First cycle trying after MC. AF/BFP due Wednesday 15th....too nervous for words!

[angelgabe]

I started this same thread in December and was lucky enough (after 7 months!) to get pregnant with our first. Unfortunately I had a mc just before Christmas at 5 weeks. Cycle was a bit erratic at the start but looks like I ovulated at my normal time and BBT has risen. I'm almost certain I won't be lucky enough to get pregnant straight away after mc but I thought starting a thread like last time might help!!

[Aqua78]

Feeling excited, but really don't want to be disappointed... I'm 4dpo today and started feeling boob tenderness and abdominal flutterings in the night. Only very slight, but definitely something... Am I imagining things??!?!!

[Baxter2014]

Soooooo 5 days late and I get up this morning and go to the loo and I wipe and there is pink/brown blood. Looks like AF is on the way. I just cannot get my head around it. I was so sure . Why does my body have to be so cruel? I have never been this late and have never felt so PG.

I just want to cry.

Good luck to the rest of you ladies xx

[EnglishGirlAbroad]

Sorry AF looks likes she on her way Baxter . I feel so out of control of all this stupid ttc.

I had a few days of brown spotting after my mc at cd 23-25, thought it was a bit weird but part of my wtf cycle.
Now over the last few days i've had a fair bit of ewcm and some ov pains. Now I'm left wondering if that spotting was my first af after the mc and i'm now in fact onto cycle 2 post mc and on cd15 of that cycle and about to ov. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!

Feel very weird at not having an a proper af..... i felt like having a proper bleed would sort my hormones out and give me a definitive answer. And i could crack on with cycle 2, now i feel like the carpet's been pulled from under my feet!!

[tigger8]

Ladies, ladies.....I know how you feel. Shit, isn't it? I think we all know that we, probably, won't be as lucky as Swede, whom I am delighted for! We just have to wait but I do know, for most of us, it will be so worth it in the end. If it is any consolation, it took us 3.5 yrs to adopt our first child and 15 yrs to conceive the second. So, I guess I have had to accept that there's some stuff you can't control. Don't think it would hurt to have a glass or two to help along the way??

[Baxter2014]

I am definitely going to have a glass of tonight!!

I am not so annoyed about AF arriving - I am just annoyed that I can't trust my body anymore. I was having all the symptoms and I felt the feeling that I was PG! This MC has really thrown me and my cycles are obviously screwed. I just want to get back to normal.

Things I have learnt in this process:

1. I cannot trust my body/instincts I can only trust a PG Test!
   
2. Seeing 2+ magpies in the park does not mean shit
   
3. dreaming about being pregnant means bugger all
   
4. I have a fantastic and supportive husband that stands by me throughout this rollercoaster even though I feel I am going mental.
   
   So at least thats something! I know it will happen for us, we really haven't been trying for long (the first 5 months we were using KY jelly - doh! The first month we went without is when I got my PG) and I have always thought we would have a November baby! This month is our month!! so here I am CD1....
   
   Anyway ladies, thanks for the support...I really hope you get to know what is going on in your cycles soon. Its the not knowing/out of control bit thats the worst isnt it? I always want to scream 'but this is not normal for me! Whats happening?' Truth is no one knows and only time will tell xx

[miserywaterfall]

Hi everyone, thought I'd say hello since I am currently jumping on to the ttc bandwagon, after a mmc, which ended with ERPC 2 weeks ago exactly.

I got a negative on pg test and positive on opk, so decided we'd give it a go and see what happens, but it's quite unnerving not knowing whether my cycle is going to go back to normal quickly, etc.

Congrats Swede, so happy for you and fingers crossed for a healthy pregnancy :)

Baxter I might join you with the tonight!

So hi everyone, hope you don't mind me joining x

[Tutti]

Soooo I started bleeding

So I am cd 1 too again....

I have had a large glass of wine ... Shed a few tears ... But ready to start again.... Am going to order preseed off Amazon to go with my vits and opks .....

What else is there to flipping say except its absolute rubbish ... But knowing you are all here helps enormously ...... But it's not fair ... We should all be looking forward to our first scans and instead we are all here .... I'm sorry for saying it but I just feel soo bloody angry and upset at the bad luck of it all ....

I think I let it out here more than in rl ..... Sorry guys xx

Swedaway hope you keep ' checking' in xxxxx

[Aqua78]

Baxter, so sorry :-( I'm sure you're body and you will figure each other out again soon. Sounds like you have a wonderful hubbie for support.

English, have some fun and get on with dtd! I guess we can all only ever wait and see.

Tigger, your patience is amazing. I really pray you get that BFP soon!

Welcome miserywaterfall. Sorry for your loss. I think Babytinks and I are a few days ahead of you, but we've just started the 2ww as well.

Tutti, so sorry. So upsetting. Enjoy your wine!

Xx

[babytinks89]

Aww girls so sorry for that the red bitch has arrived :(
And congrats to any bfp's!

Yeah i'm 4dpo today..... Nothing yet feel nothing!! I just feel empty, 10 more days to poas and it can't come quick enough, but i am really feeling down and shiiiit that i haven't done enough :( not what i had planned we where going to do..

Any symptoms yet anyone??

[EnglishGirlAbroad]

Think I've finally ov'd. All the right symptoms, fair amount of ewcm, positive OPK and a temp dip followed by rise! Cd14 too! Text book!
I'm not going to test til 21st though, at that point I should be 16dpo if the bitch hasn't arrived!! Fingerscrossed!!

