TTC 10+++ months part 18

[Mrsden]

This is the BFP thread.

sweet what's the reason for the induction? How are you feeling about everything.

I hope everyone else is doing ok. The thread is pretty quiet at the moment.

sweet I was thinking about you earlier today, when is your DD

joy sorry the songbird has got you again

nelly hope you had a lovely holiday

free thinking of you and your upcoming scan

My due date was last week Wednesday. The Drs don't like you to go much more than 1 week overdue here (1.5- 1.75 weeks max). Mr. Grouch thinks the baby is holding out to share a birthday with his dad.

ha ha sweet I thought it must be soon, its about the same here, hope things start to happen soon for you :)

Welcome time. I am sorry you find yourself here. Feel free to share about your ivf. That's a good number of snow babies!

Joy - I'm sorry song bird has come back. Urgh. And the cold as well. But I would prescribe lots of DTD as it might be a good time to catch the window when those NK cells are down. Hope songbird flies away soon.

Euro - How are you doing? I hope you are able to relax a bit and not men kill for a little while. I know it must be hard. Ah how nice to be shopping for hols. No trips except for wedding trip planning at the moment. It is a bit quiet here at the moment isn't it?

MrsD - I like the sound of your NYRs. Exercise always makes me feel great. Haven't made any this year yet as IVF took over. A few years ago I wrote a list of them and top of the list was to complete a masters which I did last year. I felt so happy about that. I love NYRs. Hols also sound nice. I love booking things in advance so I have something to look forward to.

Sweet - I am sorry about the delay. Are you v uncomfortable? I hear babes often make an appearance as soon as you have the appointment about inducing.

Buzzy - It must be your due date soon too. How do you feel?

Free - Not long till your scan now I think. Hope you are feeling okay!

Day 2 and all embies are dividing but still very early days. It's likely to be a Day5 transfer but we will know more tomorrow. Manic first full day back at work which was fantastic as I had no time to men kill. Working from home tomorrow which is dangerous for me. Getting used to arse bullets. Urgh...I need to really think of my happy place when I do it. And mediate...

sea all embies dividing is great! And it's good you are keeping busy. How are you feeling physically after EC?

sweet good luck with everything. I'm looking forward to news soon.

free how are you doing in the approach to the scan?

joy I hope the songbird has stopped chirping due to some drugs by now!

AFM, I am doing a little men killing. I woke up for a wee in the night and found loads of brown blood. I know brown is better than red, but it is still a worry. I've decided not to go to the EPU (unless it gets very heavy or painful) as there is nothing they can do anyway. I'm going to try to hold out to my scan next Tuesday (at 7+5). In the event that things are ok then, I can relax a bit. And if they are not, going earlier won't change anything. Meh.

A big handhold for Euro. Can you call your clinic to get some reassurance? I know it must be worrying and you are absolutely right that brown is better than red but what a headf**k. I am really hoping it is just eurobean bedding in nice and tight.

Euro - I felt really really bad after EC on the Sat. Sunday I went for a walk and tried to be normal socially but was still tender (needed to sit and couldn't stand up straight) but yesterday I could actually feel the muscles in my stomach again. Today I feel completely normal.

All embies still dividing as they should and grading is good apparently. Transfer will definitely be Day5 on Thursday. Very nervous and quite shocked that so far everything is going well, now expecting something to go wrong but trying to put negative thoughts out of my mind. Not sure if we should put back 1 or 2. Any views would be welcomed.

euro big hand hold, I had bleeding with this pregnancy and my last that got to 10 weeks I even had bright red bleeding this time, it drives you insane wondering what is going on, a week is along time to wait but the bleeding might stop, I did have a list of possible reasons why you might have a bleed, there are many just hang on in there

sea I did at your thinking of your happy place, yay yo the sea embies doing so well, its a tough choice, I had 2 put back due to my age and at the time wasn't bothered by the thought of twins, I am relieved that there is only one now, not to scare you but a colleagues wife had two put back and is expecting triplets at this stage

Ah jeez Euro. How worrying. Come on eurobean. Thinking of you.

