TTC 10+++ months part 18

[Mrsden]

This is the BFP thread.

at coming round, you little druggies, I like to keep sleeping, once I was in recovery,snoozing with a nice warm blanklet, I remember someone shouting 'Jane wake up, wake up Jane' fecking Jane didn't wake up but I bloody well did another time I could here these funny snorting noises and woke up and realised it was me the nurse just smiled

sea hope all went well

coco so have you tested :)

joy its Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction, a bit like being stabbed in the chuff

foxy sounds like a good plan to me,you sound at peace with it all, I'm sure a couple of the women who have been on another thread did egg sharing, euro might know of others from the egg thread if you had any questions i'm sure they will be happy to share their experiences with you,enjoy your time off over xmas

sadly the remains of my pom pom garland met an unfortunate end yesterday, Kayla really doesn't like pom poms

Quite a few of the egg buddies are using DE. resipsa just got a BFP from a DE cycle.

Kayla is such a character. I wonder how she will cope with the forthcoming competition for your attention? Do you think she will have a teenage sulk?

Ran to Boots and bought cheapies at lunch. Doing first pee tomorrow, I'm proud of myself for holding out for nearly a week. Would PCOS cause a false positive opk? I'm only "suspected" PCOS not confirmed.

buzz sorry to hear about the stressful and poorly pregnancy. It's not fair that the wait and worry doesn't end at the first scan. at waking yourself up snoring. I've only had a general for an op when I was a teenage. Absolutely LOVED the feeling when I woke up, but I'm more of a control freak now so that might have changed

fox it's so great that your feeling positive about the next step. What sort of info do they give you about the donor? In my younger years I wanted to be a donor but figured I'd wait until I'd had my own.

Finished work. Train's just getting in to station. Woohoo!! Happy Christmas xxx

coco I shall be up at a sparrows fart looking out for your news

euro what time is your blood test tomorrow, its the fact I was sitting in the room when she did it, she started with one stopped turned looked at me then carried on Barrys cat Barrys problem but yes I imagine there will be temper tantrums when the competition arrives, serves us right for spoiling her have the egg buddies set up there own thread, ivf worriers thread has been slightly hijacked

Coco - well done! I look forward to your news. I can't believe you managed to wait this long before testing.

Euro - I read on the other thread where I stalk you have had some spotting. Big handholds. Fingers crossed it is Eurobean bedding in nice and tight. I bet you can't wait till the next blood test. You do sound v chilled. I am most impressed.

Free - Not so long till your next scan. Sending sticky sticky thoughts your way.

Fox - I am glad you have a plan in place already. How do you and Hare feel about DE?

Buzz - I am so sorry pregnancy has been so worrying. I agree that the people who breeze through it all seem to be instadiffers. You are almost there and soon you will be holding your baybee. It will all be worth it I am sure. I can't deny it. I love the feeling of coming around... if that makes me a druggie... LOL

Thanks Lemons and Joy for your lovely words of support as well.

All went okay with hystero. It was light sedation rather than general A.
I must say the clinic nurses are brilliant and v caring but the facilities.... I am not sure I have seen worst anywhere else but I guess that's not what we are paying for. The mice traps in the changing room and recovery room really put me off. I have serious musophobia. They are also doing some building work at the moment. It was most odd to sit in the recovery room seeing builders walking pass and peeping in the corridor.

I did have a slightly embarrassing moment.. I got changed into my transparent gown and completely forgot to put on the dressing gown they told me and walked into the corridor in just the tissue gown... then I realised that can't be right!? I think only one lady saw me before I realised my mistake and headed back to the changing room. What a silly mare!

Just did my first stab... it was nothing after the horrid Humira. Feel so much better now that I have that done.

I am finished for the hollidaaay! Time soon for huge catch up before Christmas but I had to say MICE TRAPS!!!! What?!!!!! Sea I'm glad you're ok. Where on earth is all their money going?

Fox you must be pleased it's all finished for the year. You deserve a big rest.
Re mice traps. I know! To be fair I think most of the money goes on staff and testing. I keep telling myself I'm paying for science and not surroundings.

But sea that really isn't ok! I am shocked. But it is the outcome that matters now. Well done for stabbing, I found stab no 1 horrible and was also glad it was over. You are doing amazingly and have been so incredibly brave this year.

I know. It is v off putting. I only spotted them in the changing room and recovery room, not where they do the procedures. Still not v pleasant but the staff were really excellent especially the nurses. I'm trying to look at the positives.

Eeek sea, that would really freak me out. I'm glad the hysteo was ok though.

