TTC 10+++ months part 18

[Mrsden]

This is the BFP thread.

Just realised that it might have seemed joy like I didn't believe you about the doc being a laddish twat. Not the case, just a horrible realisation that everything I have told myself by way of reassurance about being knickerless & legs akimbo was possibly bollocks!
Interesting that Delia comes across as bitter. I definitely think I will always be bitter about all this. Even though I am in a much better place emotionally and feel like I have one foot on the path to acceptance the bitterness is always bubbling away. I got all morose watching Hebburn last night FGS!

MrsD at you warming to Eric Pickles. everybody...Mrsd and MrPickles sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-S-I-N-G

I'm creeping in with my foxy socks. At the end of this week I will have worked 70 hours and I'm on my knees. I had a long read in between teaching tonight. Euro my heart goes out to you. I'm very much hoping this is early days and that all comes gods for you. There is so much I want to say to ten plussers one and all but I'm exhausted and have brain mush. So to everyone I send a big squeeze, to those who are waiting in all the different stages, for those with babies baking and about to be cooked (not sure that works!) and those truly on the other side. When I emerge from this godawful end of forever term I will be more chatty.

On a Me Me note, my cycle is ridiculous! I've had so much ewcm I've had to wear sanitary towels, mid cycle spotting followed by a gallon more ewcm and mega boobs. It's like a fireworks of hormones in there. And I'm not remotely bothered by it all.

Oh and joy - no no no to him looking at your ladyparts! I'm sorry the nhs apt was poop. Hopefully funding will be ok.

Blimey foxy, your hormones do seem to be having a party in there!

joy It would unprofessional and inappropriate for him to be involved, when the time gets near let them know, one of my colleagues brothers became a patient in our team, those that were friends with her could not be involved.

foxy thats a bloody long week, sorry your cycle is up the swanny

euro i'm hoping for good news for you tomorrow

coco I admire your steely nerves not to test

pout sorry about the bug, hope you feel better soon

sar will be looking out for your news

Euro - so sorry to hear about fainter line and spotting. I am hoping the latter is Eurobean bedding in tighter. I bet tomorrow's test can't come soon enough. Keeping my fingers tightly crossed for you.

Pout - I agree with adoption. I have always been interested in adopting but not as an alternative to having my own. Every person who I have ever mentioned ivf to has said to me "why don't you just adopt". I might well do this anyway but not as a replacement... something about that question really bothers me.

Joy - You are NOT misery guts at all. at your friend's husband working at the hospital. I can see why the thought of him looking up your fanjo is not at all appealing. I have a horrible feeling he has done dildo cam on me. I remember a good looking and slightly cheeky doc doing my AFC there and I came away feeling a bit . When will you hear about funding? You must press them, they do need chasing.

Interesting chat about childless ladies. My fav is Lionel Shriver... she wrote an interesting book a few years ago and a number of interviews followed about why she decided not to have children (by choice). I found her reasons compelling and what she chose to do instead really interesting.

Hi Fox! Nice to see you again. Sorry about hormones!

AFM, still recovering from awful cough, got all my drugs and had my teach session today. All a bit overwhelming but not complaining as I am just glad to get going. Already had a big run-in with my clinic regarding hystero date. They had told me it always happens on day 5 or 6. Tomorrow is day 3 and they insisted on doing it when I had booked a really important meeting that CANNOT be cancelled (organised around the fact they told me day 5/6 would be "d" day). A lot of needless stressful phone calls all day with them. In the end I got one of the good nurses who said I could do it on Friday instead. [sigh].

Ten - I am sorry you are not feeling positive about this one. I hope the test on Friday will prove your fears wrong. A big handhold.

Apologies for a v selfish post, but wanted to let you know that baby gin was born on Monday! Pic (but not too many I promise) and name will go on FB shortly. Labour was pretty scary due to some issues with her heartbeat and a bit of an ordeal which I won't go into here, but all totally worth it. I so so hope that things work out for you lovely ladies. It is so totally worth the soul destroying shitfest of long term ttc and treatment cycles - I kept telling everyone I met in hospital that she's ivf, so extra precious.

Will catch up properly soon. Hope the above gives you all hope (read back to my dec misery last year, officially my worst year and Xmas ever!) and isn't too stingy. Big loves and I have everything crossed particularly for those of you testing or starting treatment x

Congrats Gin. You are well and truly on the other side. So happy for you, MrG and baby G. Enjoy the Xmas with your new family.

Good luck Euro for today.

Massive congrats gin!!

