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A group of lovely ladies who've seen it all

Oh Joy. I'm quietly excited on your behalf. Your body sure does want to try to get pregnant. Have faith. Whereabouts up north are you, are you far from one of us who might have some bullets? Or another Ivf clinic? I'm sure it won't be a problem but it might be worth looking into briefly?

Ray it's such a hard slog isn't it, I so understand that feeling of brick wall syndrome when all you really want is things to fall into place. I like that advice to critter recently. All you can really concentrate on is on doing all the right things.

And thanks, am ok. I thought something was happening this month but think it's just the progesterone feeling different in my new spacious interior.

joy! I've teared up a bit on reading your news. A line is a line. I know it's terrifying and I didn't believe I would actually get a baby until she popped out (and was v shocked in the delivery room that there was a real baby!) but it's a start. I have a v good feeling about this for you. Yay!! I'm so bloody pleased. Could you call your clinic re the druks? Do you have some fanny candles with you?

ray so sorry that the cycle didn't work out. It must feel utterly defeating, but timings must be hard in a natural cycle. I hope you are ok.

I too had the 'vision' of my child - a little girl who looks a lot like DH- and it actually seems pretty accurate. So do hold onto those thoughts. It helped me to keep going through the cycles as I felt sure I'd meet her one day.

Sorry for crap catch up. We still don't have proper interweb. Joy I'm still so pleased for you and here for all the hand holding x

Oh and critter I'm thinking of you lots too, lovely lady. Hope you are holding up ok.

ash thanks ladies. it feels surreal because i don't feel different and boobs have stopped hurting so it doesn't feel right. so wondering whether it's a chemical. i'm in Sheffield and don't have any progesterone bullets either...honestly thought it was pointless bringing everything. was wondering whether i could do a drive by Care in Sheffield but not sure they would just hand them out to a total random.

cos - are your temps still high today?
ray - thank you .
nelly - you must have your whole scheduled planned for this month now ...how are you feeling? oh i don't get a blood test with this round. if i get to wednesday which is 20dpo and OTD i will pay for one.

gin - thank you so much. it still must feel surreal to have a baby.

Joy is your clinic open today would they link up with Care to confirm you're not just a progesterone junkie? I know I've been told in the past that a day or two won't make much difference but it might be peace of mind.

No my temp dropped this morning but am pleased with my chart for the past week

uuum that's a really good point Cos. i will do that. thank you. (and what a habit to have ....progesterone junkie indeed!)

cos - that's excellent news on your chart for this week. Your body must be getting back to normal now.

Oh joy that sounds so like my story. All my symptoms disappeared too and I was so sure that the screen on my 6 week scan would be blank. It didn't even seem real when they hauled her out of my in the operating theatre. It's hard to believe it really might happen when you have had a long hard road. I so, so hope this is your time.

critter I completely understand your fears. My reaction when I got a BFP on my last cycle was not "yay happy happy" but a resigned "here we go again". Once you have had a pregnancy loss of any kind I don't think you ever feel the same. Are you still planning on holding out until Monday?

The dog distraction plan sounds like a good one. I would be very jealous. I would love a dog.

ray I am so sorry to hear of more rotten luck for you. I hope you get to do another natural cycle soon.

Eugh foxy. That is not what you need. There seems to be a lot of it about.

pout that brought a tear to my eye.

cos the health kick sounds good! I need to wean myself off my biscuit and cake diet soon. Sorry about the arctic stick though. Meh.

The sleep when the baby sleeps stuff is definitely a myth! I have never been good at daytime napping anyway. Breastfeeding never really took off for us - she gets it occasionally but not reliably. So I am still expressing, but it's ok. I've been doing it for so long now that it just seems normal and I don't really mind it any more.

joy agree with gin a line is a line :), how long are you away for?? I could post you some arse bullets if you are away for a week or so. Also not all women get symptoms, you could be one of those although they are reassuring

cos sorry about the arctic stick

ray you having a rough time getting your baby but don't give up, it will happen :)

pout your post made me tearful

euro yes agree with the napping when they nap is crap, never managed it myself, as long as you are happy to express then do so b+u-9t ther+-+

sorry little fingers are trying to help. . . .

but formula is quite good too, BB loves the disgusting stuff

critter my fingers are crossed for you on Monday

fox hope you are feeling better

Joy! That is amazing news. Totally agree that it's worth trying to get your hands on some progesterone pessaries if you can - you will be producing your own progesterone (unlike me with my frozen round) but you still want to support this pregnancy. I have also heard that you can't overdose on progesterone so it won't do any harm. I would definitely call your clinic and ask them to call in a prescription for you at the nearest chemist. I have heard that every pregnancy is different so it doesn't seem strange to me that you feel different. Oh love hold tight. Blood test is Tuesday for you right?

