Hi again everyone. Thanks for the welcome :)
Thought I would tell my story briefly, then join in.
I am 36 yo and remember starting to really want a baby when I was about 27. However, due yo a series of lovelife disasters (commitmentphobe followed by cheating twunt ex's) I haven't been in a position to ttc til this year (I met my lovely DP a couple of weeks before my 35th birthday - and day after making an appointment at London Women's Clinic to discuss AI via donor).
Anyway, I conceived last month in cycle #2. Total shock but we were delighted. Then at 5+1 I miscarried. So very early days but we are gutted :( I feel like a bit of a fraud. Like I imagined my BFPs. And I know it would have been worse if it was further along.
I felt so happy when I got the BFP - after years of longing to start a family. I also felt relieved that it happened quickly because in an ideal world we will have more than one DC so I'd had anxieties around it taking ages to get pregnant, if at all. Now we are back to square 1. We were aware of the miscarriage stats though, but still, it knocks you for six.
I feel like everyone I know has started, if not completed their family, except me. Yesterday, DP and I went to the coast for a walk and it was teaming with pushchairs and pregnant ladies - which I am good at dealing with my feelings on - but yesterday it stung.
I think I am going to have to delete FB and keep a low profile while I try and build up the strength to start again.
Sorry, that was longer than expected, but good to get off my chest.
Hope you're all doing okay and enjoyed your bank holiday weekend (if you're in UK) as much as possible x