Handhold for euro!

Loves to all of you, quick commute post!

Thinking of you euro.

Thinking of you euro.

Massive congratulations gin! How wonderful your little girl is here, can't wait to see a photo.

Good luck today euro. I hope you don't have too long to wait for the results.

euro I'm thinking of you especially today.

gin a girl. How lovely. Thank you for sharing.

Just lost a long post that started typing on the way home yesterday

Congratulations gin !! It does give lots of hope that there is a worthwhile goal and there are ten plussers who have made it to the other side.

Big hand hold to you euro hope you get some good news today.

lemon sar always good to hear from two. I wish I could express me thoughts as eloquently.

pout sorry you've been feeling poorly. I'm very impressed by your cushion making, let alone doing it wounded (ouch)
at mrsd and pickles up the kissing tree.

joy hopefully your friends OH is professional and (like other nurses and policemen I know) just a party animal because he has to be so sensible the rest of the time. Definitely worth telling them though, so you're not worried about him sneaking a peak at your fun hole.

Hugs to a sleepy fox in your socks, with your firework hormones. Hope the week passes quickly for you.

Nothing to report from me yet...

Waves and luffs to all

come on pout, you know the chubby cheeks make you go weak at the knees too

ten, I'm so sorry that you think it hasn't worked. Big hugs to you.

Congratulations gin! I'm so happy for you. I hope you and the baby are not too traumatised by the birthing experience. I'm looking forward to photos on t'other place.

ten I hope you are doing ok.

AFM, blood has been taken, so now I just have to wait (more waiting - argh) until they call with a result. The POAS test this morning was marginally darker than yesterday's but not as dark as Tuesday's . (Yes, I have a pish stick collection. Everybody needs a hobby.)

euro that sounds promising ! Hope it's just I nternet cheapies fecking with your head.

Big handhold for Euro... this waiting for the call must be awful.
I like the sound of a darker line though.
Will be checking back for your news.

gin Congratulations, a little girl is lovely. Thinks of all the dresses and little socks, bobbles, pink things...need to have a lie down in a dark room Sorry to hear that the birth was not as smooth as you deserved. How lovely that you are telling everyone in the hospital how precious little Gin is being IVF and all Will check out the piccies at the other place!

euro Am liking your hobby and imagining your "collection" pasted into a scrapbook. FX for the blood test.

sea Oh for goodness sake about all the carry on around your appointment but glad you got it sorted.
Glad that you are over your cough. I think there are some yukky bugs doing the rounds at the mo. I now have a scratchy throat and hope this isn't the prelude to a Christmas cold.

fox Hope that you are on the home stretch work wise.
EWCM of the volume you describe is a distant memory for me! Sounds grim.

coco Fun hole??!!

Waves to lemons Buzz mrsd and free

Gin Congratulations that is simply fabulous news!!!

Euro I hope that the result is the one your after and that the bleed was just normal spotting after all. This sounds positive so far.

Joy ARGH – I could think of nothing worse than someone I know being in any way involved in my treatment, I am sure if you tell the clinic they can make suitable arrangements. Good luck with everything and I hope the wait isn’t too long….I struggle to see the popint in the folic I have been taking it for over two years and a fat lot of goo dit has done.

Pout I hear you on the bitterness, this is a new feeling for me and has only come about after this failed cycle (tbc tomorrow but another arctic stick today…) I am now royally pissed off.

Fox That sounds horrific, 70 hours is never a good week! Your hormones are certainly having a party! Well done for simply ignoring and carrying on!

Sea God it makes me cross that clinics expect your entire life to be rearranged around their schedule, good luck with everything I hope this is the cycle for you!

Waves to everyone I have missed. Still a big fat negative, hadn’t realised how much this was going to throw me. Just waiting for confirmation tomorrow before drowning my sorrows in a vat of gin. [drunk emoticon]

ten So sorry, big hugs

euro Fingers crossed for you

gin congrats again

Ten I am ever so sorry about BFN. I hope there is chance that the bloods will tell a different story. Big handhold.

Pout I am still coughing away. I see people giving me the evil glare on the tube. I am v careful and live on handgels and always cough into tissues. This bug has been particularly bad and the cough just won't go away. I hope you don't get it.

Buzz - How are you doing? Are you still being monitored for immunes? How far along are you now?

ten I'm so sorry about the BFN.

sea I don't think I'd be able to resist remind them how much I was paying for the cycle and that maybe they could accommodate me. Grrrr.

That bug sounds pretty nasty. I hope it clears up soon.