Ray I am so sorry this is all so difficult - it really is Sod's law you might be away next month. You're going to get there though. I truly believe that.

Cos I am sorry about the arctic stick and I hope you had a nice relaxing day yesterday. The health kick sounds great. I just bought a juicer and it's my new favorite toy.

Pout I love hearing about your hounds! Little Dog sounds gorgeous. I've never watched breaking bad, worried it's too dark for me.

Euro that's exactly it. I don't think I will ever 'enjoy' any aspect of pregnancy again like I did with James when I was so confident and happy all the way through until the end. Oh well. I don't have to enjoy it, I just have to get the prize at the end!

Buzz I did smile at the mini bee induced typo at the end of your post.

Sorry to everyone I've missed, on phone and can't scroll back. All ok here. 15 dpo and still panic at cramps. But going to wait until Monday for the blood test and just plod on until then.

My dad is worried that terriers chase small furry things and kill them... When I said that babies weren't furry, he said 'they are if they are wearing homemade knitted things'

critter it makes a change from the cat sitting on my laptop and chganging the screen setting to sideways :) FIL told me that I couldn't leave the cat and the baby alone, 'I said well there goes my free babysitter' he wasn't amused

Sadly enjoying pregnancy is something 'other' women seem to enjoy, its a journey and what you want is the final destination

Joy!!!! This is amazing. Good old doctor try new things. Wishing you a super simple symptom free nine months, I really am.

Critter, no period is a very good thing and hoping you and joy can be bump twins so much.

Pout, the missing children feels so true to me too. I get little flashes often. Gin it's lovely that your vision is with you know, I loved hearing that.

Ray arse that you will be away, but in hope it's somewhere lovely.

Cos shifts to your bbt sounds really promising but sorry about the white stick, mean things that they are. My thermometer battery finally died after nearly four years of ttc. I felt quite insulted that it's come to that!

My cold is going. And that is about all the news I have to report! I should really contact the clinic at some point. Shudder.

Joy - oh wow, that is just wonderful. Positive thoughts now, this little embie IS doing its thing. Don't worry about lack of symptoms. Each pregnancy is different and you have been pregnant before so some of the stretching is already done. I am quietly thrilled for you and giving you tight squeezy hand holds.

Critter - things sound good if you have got to 15 dpo. Roll on Monday. Exciting to hear your furry friend news.

Pout - totally get what you mean about not being able to get to your baby. I'm so sorry. It's a torment. There is a book called spirit babies which, although I haven't read, I'm told is about this very topic. I use to feel / see my babies too. I got the gender wrong but the hair and facial features are very much like what I use to imagine. Hold on tight. Whilst ever you want to keep dtd, there is every chance. Thinking of you. xxxxx

Ray -I understand the feeling that every step is met with a huge hurdle. You have every right to feel angry and fed up and sometimes I think its ok just to say yes......that is bloody awful rubbish bad luck of the highest order. I'm so glad you will get another round and when you feel ready to go again you will know that the problem last time was sheer bad timing, much like the case for anyone who is dtd in the old fashioned way. So next time will be better because so much can be learnt for the better. Big big hugs my lovely.

Rabbit - glad the horrid cold is easing a little. Hope you're doing ok.

Cos - I like your thinking. Good cycles are the building blocks for conception. Every little milestone is a step towards your baby. And well done on the health kick. Making me fee I ought to stop being a slum bag and allowing myself daily treats which I don't need. I can do better.

Gin, Buzz and Euro - great to hear from you all. Loving baby bees typing skills.

