Angels and Rainbows-remembering our angels and hoping for rainbows

[Star0909]

New thread ladies. Come in here for support.

Hi, it's Star, I've NC. Chuckling away at hand bagging! Will catch up properly later x

Hello lovely ladies

I used to frequent this thread from its beginnings three years ago I havnt been on here for a bout a year, I recognise a few names (waves hello).

It brought a smile to my face to see the thread still going but also sadness to know that it is needed. And I know how much this place means to alot of you, this thread helped me so much after the stillbirth of my daughter Ophelia and also the two miscarraiges that followed. I now have a beautiful rainbow, his name is Lachlan and he was born October. I just wanted to drop by and say hi really and to say to all those who are trying their hardest to conceive while greiving, its a hard road be gentle with yourselves and dont give up hope that one day your rainbow will be with you. Love to all your angels and love to all you strong women.

Fan x

Hi fan lovely to hear from you

How is everyone else doing Ruby, MissA, Ducky, Blue, ATM?

All ok here, just changed an exploding nappy and I feel lucky to be able to! Looking forward to the long weekend, anyone got any plans? I'm mainly just taking it easy and catching up with a friend for lunch on one day.

Btw, I was reading back through the last couple of pages and some of my typos are atrocious. Please accept my apology. MUST.TRY.HARDER!

Hi everyoneeee

How are you all?

Hope your return to work is going ok ATM. I will be returning the end of the month

I have my scan at 11.30 on Wednesday and I'm terrified

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Hi all. On my phone and not managed to read back through everyone's messages but really hope everyone is doing ok?

Will keep everything crossed for your scan on Wednesday Ducky. How you feeling other than anxious?

All ok here. Work is ok. No one really mentions what has happened other than my very close colleagues which is ok, although some days it really does feel like it never happened or that everyone has forgotten.

Trying not to think too much about the pm results next week. Depending on the outcome of those I kind of feel like I'd like to start ttc again in maybe June or July but have yet to have that conversation with DH and I really feel like he's going to want to wait a lot longer.

Hope everyone has something relaxing and lovely planned for the bank holiday weekend x

Will be thinkin of you ATM, it's on 8th isn't it?

You might be surprised at DH with trying again. I was certain DH wouldn't want to try again for a long time but he was just like me and wanted to ASAP.

It still doesn't feel real at the moment and it sounds awful but I'm kind of expecting the worse on Wednesday. They have gave me a scan on a different ward so I won't be in the same places as with dd. just really hoping to see a heartbeat everyone keeps telling me to think positively but it's so difficult.

Hi all. Catching up with the thread here. missa glad all is well. Congratulations ducky, good luck for your scan. It's so hard after a loss to manage your anxiety, I know I worried before every scan. It is great they can see you in a different part of the hospital this time. Will think of you on wed.

ATM welcome, sorry you find yourself on here. I lost my daughter in Sept 2012, and now have my rainbow
son, 8 weeks old. I hope the pm goes well, and you get the OK to try again. We started to try straight away, as
ithad taken us a good while to get pg the first time, luckily a lot quicker this time.

Ruby and blue hope it's going OK for you, not feeling too sick, tired and anxious.

earth nice new name! Hope your rainbow is doing well. fan hi, lovely to hear from you! I remember reading your posts in my early days on here, it was hearing about rainbow pg and babies that helped get me through those early months of grief and gave me hope when TTC. It's a long road we rainbow mums travel, but so worth it.

Hope people have nice plans for bank holiday, let's hope for some sunshine!

Earth I like the new name too. Hope your lunch went well and wasnt interrupted by too many exploding nappies!

