TTC 10+++ months part 18

[Mrsden]

This is the BFP thread.

Gin - That is fantastic news! I couldn't be happier for you. I am so glad little gin arrived safe and sound.

Ten - So sorry about the bfn. Hand hold and hugs.

Joy - My experience with physicians in real life is often very different from how they behave professionally. Although, I would ask from him to not be involved in my care - it would be entirely inappropriate if he was. This is pretty standard now, seeing as there is now more than one Dr per community.

Sea - Your cold sounds terrible. I hope you start feeling better soon.

Fox - I am sending you courage and caffeine to help you get through your ridiculous end of term madness. I'm sorry your hormones have decided to go crazy at this time.

Coco - hahaha fun hole. That made me laugh pretty hard.

Euro - Big hand holds while you wait for the blood test results. I really hope the spotting was just the embryo nestling in nice and tight.

Lemon - I'm glad I'm not the only one who hasn't put a tree up yet. I will at some point if only because I am hosting Christmas. I hope you get to enjoy your holidays.

Sar - I asked about the braxton hicks. I was curious, mine only started sometime after 33 weeks. I have been having some pre-labour symptoms too, but as you said, it means nothing about when the baby will make an appearance. Happy due date and good luck - we know little sar will be born before Christmas.

Waves, tail feathers and overly sweet Christmas baking to everyone. Sorry if I missed someone in the catch up.

Lovely to see you sweet. :)

I've just had the call from the clinic. The blood test was (as I knew) positive. What did surprise me was the HCG number. It was 48 at this point in my last pregnancy. Today it was 107. I'm baffled because I've really felt over the past two days that all was not well. According to this paper, the higher number is predictive of a better outcome.
humrep.oxfordjournals.org/content/17/7/1901.full

Sweet -exciting times ahead for you too my lovely. When is your due date?

Fox - sounds like post ivf cycle fertility boost craziness to me, put down those papers and get thee and monsieur fox in the sac pronto.

Ten - I am so sorry sweetheart. Its a weird stabby limbo feeling. Now is not the time for thinking and planning. Now is the time for gin, just being and doing fun things. In a couple of weeks things will feel different again.

Joy - I wouldn't want party boy coping a look at my nethers either.

Gin - already posted in the other thread but I am truly overjoyed to hear you have given birth to your beautiful baby.

Euro - I 'knew' your HCG numbers would be good. You are picking up where gin has left off........ i know its still too early for celebrations but for now things are going well. Hold on tight my lovely and dont worry about symptoms - I was at least 7 weeks pregnant with this pregnancy until symptoms kicked in.

euro you are pregnant lady!! That's such fab fab news, I'm totally chuffed for you.

euro congrats on being preggo :)

sea Shehata does your immunes up to about week 16, I took it past that date on my own accord with the intralipids and hydroxy, I'm 34 weeks now, I have to admit I had a very romantic notion of pregnancy, sadly it is nothing like I thought it would be

Congrats on much better hcg numbers euro! How many days pist EC are you? Tis predictive indeed :)

Happy due date, sar!

Big sorry hug, ten :(

Too tired for proper catch up! Sorry!

Wow euro, that's great news!! Some good pre-Xmas cheer, well done you, hope the next few weeks are as least nail biting as possible.

Gin, what lovely news, looking forward to seeing the pictures in the other place, glad you're both safe and sound.

Ten so sorry for the bfn, my Ivf bfns have been the worst they knock you for six, hope you can be very kind to yourself for the next few weeks.

Gin, how could I forget? Massive congrats on ginsters arrival! :)

Euro - What wonderful news. I know the next bit we will even worst if not as bad as TTC-ing but this is an amazing achievement. And the HCG numbers sound really reassuring. I bet this Xmas present beats a mini -ipad any day. I am really happy for you. You deserve it!
[jumps around for joy]

Ten - Thinking of you for tomorrow. Big handhold.

Buzzy - You are almost there. Has it been a v difficult pregnancy for you? Is it the worry or more physical stuff that is making it less than ideal? Sorry if I am asking v silly questions. I am just intrigued. I have a number of preggo friends at the moment and some are really loving it and one or two are sick throughout.

Luv to all.

Hystero for me in the morning. Slightly excited as I love the feel of coming round from anesthetics even if it does make me a bit sick. A complete state of relaxation... I am see it as getting a few hours of much needed deep sleep.

euro that's great news! Are you going to go back again soon for a second reading?

sar good luck!

sweet good luck too. When are you due?