Good luck for tomorrow coco. In answer to your question, yes, PCOS can give you a false positive OPK as it messes with LH levels, but I have high hopes for you.

buzz I don't think there is another thread. I have lurked occasionally and I see that there are lots of post-differs on there. I think it's kind of nice that they can all chat together now. Everyone on there seems lovely.

fox you are sounding in a much better place than you were a few weeks back. Hurrah for holidays!

Sea - you made it to the dungeon then! Thankfully I missed the mice traps. Yuk! I was starkers in that changing room when one of the doctors came in. I never quite understand why they can't give the patients a separate changing room so the docs don't walk in. The big man is supposedly the world's richest fertility doc so I wish they would invest in a decent dungeon and good scanning machines. It can't take much to do that. Anyway well done for stabbing- you are truly off. It will fly by now.

fox yay for finishing for the hols! Hope you have a well deserved rest.

sea the dungeon and mousetraps does not conjure up images of an expensive cutting edge fertility clinic. That's shocking! However if they are sprucing the place up to make the facilities better, the building works would almost certainly disturb mice that live in the area. We had the same at our office. Building works two doors down caused mice to move in. When the works stopped the mice disappeared.

afm BFN... stupid feckin body, I guess it was a false opk and falling off the booze, coffee, carb wagon has thrown my cycles back in to their normal lengthy and unpredictable state. More bummed by that than the negative. Well I'm going to start the day with a latte and enjoy Christmas to its fullest.

MrC is being really chatty so wants me to stop typing. Catch up later x

Sea sounds like you have a horrible bug indeed! It does seem to be going around at the moment I am avoiding the tube as much as possible in the run up to Christmas! The only time I have ever been sedated is for ec and I really liked it as well, I hadn’t been sleeping much and I just felt really happy that I had a nice nap…why see through gowns?? I don’t mind mice but I think I would be freaked out by seeing traps in a clinic from a hygiene perspective. Still I am sure they have all that under control, they are renowned for their results! Congrats on doing your first stab!

Nice to see you Sweet

Euro Brilliant news about your bloods!!! I am sure the next few weeks will be scary but so far everything is going well, hold onto that. Good luck for the bloods today.

Sar how are you feeling? Are you bored of people asking if there is any news yet?!

Buzz Wow 34 weeks! On the home stretch! Sorry that pregnancy hasn’t been as smooth as you had hoped, I am sure that long term ttc makes it much more stressful the whole way through, if we were insterdiffers we would have no concept of how fragile these things can be.

Coco I’m sorry, if there is hope then the negatives are harder. Enjoy your latte!

Free the waiting never stops hey! Hope that your wait until the next scan speeds by!

Fox Glad to hear this is the end of your manic week over with! Hopefully you can relax over the holidays. I agree MrT (who is one of the worlds most positive people) actually said last night, ‘I do hope 2014 is a better year than this one, I cant wait for it to be over’. I am so pleased that you are feeling more positive.

Thanks for your support ladies, I feel a lot more positive this morning, I will get the blood results today as I went in too late yesterday but it is a no and I seem to be fine with that now that I have stopped taking the progesterone! I knew all the way through nothing had happened so I don’t know why it threw me so much but I guess the hormones don’t help.
We luckily have an NHS round to go for next, for which I am so grateful and we will start in January I think. In the meantime here’s to champagne and gin over Christmas!
Waves to everyone I have missed.

I'm glad you're feeling more positive ten. And stopping the progesterone is always welcome! Enjoy your Xmas champers!

coco I'm so sorry about the cruel BFN. Why do our bodies play tricks on us?

joy the conditions there do sound pretty poor. According to this (ok it's the fail, so probably only about a 10% likelihood that it is true) he made £25m in a YEAR! www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2143934/The-25m-IVF-doctor-Clinics-profits-fuel-criticism-human-life-industry.html

Quick post from me but just wanted to say what brilliant news on the blood test Euro

ten so sorry that you got a BFN. It is so tough. hUGS TO YOU.

Coco Ditto to you too. Our bodies can be horrid bitches sometimes. Hope that you are feeling okay. I say fall off the healthy wagon spectacularly and have a blow out Christmas & then have a virtuous New Year!

sea Hurrah for getting through the hystero and thank you for making me smile about you flashing the waiting room! Mice traps & this is a private clinic????

fox I am pleased that you are on the home stretch work wise.

free so glad that all is well with you.

buzz sorry that you think you now have SPD too. What rotten luck, it sounds horrible.