Just coming on to say congratulations to Joy. What wonderful news. I know a BFP comes with it a lot of worries but I'm quietly confident for you and this is your time. Hoping for a bumper crop of BFP on this thread for all the 10 plus ladies.
Lots of love and only good wishes to you all. x

joy - I just saw the news. Congratulations. I don't know if it's reassuring, but I had 0 symptoms throughout my pregnancy with mini and a ton with the other one

Critter - best of luck.

Hugs, handholds and waves to everyone.

Buzz- that's so sweet of you. Just bombed it home and put a triple dose of progesterone into me. I'm hoping 36 hours without it will have been ok.

Critter - am thinking of you. Are you doing a test at home or having bloods done.? Xx

Fox - glad your cold has gone. I hope the clinic looks after you properly this time and don't put you through 3 months of downregging again. Grrr.

Sweet - did you have sore boobs though?

Thanks for all your well wishes ladies. Found a pharmacy in some really dodgy area last night and they sold 2 sticks or litmus tests more like for £1. It was positive this morning. Still zero symtoms. But can't stop touching my breasts which have shrunk. Embarrassingly Roy saw me giving them a good squeeze in church (inappropriate) and asked me what the hell I was doing. Anyway will try not to think about this too much. Worrying is not going to change the outcome.

And sea thank you. Aren't you due about now??

joy - I had zero symptoms: no sore boobs, no nausea, no increase or change in cm, nothing. I was convinced they wouldn't find a heartbeat and I would have a giant empty uterus when we did the first ultrasound.

Joy - ha ha ha at boob squeezing!!!! Seriously the boob thing in pregnancy is overrated. Yes lots of people get big sore ones but I didn't and nor did a lot of others. I was a bit gutted that I didn't have anything to show for it.....ha ha. So I say distraction, distraction, distraction for the next few weeks and squeezy hand holds.

Critter -thinking of you for tomorrow. xx

Joy - yes I'm 40+3 today but no sign of baby. Sending you lots of good vibes.
Keeping fingers and toes crossed for Critters today.

thinking of you today, critter. Everything is crossed for you.

Joy, The image of you boob poking in church made me smile. Will you have a blood test?

joy such wonderful news. I am so pleased. Have you pee'd on any more sticks today?! to church boob prods.

critter I have been thinking of you and am sending you massive good luck vibes.

Hello sea Gosh at being 40+3. Do let us know when baby Sea makes an appearance.

Sarlat How weird that you too had visions of your child.

euro you sound like you are taking to this baby lark really well. I thought of you at the weekend. Remember when we were talking about Next baby clothes an age ago? Well I was in Sainsbos and they had the most adorable baby girl clothes, right up my street covered with ditsy applique foxes and made of courdruoy, just so cute. So cute it made me cry because I would never be able to buy them but I then I was thinking how you could & it made me smile. That sounds fecking bizarre now writing that out, but I just thought of our Next baby convo and how things have changed for you in a relatively short time

buzz Aww at baby buzz typing

Glad that you are feeling better fox. GL calling the clinic

Joy congratulations! My god you deserve this to work. And I'm so confident that it's your time. If it makes you feel better I didn't get morning sickness with either pregnancy until 7/8 weeks. There is plenty of time for symptoms. I promise :) Oh god, I'm just so thrilled for you. I understand the fear completely but you just have to take this day by day. Thinking of you lots xx

Critter you and joy being baby buddies would be just perfect. I'm thinking of you lots and hoping it's good news for you later today. We've been watching House of Cards lately and it always makes me think of you: glamorous, smart and swanning around rich mahogany lined offices.

Ray my heart sank when I read your news about the rebel egg. I'm so sorry you continue down this shitty, shitty path. But I feel they are getting closer to getting everything to align and work out.

Cos sorry for arctic sticks but great news about your chart. My charts were near text book perfect the 2 cycles pre-baby bunny if that's any consolation.

pout I think your lost baby theory is very profound. I had a sort of weird daydream vision a few weeks before I conceived first time round (1st mc) of me holding a little blonde boy. I still wonder if things had turned out a different way whether I'd have a blonde 4 year old, at school right now.

fox you have my sympathies with your cold. I've had a rotten cold since last week and it's only just starting to shift. It's grim. Hope you're feeling better. Btw, total respect for your pumpkin crop!

Waves to everyone else :)