I'm not sure what to do. I have another digi taunting me in the drawer but don't know if I should get a cheapie. I hate wasting money but I'm 18dpo (3/4 days late) and that should show on a digi shouldn't it? But if the hcg levels drop I won't be able to tell. We're heading up to the inlaws on Sunday for a week and I need to know before I go. But if it says no I don't know if I'll believe it. If it says yes then I'll want to check again during the Christmas week to see if it's sticking urg. Why did I buy stupid digis in the first place!
What if this is just another screwed up cycle and the + opk was PCOS messing with the test or something... I'm going nuts.

Euro - So happy to hear about the HCG levels. If it helps, I didn't have any real preggo symptoms until I started feeling the baby moving.

Sea - Glad to hear you are looking forward to the hystero.

Sar - I am due Jan 1st. I am already a bit dilated, but that really means nothing.

That was a me me post ... sorry. Didn't mean to come out like that.

euro good. Thanks for confirming you took another step forward. Take it easy. Perhaps plan things to distract yourself everyday because I can confirm the days are really dragging.

Today I had a lovely time with a neighbours kid who is three having a chat about nursery and the Christmas tree and singing ring a ring a roses and reading some stories. Got quite into the ring a roses until I remembered I should not be jumping about.

"Didn't mean to come out" dear me. This is why I shouldn't type on the train. What I mean to say is, I'll buy a test and be quiet.

buzzy nearly there too. It's a ten plussers graduation bonanza.

sweet the new year is just a sneeze away. I hope these last few days pass quickly for you.

ten sorry about the bfn. The very best of luck for tomorrow.

sea most people I know seem to have enjoyed their pregnancies, perhaps I had unrealistic expectations it has been stressful especially in the beginning, a few bleeds, being on all the immune drugs and the preggo symptoms were hard to deal with, the constant worry it would all go wrong again, knowing we had only one frostie and couldn't afford another IVF round,, I've been ill all the way through, had a bad reaction to the nausea meds and now have what I think could be SPD, have stolen some crutches from work today. Its been nearly 3 years since we started this journey.

I think if you're an instaffer and it works first time you don't worry about what could go wrong, why would you, but when it has its all you can focus on, and everyday you wonder what will happen, the constant checking everytime you go to the toilet, wondering if your symptoms are the same, do your boobs feel the same.

I am extremely grateful to be pregnant I was just hoping after a shitty TTC journey that it would be a lovely memorable pregnancy

I hope all goes well for you tomorrow :)

coco It would show up on a digi, you said you were busy this week any chance of being able to get a cheapie aat lunch, if you have two digis it would go up while you were away, that is how you would know if it was progressing, my fingers are crossed for you

euro oh honey what lovely news. I have been thinking of you all day and hoping you'd get good news. I know the next few weeks will be nailbiting but those HCG levels sound really good. There is every reason for this bean to stick. When do you go in for another test to see if the levels are doubling? or do they not do that at your clinic?

ten so sorry about the BFN, it's a horrible horrible feeling.

free hang in there. No news is good news!

coco I'm sorry this is so stressful, I would be panicking and stressing too. I would do another test and just give in to it - you're going to be obsessing either way. PCOS is an absolute bugger. Have you been temping at all?

gin a million congratulations on your little girl, hope you are recovering well.

sar and sweet sending love for speedy and easy festive deliveries.

sea hope you're ok. I am rooting for you this round.

Love to everyone else.

euro so pleased that all was ok today. One day at a time and lots of distraction definitely the key. I still have hardly any symptoms and we're almost half way there apart from still huge knockers

ten so sorry. IVF negatives are so bloody hard.

fox almost to the holidays. hang in there! I had a work stress freak out today. Almost compulsory this time of year.

joy my neighbour was my nurse. Female but I still dead bumping in to her in the street knowing where she was during the last ET... Fingers firmly crossed that the NHS comes through for you.

sea banishing that cough and wishing you all the best in the next stage. Getting past downregging is a real achievement.

coco I would test if I were you but it is a dilemma. If you are using digis be aware that they don't always go up when you expect them to. Mine didn't and resulted in an absolutely unecessary freakout on my part .

Big waves to everyone else. On phone and have lost track. OH - but congrats gin and MrG!!!!