Right must dash. I've got so much to do I don't know where to start though coffee and a pecan pastry is tempting for a kick off and MrP, like every bloody year, isn't here when there is all the Christmas prep to do grrrrrr. Love and waves to all!

coco so sorry about the BFN :(

free glad you are feeling a bit more positive, roll on January

sea hope you are still in a druddie haze today

euro have you had the second blood test results back, have I missed that?? I agree the ladies are lovely on the thread but they now totally monopolise it now with their baby/feeding chat, the thread is supposed to be about supporting newly ivf duffers, they hardly ever post, I certainly don't feel I can chat on there, I find it a bit depressing

pout how was the coffee and pecan Barry has just scuttled out the flat so I suppose I should get on with a few jobs

I kind of see what you mean, buzz. I have a little lurk occasionally and have enjoyed reading about their wins, but I see your point about the duffers having nowhere to chat.

AFM, I have nothing to report, because the clinic didn't bloody well call! And when I called them a couple of hours ago, I got a recorded message saying the clinic closed at 2pm. FUCKERS. HOW MUCH AM I FUCKING PAYING YOU? Harrumph. I have to hope I can get hold of someone tomorrow now.

Of FFS Euro, that is a complete disgrace. What the duck is their problem? Don't they understand they are dealing with people who have been though fertility hell. I'm pissed on your behalf. You better get a refund.

thats shit euro i'd be mega pissed off, clinics seem to miss the point about how stressful it all is, if it was a breeze they would be out of business, who the fuck wants to wait for blood test results

Oh euro had been checking back waiting for your news. That is ridiculous. I would be raging. The only thing I can hope is that they haven't bothered because everything looks good. But still I agree it is a disgrace.

euro That's awful and v unprofessional of them. They must understand this is a v v difficult journey. I am sorry and really hope you manage to get hold of someone first thing. Grrrrrrr on your behalf.

ten I am gutted for you. It's so unfair... There are no words but you do seem to be taking it well. Enjoy your Xmas and then in the new year you can think about next steps. A big hug to you. I like the sound of MrT. He sounds like a good 'un.

joy Yes I made it. Well I hope the mice traps are only there because of the building work then! Good that they didn't have it when you were there. I agree they could improve the place. My understanding is Mr T took a massive dividend to work on a biz model of expanding his clinic nationwide. I read that although he is v rich he doesn't have a car nor does he take hols. He lives in a nice area but apparently the place is not at all grand. I don't think he is driven by money, but more his legacy and perhaps ego.

pout You sound like a v busy Xmas hostess!

Day 2 of stimms. So far so good. MrS thinks I am running around too much but I am just trying to ignore that I am cycling as much as possible and get on with my life. Still bleeding but I am guessing that is normal after a hysteroscopy.

I am trying to relax after an IVF failure and telling myself I am not 'infertile' but just taking longer to conceive than average so I don't go crazy while my body recovers so I can do another IVF. With that mindset, I have moved from the infertility board back to this conception board. Hoe you don't mind if I join you.

Euro, just noticed your post that the horrors didn't call you with your blood result! Far out! Was your first blood result at least high numbers, or were they on the low side, making this anxious wait even longer? Hope you can get hold of them soon. Hang in there. You've come so far.

Hi shellster. Welcome to the thread. This is a lovely supportive place.

My HCG was decent on Thursday. I'd basically told myself that if the second number showed a decent rise I would try to stop worrying at least until the scan in a couple of weeks. I was also planning on telling my parents as they are coming for Christmas and it will be immediately noticeable if I'm not drinking as I am usually leading the charge! (And I'd tell them if things went wrong anyway, even though they were not terribly supportive last time.) So a lot was waiting on that phone call!

sea I think you are right that he is driven by ego/legacy from what I have read.

I'd say keep running around for as long as you feel up to it - just listen to your body. I was fine right up to EC, very sore and bruised afterwards. Other people with loads of follies get very swollen and tender in the lead up to EC.

pout I hope your Christmas prep is going well!

They finally called back (after some chasing). The HCG was 246 (it was 107, 48 hrs earlier). So I am going to try to stop mekulling until the New Year now (and then it will all start again for the scan on 3 Jan).

Euro . Now kick up your feet over xmas and try not to mental. I know so difficult. But i'm very happy for you.

Welcome Shellster - i'm sorry about the bfn. It's very tough. I like your thinking. Basically we are just on different paths to other people. This is a very supportive thread. i think the vast majority of us on here have been trying for at least 3 years and/or have at least one failed cycle behind us.

Sea - i don't think it matters if you are running around at this point. I was running up and down the road to the clinic right up to EC (ok that's not a good advert i know!!). But obviously after ET , you will need to kick up your feet a bit more. My friend's friend was successful on her 6th round and she was convinced it was because she started running and doing exercise again before EC and continued running after ET on her lucky 6th round.