Fan Its so nice to hear your story and know that life is good again for you

Ducky that first scan is always so terrifying, have you got someone going with you? And yes its almost impossible to think positive after what we've been through. Will be thinking of you on Wednesday, let us know how it goes

ATM not sure what day youve got your PM appointment, but really hope it goes as well as possible and you get some answers

Owl lovely to hear from you, hope all the Owl family are well

Blue hope youre ok

Ruby big day for you and I tomorrow, hope it goes well for both of us

Waves to all x

My mom is going to come with me

Just had another incident, we were out and I saw a lady I know and she came running up and said 'ooohhh how's the baby?!' I burst out crying again. I wonder how many more of these I'm going to get

Glad you have your mum for support at the scan Ducky. Oh, it's so awful when people don't know the circumstances but crying is totally an understandable response. (And usually what I do too!) How you feeling now?

Our pm results are Wednesday at 2.30. Mum is going to have DD all day so that DH and I can do a bit of shopping in the morning and maybe go out for some lunch to keep us busy before the appointment.

Cheery wave to everyone else x

Hope you are able to get some answers from pm appointment. And try not to be disheartened if you don't get an answer as to why, apparently this happens a lot. Try and relax beforehand and let DH spoil you I will be thinking of you x

I feel ok, I feel quite bad for the lady as she really didn't know what had happened and my reaction was to just move away from her, DH spoke to her and she was obviously horrified and was really sorry but I was just too upset to speak and a bunch of people just flocked around me to make sure I was ok so she couldn't get near me, she looked pretty upset

Hope everyone is doing ok

Thinking of you MissA and Ruby

Thanks Earth. Thinking of you today MissA. Fingers crossed for us both. Will post properly later x

Thanks Earth x

Well its both good news and bad news for us. One of our little beans hasnt made it - just a few days ago they were both fine with strong heartbeats and now there's only one we kept telling ourselves not to get our hopes up about two, but it was hard not to. But the good news is that bean 2 seems fine and was wriggling away. It was a disappointing visit alround really, just as our visit came up the specialist rushed away to an emergency and we were seen by a very young inexperienced stand-in doctor who seemed to have no idea. She had all my details in front of her yet asked me "when was the c-section and why" of course I burst into tears as usual. And at the end of the visit after telling us we had lost a baby she finished with "Congratulations" Anyway I imagine it sounds very selfish of me to be whingeing when we do have one healthy bean (for the time being) and we are thrilled about that.

Ruby hope all your news is good x

Ducky good luck for tomorrow x

Ohhh missa so sorry and what an idiot saying congratulations, what is wrong with people. There must be something in the air recently making people say these things. Stay strong for the little bean x

Really scared for tomorrow and worried about the lack of symptoms but will see how it goes I hope they read my notes first so I don't have to go explaining myself again

MissA I'm so sorry that one of your little ones hasn't made it, I can't imagine how hard it is to grieve but also feel grateful for the one you have at the same time. Sending you lots of love and strength and I am desperately willing bean 2 on for a healthy and strong few months ahead x

missa so sorry it wasn't the absolute best news, but so glad there is a bean going strong. We are all supporting this baby now. Im glad you feel able to be thrilled, I am thrilled for you too.

Ducky hope it goes OK tomorrow. If you go on the SANDS website you can get stickers to put on your notes to alert people to the fact you've had a loss. I stuck one on and it seemed to work. They asked about it at times but it was only when it was relevant to this pregnancy.

Thanks owl that sounds like a good idea, do you order them from the shop or something? I find the sands website a bit confusing!

shop-sands.org/shop/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=16_18&products_id=180

Ducky, hopefully this link will work x

Thank you earth the link worked.

You beat me to it earth!

Oh Missa I'm really sorry to hear that. Thinking of you and happy for you that your second little bean is doing well. I can't imagine the emotions that you'll be feeling but just wanted to wish you comfort.

Hope tomorrow goes well ducky, will be thinking of you too.

Hi to everyone else x

Thank you for the support everyone, it means a lot x

Hi guys

Just got back. We saw a little tiny blob with a heartbeat

They said it's very hard to date at this stage but recon in 6+2, I have another scan in around 3 weeks to confirm dates