Been trying for a year kitty, but my periods went AWOL for five months in the middle, which was when I snuck away from Berry HQ because I was feeling too sad that I couldn't even join in with the talk of shag weeks and 2ww and the joys of charting. After 5 months, GP finally agreed to refer me to a specialist, and bloody period returned next day!
Had managed two by the time my appointment came and was feeling quite proud of myself, but he wanted me to take progesterone tablets for 4 months to get everything properly regular before doing any tests. I really wasn't keen to take them because the bumpf said that it was very unlikely you could get pregnant when on them, so I came straight back to Berry HQ to ask for advice because there are no greater experts anywhere else in the country!
I was hoping that I was maybe back to normal(ish) and wouldn't need the tablets, so was feeling very blue when AF didn't turn up when I had expected her. I didn't believe for a second that it meant anything good, because I have had all those ups and downs before, but had a test in the cupboard so decided to give it a go this morning.
When I have tested before I haven't dared look at the stick until the 3 minutes were up because I wanted to keep the idea that I might still be pregnant for as long as possible, but this time I forced myself to watch it the whole time to get rid of any silly hopes as soon as possible and get on with my day. When the second line started appearing I thought I had imagined it. Then I thought I must have used an OPK stick by mistake, and did a mad dash for the bin to check!
When I realised that it was a proper pee stick, and it was a definite line, I didn't know what to do. Strangely I didn't really feel anything, because I couldn't believe it was true. My hubby was still in bed (it was 6:30!) but I felt like I couldn't even let myself think about it because surely it was a mistake, so I left him in bed and took the dog out, forcing myself to think about other boring things and definitely NOT start trying to calculate due dates. It was only when I tested later with ridiculously expensive tests and they all said yes that I started to believe it.
Hubby still doesn't know! It is our wedding anniversary today, and his birthday tomorrow, and we are going out for dinner in a bit, so I am going to tell him then. Makes me feel a lot better about the crap present I've bought him!
Right, sorry for dragging it out a bit, I am very grateful that you have indulged me, I've been desperate to tell him all day so I may have gone overboard here! Well done for injecting yourself - it might be easy but I'm damn sure I'd struggle!