Thanks all. Critter they don't usually do another test here, but I have persuaded them (by paying for it) to send me for one on Saturday. That'll be 48 hrs on and if there is an appreciable increase in levels I will try to stop menkulling for a bit. Until the scan anyway (still never seen a good scan - only bad ones, first for my mum and then for me).

coco I agree with critter. You are obsessing anyway, so you might as well test.

buzz it's such a shame that you haven't been able to enjoy pregnancy. The people I know who have breezed through it have tended to be the instadiffers.

sweet I was out for dinner tonight with someone with a 1 January birthday. Upsides: you get free firework displays put on for you by obliging local councils; if you celebrate the night before every one goes out. Downsides: everyone is hungover on your actual birthday. :)

free what is your next step?

sea good luck for the hysteroscopy. I'm glad you like the feeling of coming round - that's the part that turns me into a lunatic!

We do have a 10+ers baby bonanza coming up, don't we? How lovely.

euro I think that's a really good idea to go for another test on Saturday. It seems to be standard to do that at IVF clinics here in the US so they can check that the level is rising as it ought to be. Seems odd that they don't bother in the UK. I hope that it can put your mind at rest and you can tentatively enjoy Christmas. Remember sar had spotting (and I think so did some other ladies). Big big hug. I have everything crossed for you.

euro if nothing goes wrong, I go back to the clinic when they reopen in January for another scan. By my calculations I would be 8w4d by then. This is to see if anything developed in the tiny black dot which my doctor identified as the amniotic sac when I had the positive result confirmed last week. 20 days to go until then - taking progesterone, pregnancy first trimester vitamins and trying not to do anything that I will regret if it goes wrong. Would love to test regularly to reassure myself but I am away from home until 27th Dec. Probably saving myself a few quid.

sea how funny you love coming round, I am always really angry and in a very aggressive mood after general anesthetic. good luck for tomorrow.

coco fingers crossed for when you do test.

30 second post on my last early get up day of 2013!

Euro - best Christmas present ever!!!!

Gin - yay!!!!!! Gorgeous photo on bookface, love the name too. I hope you are feeling ok physically.

Ten - sorry about the bfn. A poo time of year to be getting your head around that but the blues will pass. Big squeeze.

I am no longer in ttc mode I noticed as I jumped out of bed immediately post shag and (sorry graphicness ahead) squeezed out the sperms so as not to be squelchy in the bed. We have our review on Xmas eve and will be moving directly to donor egg. I feel 95 per cent sure that it is the right decision for us at this time. With 5 per cent curiosity about keeping at it for longer just in case. But frankly I just want to maximise my chances and have 2014 as a better year. Please?!

fox that sounds like the right decision. I hope 2014 will be a great year for you and all the 10+ers.

freethe waiting is awful isn't it? I'm the same as you coming round, and add in panicky and attempting to run away...

Off to stalk gin on FB now. :)

Euro – so pleased for you. I know this bit is just a terribly paranoid time so all I will say is, come on mini euro!

Gin – yay yay yay. Wishing you and Mr Gin and baby gin a very very happy Christmas. It must be one hell of a special time.

Ten – i’m so sorry about the bfn.

Fox – you sound like you have a good plan. How do you and MrFox feel about moving on to DE?

Free – i hope you are hanging in there in this unsettling wait.

Critter – when are you due, is it really soon?

Coco – did you cave and test?

Buzz – i am sorry you have had such a rotten pregnancy. What is SPD? I know for a fact if I ever get pregnant , I will find it an appallingly worrying experience but I’m sorry you have had to deal with so much sickness as well. But you are nearly there and I hope the next 6 weeks come round quickly.

Sea – i like coming around as well! I hope all went well this morning. Glad you fought your corner. Don’t let them bully you in to doing things on certain days. They are a bit odd like that and make you feel like you have scuppered your chances if you don’t do something when they say.

Waves to everyone.

Wow fox, quick moving. Very impressed you have made Big Decisions whilst working like a demon and only just off the back of a terrible cycle. Well done. I really hope the appointment buys you some peace and hope for Christmas.

I am so pleased for you euro. The next few days/weeks will be really difficult, even if this all goes perfectly to plan. But I am willing your embie on to great things and a nice doubling of HCG by tomorrow. The numbers are pretty great for 14dpEC. Spotting does not need to mean anything!

Well done sea for standing your ground. More and more I dislike the attitude of That Clinic, despite its fab numbers. Really hoping this all goed perfectly for you from now on!

How are you joy?

And coco, any news?

The scan will be here before you know it free. Christmas makes time goes quickly unless I am sitting being bored to death by my ILs

Almost halfway mad, wow! When is your anomaly scan? Do you want to find out the sex?

And a whole cluster of layers between now and early 2014. I cannot wait for more 10+er news. We'd need some more BFP news as well, the thread has already done a fair number, but I'd like to see more.