Sea glad you are feeling better today.

Thanks lemon, buzzy and Mrsden and everyone for your sympathy at my middle of the night worry dump in the thread.

Welcome time and daisy.

I feel ok today. Both me and MrF are sleeping badly. Will update tomorrow morning with scan and boob check outcome.

Sea - all sounds excellent news to me. I went for two just because it gives better chance for implantation and the quality of mine weren't good by day5 and no chance of freezing any. An instant family also sounded ideal to me but a twin pregnancy is riskier of course and is not the most ideal. If my embryos seemed great quality and a batch was going in the freezer, I would probably opt for one.

Oh Euro - for gods sake it is just heart stopping when that happens but brown blood is often just burrowing in and I had this happening every few days and it was nothing to do with anything bad. In fact when I spoke to the nurse about it at the clinic she said the majority of women at the clinic would have some form of bleeding at some stage. It doesn't stop the fear hearing that though. I am sure it will disappear. Massive hand hold.

Mrsd - well done on the NyR. Great idea to be more positive. I have got so flabby and really need to get on with some exercise too. seems inpossible when the weather is like this.

I wish I had some sort of firm plan in place because I am just consumed by worry about everything at the moment. The timescales of the nhs is worrying too (if I am to get a round). It does come and go but I keep having these surreal feelings of being trapped in a world with me and my draining emotions. It's like I am constantly breathing bad air which is making me feel crap but I just can't seem to get a breath of fresh air. its not clinical depression or anything, just something very heavy I feel like i am carrying on my shoulders.

Afternoon ladies, I have been reading but too busy to post, so here is a lame attempt at catching up a bit!

Sea that is an amazing number of follies. I hear you on the arse bullets, when I came round form EC and they said I had to take a course of anti-biotics up there I stated very loudly, 'what is it with shoving everything up your arse, we're not in france, they shove everything up there' and for those of you who have been to create you will know that everyone in there for EC or ET can hear you (cringe - I blame the anesthetic). Regarding one or two, I wasnt bothered about twins so had two put back, but if I had the number of embies you do I might have only chosen one safe in the knowledge it sounds like you will have lots for the freezer.

Euro fingers crossed it is normal brown spotting that so many people seem to get. I hope next tuesday comes quickly for you and the scan is positive, I am sure it will be, spotting is so common.

Daisy sorry you find yourself here, the ladies speak wise words, it is best to get tests done soon, but most people conceive naturally within 2 years.

Time your journey so far sounds arduous, I hope 2014 is the year for you.

Joy Songbird is an evil witch, I hope she buggers off soon, and yes please to your cold announcing the arrival of your baby . It is interesting what you said about feeling trapped, I really sympathise as this is how I feel a lot of the time at the moment. I dont have any words of wisdom, I just wanted you to know you arent alone in feeling like that. Is there some other project you could focus on for a little while until the questions about the NHS funding get answered?

Den Holidays are a nightmare. I have agreement that I can book a hot holiday for christmas next year, but I keep thinking what if we need the cash for more ivf and or we have a baby by then (hollow laugh). I am generally quite positive but as I mentioned here before this failed round threw me a bit so I will join you in you resolution!

Free- good luck for the scan tomorrow.

Sweet and Buzz all the luck in the world for your inducing/delivery, sneeze births all round please!!

NYE wasnt great here, had to avoid one party as I think the final one of my friends who is married is preggers and I couldnt face being around her/fear of the announcement (I am a bad friend) so it was very quiet but with a friend who is pregnant and her husband. Life is not fair I do know this already but I am learning it again recently! In response I am running, a lot, to try and get rid of my IVF weight (urgh looking pregnant and not being it is torture) before the next round starts and so I feel normal again. In other news I took the dog to get spayed last week and I could not have felt more guilty about it, I nearly cried at the idea I am taking away her chance to have puppies (I am LOOSING MY MIND she is a DOG).

