feel too sick on the flight.

I'm still off work sick and at my mum's but the ms does seem to be subsiding a bit - I can drink tea again now! I'm going back to bristol on Tuesday and I'm nervous because me and DP have been arguing so much I really don't want to go back and have more rows. We've been talking about moving house so we can save some money, but to be honest part of me is wondering if I should really be signing another lease with him. I've felt a few times in the last few months that I don't want to live with him because it's not really worth it for all the arguments! But the only alternative if I want him to be involved in the baby's life is to live in the same city but just me and baby in a studio flat. Every time we argue we nearly break up! What if we did break up and I was stuck in a rental contract with him so had to carry on paying the rent?

Hardest day ever today :(
Went to the wedding today.
Everybody loves DS and kept saying to me and DH , "ooo he'll need a brother or sister soon won't he!" :( :( :( :( breaks my heart, DS had a brother or sister but that brother or sister hasn't made it :(
Was so hard.

How is everyone?
Nobody spoken today!! :O apart from lilla. Lilla, do what u thinks best, I'm not the best at giving advice on this as I'm in same position but I know I probably won't have the courage or strength to leave. Ur right to think about whether to get a new lease as it would he harder if U broke up having that. Just make sure ur happy :)

Oh sorry cupcake that must have been very difficult for you. Has DH been ok with you?

Lil, in in the same boat as cupcake, but maybe if you find yourself questioning your relationship it's best you didn't get that lease, but I also know it's hell of a lot easier said than done x

af has just arrived at cd35. longest cycle by 2 days since ttc. cycle 9 here we come.

aw cupcake that's sad people can be so cruel even though they don't know obviously but it must still hurt bet ds looked super cute I his little outfit

Sorry Iam

It was horrible :( had to sort of quickly change the subject or start playing with DS to stop myself crying. But DH has been very supportive today surprisingly. But he said when we got home he felt like someone was stabbing him in the heart every time they mentioned about DS needing a sibling. He's taking this a lot harder than I thought he would.
But yes DS looked adorable!! He had such a lovely checkered shirt on :)

Sorry AF came Iam :( come on bfp next cycle! I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for u.

Sorry Cupcake. Must have been hard. Good to hear DH is being a bit more open about his feelings and supportive. I bet DS looked really cool.

Sorry Iam. Hope it is next month. You must be really fed up. It will happen.

I have had a really quiet day. DH has been on a long bike ride with his pal. I have cleaned the house downstairs really thoroughly and done the shopping. Made his favourite tea. He is soaking his aching muscles in the bath and I have watched the X Factor.

I have felt a bit scared today. There was a couple in Waitrose with a screaming toddler that had a complete tantrum and I just thought I won't cope. I am no good with things I can't control! And I hate not getting my sleep. What have I done?

I feel better now DH is home. I told him and he made it all seem manageable.

Thanks all

Sounds like you had a tough day cupcake. It must have been very difficult

iam sorry af got you. Fx next month will be your month.

Omg I've woken up as I've heard something strange on the baby monitor. So I went to check DS and he was crying and whimpering in his sleep! :( bless him he seemed so upset! So I've picked him up and been sat cuddling him. He's still asleep tho not woken up or anything. I feel so sorry for him, bless him!

Cupcake
Finally checking in after being on hols/ busy at work and was so sad to read your post :-(
I hope you are ok. You poor thing. Sending virtual hugs.
Have been supporting a close friend who went through the same after cycle 1 IVF. I remember when she phoned me to say there was no heartbeat that I was the one who burst into tears- she was/is so incredibly strong. I know you will find the strength too. Remember you have a lovely DS.
I have not wanted to say anything but reading the posts about your DH's behaviour in the past has made me cringe. I know you say he is young and some of it is immaturity but his behaviour has really been terrible. I was doubly shocked when I read that he cooked and tidied after your scan. But I wonder why he is not more like this more often.
So maybe take this time to consider what you want for yourself, whether this man deserves to have you/and another child with you. Be kind to yourself. You seem to be a wonderful mother and wife. And as I said before you deserve much better treatment from your DH.

Has DS been OK once he woke up Cupcake? Maybe he was having a dream.

I am still cleaning- it is the end of the holidays and work again tomorrow. Usually the first day is a training day but we are straight in with the school all back.

As usual, we both have work to do today in prep. I am avoiding it by cleaning but the kitchen is gleaming

Have a nice day!

Thanks CP :)
I just want to get through this first before thinking of decisions and things :/
Me and DH have decided to ask for a scan picture on Thursday. In memory of our baby. We feel it's the best way to help us get through it.

Lulu DS has been fine since he woke up bless him. But ur right it must have been a dream.
I can't believe school starts back already lulu! It's flown by these holidays! Hope tomorrow goes well for u :)

:) to me a baby is a baby, no matter how many weeks it was. So a picture would really help. Glad I'm not the only one who thought of it.

I'm not doing too bad today thank u, but that's probably as I'm so exhausted I'm just waiting for bedtime haha. Hope ur okay too.

Hope everyone's had a good day :)

Hi everyone

Hope everyone has had a good weekend

Think I overdid it a bit this weekend and am paying for it big time now

Did you overdo it having a good time or working hard Ducky?

I have gone mad cleaning and am knackered but can't sleep because it is back to work tomorrow and I teach 5 lessons and have my tutor group the other lesson, followed by a dept meeting at the end of the day. And we have two new staff in my dept.

DH has a training day at his school.

Hi everyone, I hope your weekends have been nice.
Cupcake so sorry to hear how upsetting the wedding was it's a very difficult time but I'm sure you're strong enough to get through it. I agree totally that a baby is a baby however early on it is, but I hope you can take some comfort in it being too early for the baby to have felt or known anything, as From what I understand his/her nervous system and consciousness wouldn't have developed yet
Sorry AF got you iam I forgot, have you been charting ov etc?
Thanks for the advice Ducky and Cupcake. I think I'll suggest we look for a 2 bed so if one of us moves out the other can get a new housemate. But I reckon things will improve we have a little someone else to think about. Trying to be positive! Ducky, how's your dh been recently? I'm so glad yours has pulled his socks up cupcake - and it says a lot that he's so upset with your loss as well. It shows he must love you and want another baby with you even if he doesn't often show it!

Oh no Lulu just read your post! I hate going back to work after time off too - I can't ever sleep if I know I've got work the next day and I'm out of the swing of it. Good luck!