Babytinks, don't feel down. Remember it only takes not little swimmer! And plenty of people it seems, get up duffed by accident. It just takes one go. Don't be too hard on yourself, this journey is hard enough with blaming yourself

[tigger8]

Yes, I agree English......just one Olympic swimmer! The blokes have a part to play too! I chuck vitamins down mine and am always whinging about hot baths!

My MC started on 29th Dec. which now makes me 12 days late, or does it in this WTF period. Too nervous to test! Reallllllly nervous!

[Baxter2014]

Oh Tutti Nooooooooo! sorry to hear she got you. Know we find ourselves on the same cycle day. I am going to do SMEP again this month. Im keeping up with my vitamins and I have ordered some of that Concieve plus lube stuff to see if that helps (takes me a while to get going IYKWIM and when we have to DTD every bloody night it may help to speed things up is that bad??)

tigger the wtf cycle can play with your mind. I was determined not to test but you have no idea really whats going on with your body. some people go back to being regular (in which case - yey! could well be a BFP, FX) and others have extended wtf cycles. You need to do what is best for you. If getting a BFN would be too much to bear then it is best to wait and see what happens, if it is a BFP you will know soon enough.

baby it only takes one go so dont worry. and just because you dont feel anything means nothing. Last month I would have bet my house on the fact I was preggers because of how I felt and lo and behold the witch arrived. Symptoms at this stage mean bugger all, especially after MC, because what is 'normal' for you goes out of the window.

[Baxter2014]

Oh and welcome misery - sorry you are here. We are a nice friendly lot so please feel free to ask us anything x

[babytinks89]

I'm trying :)
So whats the stats so far girls?

Anyone due to poas this weekend??? 1 more weeeek for me to go!

[EnglishGirlAbroad]

Tigger I think if I were you i'd poas just to get an answer. But if you think it would be worse to see bfn than the witch wait it out. Hope it is a bfp though.

I wish i hadnt read any internet stories of people getting upduffed during their wtf cycle. I know it happens to the lucky ones but all the stories I read lead me into a false sense that it happened more often and that I of course would be one of those lucky ones!

[babytinks89]

The thing is everyone is different as well we all have different bodies different symptoms.

Thats one thing i have learned, stop typing in google and reading shit when i feel something or want to know something.....

P.s HAPPY FRIDAY everyone

[babytinks89]

Tigger just some advice as well, when i mc in november it took 37 days before my af came! then after that my cycle was 34 days, we all differ i suppose but it is normal as well for af to come later after mc because your body is adjusting back!
Still worth a poas though??
Doctor and nurses told me after mc to let my body get back to normal with a cycle or two to avoid mc again so we done that, but its taken forever!!

Did you guys try again right after mc?

[SwedeAway]

Tutti - I am still here. Was away on a business trip yesterday which is why I was not on mn. Feeling soo tired today but attribute this to having only slept 4 hours each of the past two nights. About to fall asleep at my desk.

Anyway, went to get a blood test done this morning so waiting for the result on that which should come this afternoon and then I will know exactly how far along I am.

Baxter and Tutti - I am sorry that AF got you but fx for this new cycle for you!

English, good news that you have now Ov'd. All systems go for you then!

[Aqua78]

I haven't had a visit from AF since the mc so I guess we're hoping we just conceive straight away. I have found myself reading all the discussion threads online and marvelled at the number of women who seem to conceive straight away. I suppose it's hard not to hope...

I keep feeling like I've got symptoms, but really don't know. I want to be pregnant again so badly, I'm sure it's possible to totally imagine things. Last night I felt more boob tenderness and had a really vivid dream about getting in an overcrowded lift that broke! But scary! Vivid dreams are supposed to be a symptom though right?

[SwedeAway]

Aqua78 - I had no AF between my mc in December and getting my bfp this week so it definitely can work. Fingers crossed for you.

[tigger8]

Ladies, AF is my uninvited guest CD 40. Bottle of wine for me tonight!!!!! The one consolation - I can drink!!! Yes, I agree with you all in that we all have different bodies and should not read too much crap on the Internet. A lot of luck is involved in this game too. We were very lucky to conceive our 18 month old after 15 years. And I am so grateful for her...... Oh, BTW, the NICE guidelines suggests a glass of red wine is good for you, seriously, in terms of assisting fertility....I do not jest....check it out! At least with a glass inside us, it may make DTD more, erm....'interesting' after the 50 millionth attempt!!! LOL. Gotta laugh, ladies.

Enjoy you weekends.

[miserywaterfall]

I too am on the bottle of wine this evening, it makes dtd more interesting I guess!

Sorry about AF tigger Here's to next cycle! (raises glass!)

[Baxter2014]

sorry to hear that tigger lets hope next cycle is better for all of us that AF has caught (yet again!) xx

[babytinks89]

aw sorry to hear the big red bitch got you! :(
I may be joining you for the march bus too... im not feeling so hopeful myself!

[Aqua78]

So sorry Tigger :-( Really hope it happens for you next month.

Babytinks, sorry to hear you're not feeling hopeful. Only a week to go and we'll find out! I'm crossing my fingers for you. I'm actually thinking of testing on Friday, so dh and I can either celebrate or commiserate for Valentines!

I think I'm feeling pretty positive... I've been getting definite boob tenderness, period like pains and lower back pain. I find it quite scary to be so hopeful though. Can I trust my body after a mc? Did I really ov when I think I did? Are my symptoms just about gearing up for a visit from AF?

I think the days may go quite slowly this week...