TTC 10+++ months part 18

[Mrsden]

This is the BFP thread.

Fat fingers.

Sea s

Sea sounds like good news. Fingers crossed for you.

Fox I hoped every cycle for 4 years 8 months and if it goes wrong again this time. I will still hope. Even with all my anti getting pregnant man hormones and Mrfree frankly sub optimal lazy ass sperm.

It's my scan on Thursday so day after tomorrow. Hopefully there will still be a bean in there. Unit feeling pregnant at all. Just a bIt fatter. I'll be 10 weeks 4 days. I'm also travelling next week and all being well planning to give my boss a heads up as we rarely meet face to face.

Critter lovely, I'm so pleased you are home and it's comforting to hear that you had an excellent consultant who has looked after you and put your mind at rest. It was the most horrendous tragic bad luck. But I will echo Nelly and say you will be the most amazing Mum to James' siblings in the future. You are all continuously in my thoughts.

Greenygrassy - goodness it has been a long time and so sweet of you to post for Critter. I seem to remember us liaising back in 2010/2011 (i was joycep) about short luteal phases and I'm pretty sure we went to see the same gynae on Great portland street. I'm sorry to hear that you had a tough time to begin with but so pleased your daughter is now fine.

Euro - that scan does sound good and i hope it comes round quickly. It must all seem a long wait.

Sea - i hope you are ok today and the ohss and bleeding has subsided.

Cos - how are you doing? It must be hard not to menkil. I keep wondering whether I should try and copy you and try and support some natural cycles with progesterone. I find it amazing how you tried it on a whim. Do you have to go via a doctor to get progesterone or did you discover another way? I still wonder about the mind body link as well.

Fox - as others have said, it's very hard to give up on our bodies. You have had 2 cps and so something clearly can happen and in which case I think it would be very hard for you to flip that switch. Are you having a suspicious cycle again this month?

You lovely ladies are very sweet to remember this time last year. I think I would have been coming up to the end of my tww. That was a crazy 10 weeks and quite pleased I'm not back there.
I've had confirmation that I am eligible for one round of ivf. I get a frozen round too but we don't get to frosty stage so that won't be much help but I feel very fortunate to get this one last shot. Third time lucky I wonder.

Free - I am wishing you ever bit of luck for Thursday next week. It must have been a very long wait for you.

Thank you so so much greenygrassy. I'm so glad your little girl is now doing ok, what an absolute miracle. It's so kind of you and so thoughtful to check in and post that for me. I'd never heard of HIE. I will look at the FB group. 10 plussers are the best.

Free good luck for your scan. God, 4 years 8 months. You are amazingly strong to get through that. It just goes to show there is always hope. I have everything crossed for you and will be sending lots of love and good wishes your way.

Sea I am so happy again that you are finally pregnant. You deserve this baby so much.

Nelly, thanks so much for your lovely words. I was thinking of you and MrN actually after a conversation with MrC about his doubts about having a baby. He was saying that he felt horribly guilty that it was only now having lost a baby that he felt 'ready' and knew what the fuss was about. That holding our child was a little glimpse behind that curtain. It's a cliche but I think for many men they just see the downsides and the burden of parenthood, until they have a child and then they get that rush of love and oxytocin that has made us continue to go through so much crap to get pregnant despite all the surface negatives. I think MrN will be exactly the same and that you will both be wonderful, wonderful parents.

It's odd but having James has been a blessing for me and MrC in so many ways. He was a precious gift, even if the gift was a painful one to receive. He brought us so much love, not just the love we had for him and for each other, but also from our families, friends, people in the hospital, and of course you all.

Cross post Devon - just to say YAY that you get another round! So so pleased. What a relief.

critter I'm so pleased you're back home now. It sounds like you've had the very best of care and you deserve no less. I guess it's easy to forget that doctors have emotions too, it's a tough job. Are your family staying over for a bit? It's lovely to hear of the joy and love that James brought you x

devon I'm so happy that you have the funding. Do you have any ideas what protocol you will do or when you'll start?

Waves to everyone.

critter I'm glad you are home. And what a lovely dr you had. I hope your recovery from the CS isn't too bad. You, little James and mr c have been consistently in my thoughts over recent days.

I think mr c's feeling are pretty common. I have read in a lot of places that many men don't "get it" until the baby is here. You will both be amazing parents to those siblings of James' who are waiting in the freezer for you. x

cos the results take two weeks - so taken at 10+4 in my case and given to me when I have the big scan at 12+4. Critter is right that it can also tell the sex that early, but I am in favour of waiting for the birth. Mr euro wants to find out, so we still have to settle that one.

ray I can't believe that was a year ago already.

sea are the OHSS symptoms easing now?

greeny what a thoughtful post. I'm glad your daughter is doing well.

free I am also just feeling a bit fatter! I've only put on a couple of pounds, but I have a real billy bunter belly that makes it look like much more. Good luck for your scan.

devon I remember your crazy weeks this time last year - you were about a fortnight ahead of me I think, and then we ended up mcing at about the same time. That was not a good time for either of us. It's great to hear that you get an NHS round. I really hope that it will be third time lucky for you.

Critters - I am happy that in the horrible sadness you have had to experience you and MrC have also felt such love. I am in total admiration of your strength and positivity. I hope the group greengrassy suggested will provide some support for you as well. Thinking a lot about you, MrC and James. I really hope you are all okay (as can be). Are your parents still with you?

Greengrassy - How nice to read an original 10 plusser. I am sorry you had a frightening experience with your daughter. Happy everything has worked out well though.

