Mad ? yippee you?re pupo , that?s fantastic. Willing the other ones to the freezer. I hope you are able to fully distract yourself for the next 12 days.
Rabbit ? i saw that thread about Emma C and I remember it put me off her but I think I agree with Sea, i never quite trust some posts where there poster seems to have just posted once. But you never know. You will find the strength to balance work and ivf. I think I found that one of the trickiest things actually and many people i came across had given up work to concentrate on ivf. I thankfully don?t have a stressful job and I work close to the clinic so it makes it a lot easier plus work is a great distraction but the stress and worry about my boss and manager finding out wasn?t very nice. But a lot of that is to do with the clinic. A lot of things I had done last time fell over the Christmas break so if I am to start very shortly, it will be interesting to see how I will get around things. Will you be able to tell colleagues and bosses?
Euro ? i?m sorry your anniversary dinner was melancholy. I hope you are ok today. Also seriously impressed about you cross examining someone at international tribunal. Blimey! I think you can also add that you had EC whilst awake on to your list. You should be very proud.
Sea ? you are very knowledgeable about acu and it is interesting what you say about specialisation. I have always navigated towards the acus who specialise but I then become cynical and think they are better at marketing and business than at acu. One great way to keep people coming back is to give plenty of anecdotes that gives hope and lifts spirits but Miss Distrustful here sometimes wonders about these incredible stories i keep being told when I am being needled. It?s a great shame acu is so unaffordable here. I keep thinking i should go back to Anna actually but she is so expensive. She did manage to zap away my ovary pain though after EC, i had been shuffling around for 5 days and I saw her and bang it went. How are you feeling about getting re-tested next week? If all goes to plan, I guess I will be starting very soon.. whenever Auntie shows up and I hope to be on the flare short protocol again.
Cos ? I love the fact that you asked what everyone had been doing to distract themselves. It?s interesting. I have known I?ve been living in a fog for a while but where we live doesn?t help but there are signs this is going to change and a garden may be on the horizon. Writing is so therapeutic. I?ve always liked writing stories and like many people , would love to write a book one day. My focus is terrible though ? too many ideas and not enough self discipline to follow things through. I am writing a children?s story but I am also trying to write a humorous (if that?s possible) account of TTC. You?re a big dancer aren?t you? That?s great to have something you can lose yourself in. I get very carried away on the dance floor but I have no rhythm and no style but I do love it. I went to a wedding in April and it was wonderful to get on the dance floor and just go totally crazy after 3 months of crap. I nearly cried because of the fun and normality of it all.
I am almightily impressed and 
with the sewing machine bonanza on here. I love the idea of being able to make my own curtains and cushions but I was reading back through all my old school reports a few weekends ago wondering about the things i used to be good at and enjoy and it reminded me I did sewing at school, ?Unfortunately Joy is not very neat at sewing. She puts in little effort or concentration and needs to spend less time in idle chatter.? So I don?t have high hopes for a hidden talent.
Whilst I wait for AF, I am psychologically preparing myself for another round. Trying to control the negative thoughts and fears is very difficult but today I?m feeling positive and now I would just like to get going. I?ve started on the super protein powder and milk (yuk) as directed by my nutritionist. Roy and I have put so much effort in to nutrition and supplements so I really will be fascinated whether it has made any difference or whether it will just validate my theory that the more effort I put in to this, the further I get from my goal. I mean I was drinking and eating rubbish food and Roy had only just given up years of smoking when I first got pregnant. It doesn?t make sense. Anyway, having read another poster on another thread I bought a book called ?The Reality Slap? which is quite interesting. We have all had this slap on here but now we arel living in a reality gap where our life isn?t where we want it to be and so i am trying to learn acceptance and commitment therapy....I mean why not, I have done crazier things druing this f*ckfest! 