Waves to all!

Thanks for your thoughts on 1 or 2 ladies.

Free – A big hand hold for your scan. I hope it will turn out to be reassuring for you and MrF.

Buzz – The idea of triplets terrifies me. I also read that with ICSI embies are more likely to split but not sure if this info is accurate.

Joy – I am so sorry you are finding it so hard. I think feeling like you are in limbo makes it much harder. Have you had confirmation about your nhs round yet? I think if you get sympathetic ear at UCLH they might let you cut the queue a bit. Also, the wait was actually shorter than they told me when I was under their care. I don’t know if this is helpful but have you considered doing a natural ivf ( a bit cheaper) at another clinic? I wonder if a less intensive approach would work for you. Or maybe something overseas where the cost is less of a drain on resources. Sorry if all this is obvious and not helpful. I really feel bad you are carrying so much on your shoulders. You are really due for a lucky break.

Ten – Do the French use arse bullets a lot?? I can see why you wanted to avoid possible announcement at NY.. New year is hard enough without A* on top.

Euro – Hope you are okay.

Handhold for euro. I bled too...

Good luck, free!

Sea, with your haul I would opt for 1. I had no choice as I was funded, but having frosties is a wonderful back up which you can use for siblings!

Waves to the others!

Another hand for euro. Perhaps the scan knocked you, I know I always have some brown blood a few days after the dildo cam.

Sea, if I had good quality blast then I'd do set. Ours have only been day 2 so that's why we've gone for two. I don't relish the thought of twins because a close female relative lost twins after going into premature labour, that frightens me.

Joy, you always seem to articulate what I'm feeling. I understand how you feel. I can't offer any words of advice because I don't know myself how to deal with it, I just want you to know you're not alone.

I've name changed for the new year, It's den :)

Thanks all. I'm quite crampy now and had a gush of reddish blood this afternoon, but it seems to have eased off a bit this evening. Because of the red blood, I'm considering going to the EPU in the morning, but I don't relish sitting for hours in a hospital waiting room surrounded by other menkulling women. Hmmm.

Squeezing euro's paw. Am thinking of you, I'm sure this is really scary.

sea we did single embryo transfer as it was our first go, insurance was covering a good chunk of the cost, and we had plenty of blasts to freeze. I think if we'd gone for two, I would be expecting twins, and I'm really glad we didn't. Twins are adorable, and often have a really special bond, but I don't think it would have made for a comfortable pregnancy and it is riskier. Good luck with whatever you decide.

Love the new name ray. Wishing for better luck for you this year sweet pea.

Big hand hold for Euro.
I would go to get it checked out for reassurance. You must be v worried. Just wanted to offer my support. Willing Eurobean to be strong

Great name Ray

Critter how many did you have for the freezer?

Thanks lemon as well for your thoughts. I think I will go with one but interested to know what the clinic will advise.

euro have my breath held for you.

euro that sounds very stressful. I am sorry you are have this worry. I have everything crossed and hoping it will be ok. I send you a big hug.

scan was ok. heartbeat, head, body and arm/leg flippers visible. everything ok so far, measuring 8-9 weeks. reproduction clinic have transferred me back to my normal gynaecologist/obstetrician.

doctor didn't look at boob rash, just told me to keep an eye on it and tell my regular doctor if it got worse. not that impressed. will get it checked by another doctor.

Euro - How are you? Did you go to the EPU. Thinking of you.

Free - Excellent news about the scan. Delighted for you. It must have been an amazing experience. Another 10 plusser success! Definitely worth getting the rash checked out. I hope it's nothing untoward.

Sneaky work post to say
Yay free ! That's excellent news So happy for you.
Crap that the Dr didn't check the rash though

euro thinking of you today

free glad all was well at the scan, will you have another one before your 12 weeks ??