Devon - I am delighted you have had confirmation of your nhs round. That's excellent news! It will be 3rd time lucky for you I am sure. And you never know you may have something to freeze as I think the Argy is particularly picky about what to freeze especially once you have been taken to Day 5. I have read a lot which says that sometimes freezing earlier also makes sense and those embryos can be just as viable when put back. I am so happy for you that you will be going again. Have they told you how long before you can cycle?

Free - 4 years and 8 months! You and MrFree so deserve this baby. I am sure the scan will give you the reassurance you need that everything is fine.

AFM, my levels are still going up - I think around 1300 today. OHSS is still here but I am managing it better. I just eat snacks, never meals and drink sports drinks but no more than 2 litres a day. I still throw up about once a day and don't feel myself but I know it's all for a good cause and I know just how fortunate I am that this has worked so I can live with the OHSS. Thanks again to all you ladies for your support and concern. I couldn't have done it without you all.

Critter I'm so pleased to hear you are home and had wonderful, compassionate care from your doctor. A small comfort in the midst of all of this. I'm also in awe that you continue to seek out positivity and that MrC is being amazing. I'm keeping up with the thread just to let you know that you, Mr C and little James are all in my thoughts. I too lit a candle again last night. Much love xxx

Devon great news about your nhs round. I can only keep my fingers crossed, send out some positive noise into the universe and send you lots of courage and strength. I'm sorry that you are near the anniversary of your miscarriage. Dates are particularly cruel.

Sea great numbers. Cheering you on. I'm glad to hear that you are managing your symptoms well.

My brain is a bit vague at the moment. I can thank raging hormones and the return of irregular periods for this. Needless to say I'm here, thinking of you all and just waving from the sidelines rather than just lurking. I hope my posting isn't inappropriate Xxx

Critter - I just got back on mumsnet. I can't say how sorry I am for you and MrC. Mr. G and I are thinking about the three of you. I'm glad you've felt so much love in this hard time.

Waves and hugs to everyone, I will catch up later on.

Critter I'm glad you're home, and I'm so glad you've got such a caring consultant who will give you personal care during your next pregnancy. My neighbour who I mentioned about had the same thing with a consultant who then oversaw her next pregnancy and she said it was so supportive and really helped her through it. I'm unbelievably glad you feel the way you do about the time you got to spend with James, it's just so amazing that youre able to appreciate the positives of all the love etc you feel, I really hope that carries you through the next few months and beyond.

Devon oh I'm so happy you got the round confirmed without too much delay too. Any dates for appointments or anything, is there a waiting list? Third time lucky indeed. And why not try the progesterone in the meantime? My consultant at the clinic I did the last round with prescribed it for me, and I actually had a couple of tracking scans before ov to check follicle size and thickness of lining which both looked ok. The scans were £100 ish each, plus meds for the 2ww were about £50. From what I've read prog supports the embryo to develop and prepares the lining to be receptive to the embryo, so for anyone who's had cp's / times they were convinced it was happening I think it's a cheap and easy thing to try. My cons is very conservative regarding meds and he was convinced there's no harm in it. He just also thought it was pointless but everyone's different! Even if it doesn't eventually work for me it doesn't mean it might not for someone else. Give I've taken loads of progesterone in the last 6 months it also seemed to have an effect on my cycles - my bucket loads of cm went down and my ov temp rise got a bit stronger. Who knows I'm prob looking for things but I wondered if it was redressing an oestrogen imbalance.

Sea fab news about the levels.

Fox I don't think I got my words across right about the mind / body link, what I was thinking of but unsure how to word is that if the mind is thinking that its still possible and might be happening, then mightn't that mean on some level a message from the body is involved in telling the mind this? Does that make any sense?

Greeny, Princess, Sweet nice to have you here still supportive of others, no matter what you've been through.

Waves all round.

critter a supportive Dr can make such a difference. I know how much better I feel when the drs know my history and me personally. It will be so reassuring for you when you're ready to try again.

fox even after 3 years I got my hopes up every month that it was possible (ie. non downregging). MrM was amazed because I'm normally quite pessimistic!

Have spent too much time online tonight so off to be chatty in real life with MrM. Night all.

critter I've just heard. So very sorry.

Morning lovelies!

I am glad to hear you're home and have been cared for so well, critter. I hope you'll take time to let both body and soul heal and then when you're ready go back for James' siblings. I am thinking of you all the time. Thoughts and love to both of you.

Hurrah for a funded round, devon! Third time lucky!! Btw my frosties are day 4, perhaps you'll have some of those too.

So sorry you're a victim of postcode-shit, poutster. Handhold and no useful thoughts beyond :(

Hope is such a tricky thing, so just sympathy for fox!

Hurrah for rising hcg and less ohss trouble, sea! Congrats! I am telling you it's twins!

Fingers crossed for the newly diffed. Is today scannage, free? Massive good luck!

Waves and tail feathers to all of you!

lemon it was today, thank you, and there is still a heartbeat. so, so far so good, somewhere between 10w4d (my calculation) and 11w1d (measurement at scan this morning). at work so must dash. best wishes to all. will catch up properly later.

That's brilliant news free!

free great news :)

Brilliant news Free!

Brilliant news Free! So many preggos on the thread just now

Free- that's wonderful news. So happy for you.
Waves to everyone else. x

Congrats Free! That is wonderful news!

That's fantastic news free!

devon I am so pleased that the nhs has come through for you. I will admit to being pretty worried that they would say no. As an nhs success myself I have every faith that this could be much more positive for you.

pout I wish I could say the same to you. This whole process is made that much more difficult because of the inconsistencies.

Big waves all round!

Yay free! Fantastic!

Great news Free. Tell us again about the Chinese doc - who was he? how much did it all end up costing? how long did it take? What did tou have to do? would you recommend him etc etc??